Touyas Request

Touyas POV

I should have set a damn alarm for them. Hell I should have knocked. Neither of them noticed me when I walked in. Now I'm standing here while they say their goodbyes pretending I didn't see them. Acting as though I didn't just jerk off on the porch listening to them together like a fucking loser. Dammit, the way she was riding him was hypnotic. I would kill for her to touch me with such care even if only for a minute. Fuck Hawks is right, I'm getting way over my head with this shit. Things were easier when I just wanted to fuck her, but I find myself caring about her more and more ever since that second day alone with her before I took her to the hideout. When I found her practicing the name Dabi over and over before deciding to start calling me suga. The look in her eyes when she told me to her I'm Touya and she can't think of me as Dabi, she's the first person in my life to never see me for the ugly inside or even out. "Thanks again Dabi, I really appreciate you helping me set up some time with her." He actually thinks I give a fuck about him? This was for her. "You happier now Y/N?" I ask hoping I did well. She nods at me smiling for real, I forgot what her true smile looked like. She kisses him one last time then walks back with me to the bottom of the hill waiting for our warp. I wish I were worth loving.

Y/Ns POV

Shigaraki walks in as I'm singing along to Paramore's "Still Into You" making dinner. "Well you sure are in a good mood Ahiko, have a nice day out shopping then?" Shopping right, that's what Touya told them explaining my newest hickies as a make out session in an alley, he returned with clothes for me so it was easy to sell. "Was nice to have my suga to myself for a bit." I turn handing him a spoon to taste with. "It's perfect yet again Ahiko, not sure how Dabi stays so thin eating your cooking." I chuckle knowing damn well he's a better cook than I am, he just never shares with them. Touya walks in taking a seat "I have a fast metabolism." He says lazily. "What's with you sour puss? Ahiko has been happy as a clam since you got back and you've been sulking." Dabi absent mindedly waves his hand towards me. "She wouldn't get this lingerie I liked, said it's wife lingerie and I'll have to wait." Shigaraki laughs taking a seat as well. He's right though, I wonder what happened while I was with Tamaki because Touya seems to be really down. I push a bowl of stew in front Shigaraki with a smile and then turn Touya in his seat straddling him and pulling him in for a kiss. "Don't be sad Suga." I kiss him again he growls and grabs my hair tightly pulling me into him kissing me deeper. "Hey, I'm trying to eat, you have a room to do that in." Shigaraki complains to us.

Touya slams the door behind us no longer sad but angry he grabs my wrist pulling me close. "The fuck was that about?" I swallow hard more than a little scared. "I didn't mean to piss you off, it's all I could think of to talk to you alone, somethings up and I need to know you're ok." His tone softens "What does it matter if I'm ok or not? I'm no one. I mean nothing to anyone, not even you." He lets me go and plops down on the bed. I sit next to him taking his hand into mine. "That isn't true, you mean a lot to me." I will the tears not to fall, his need for love is worse than I realized. "I saw you today, with him I mean. You must have lost track of time because you were riding him and telling him he's your everything when I first walked in." Shit, I have to ask the one thing I don't want to. "Touya, what is it you really want from me, I've always thought it was friendship, but I'm not so sure anymore." He rolls his eyes. "I settle for your friendship, what I want is for you to love, fuck, and comfort me." There it was out in the open after all these weeks. "I give you two of those things already, it may not be in the way you want it, but I do love you, and I'm offering you my comfort right now. What else can I do to help, please I hate seeing you this way." He thinks it over for a long minute. "Would you be willing to give me what you gave to him today? I don't mean the sex part. I just, I want you to kiss and touch me that way, I want to feel like you love me that way, even if it's just this once. I'll treasure it always."

His eyes are burning into my soul I try to look away from his pain and sincerity, but can't seem to manage. I lay next to him and wrap him in my arms. "I want to make you happy, but I feel like what you're asking will only give you happiness for a short time then make it worse." He goes to say something when I hear someone try the door handle then the jingle of a lock picking kit. I throw my shirt off and get under the blanket pulling him under with me, he quickly removes his shirt and I pull him over to kiss me. His kiss is soft and gentle, trying to turn his wish into reality. Shigaraki walks in followed by Toga. "See Toga I told you, now stop with this nonsense, what reason would they have to pretend to be a couple?" Touya raises his head to look at them "Not this shit again crazy." She lets out one of her demented laughs. "Shiggy, you need better ears, they were talking before we came in here, it sounded like she was telling him she didn't want him." Shigaraki just looks from her to us. "Fine, have it your way, I'm sick of this conversation, sorry Ahiko." Toga jumps around psychotically happy. "Yay, alright get back to it, pull the blankets off I want to know for sure so I need to see everything." My heart sinks. "Later Toga, you're right she was just saying she didn't want to. Some clerk spayed cologne on me and it's throwing her off." She stares at us. "We'll be back at 8, make sure you're ready to give us a good show." She exits with Shigaraki behind her.

"Shit, shit, shit, I thought we threw that crazy bitch off our scent. She's actually got Shigaraki behind her this time and he's so annoyed I'm not sure I can get him on our side this time." I glare up at him. "This is exactly what you've been wanting, don't pretend." He looks pained at my words. "I want you to want it, not do it because you have to, I'm no rapist for fucks sake." I give him an apologetic look. "I'm sorry Touya that was out of line and I didn't mean it that way. What do you propose we do?" He gets up putting his shirt back on. "I'm going to try to talk some sense into Shigaraki. Be prepared if I fail because I will do all I can to put on a convincing show, we've come too far for the mission to go south now. Wash him off you would ya, I don't do sloppy seconds." A thought hits me "You're going to use a condom aren't you?" He puts his hands in his pockets. "Don't be stupid little mouse, there has been no condom trash coming out of here, they'll be suspicious. Don't worry, I can pull out, don't want to sully your perfect pussy with my shit cum." He leaves me alone in the room dread washing over me. We has 45 minutes for him to convince Shigaraki and me to accept this is likely going to happen.