Secrets

Kirishima helps me to get up from the floor shaking his head. "L/N you shouldn't be doing all this stuff, any of us would gladly help you." I give him a reassuring pat on the chest, "I've tried that, no one seems to understand how I want anything done or they do it in the wrong order. Tama cleaned the baseboards before the window, did you know that? How does that make sense, the dirt falls you have to go top to bottom. Anyway, now that I'm done detailing the baseboards I have a steaming company coming tomorrow to steam the floors and couch you can help me with the crib you and Bakugo got tomorrow after work if you want." He looks at me like I'm crazy but nods happy for the chance to help with the nursery. "We can be here at 4:30 and you'll be the one reading the directions while we doing the assembling, no arguments or I'll tell Mr. Aizawa." I let out a laugh we graduated 10 months ago and he still checks us on our bullshit, probably the best and most dedicated teacher of all time. "If you're done with your nesting dinner is here." Touya calls out. Kirishima runs out to join Touya and Tamaki while I take one last look at the nursery rubbing my bump little kicks meeting my hand.

Tamakis POV

As I open the door I hear Touyas voice, he sounds serious, I decide to listen in. They have been keeping some things from me and I can't stand it she tells me she loves me every day yet keeps secrets with him. "Please, don't push me away when you find out I'm right." He sounds different than I've ever heard him. "Touya, why can't you believe me when I tell you how important you are to me, I would never push you away. What happened to you don't care if the baby's not yours and caring for her no matter what?" He chuckles nervously "I said that when it was a lose theory, haven't you ever noticed she doesn't like me, when you're near Tamaki it's like she's performing gymnastics in there, the moment I even try to feel her she stops moving. She knows I'm not her dad besides, I've seen it in my dreams."

"Dreams? Those are just dreams they don't mean anything. We won't know anything until she's born, she's a blank slate, why do you think I haven't chosen a name?"

"I told you before we found out she was a girl and I was right, I told you her name already it fits her hair perfectly. I'm right about this I can feel it in my soul, don't tell me you don't too."

"Touya…" the sound of her crying for him breaks my heart every time, it's the only reason I put up with his bullshit. "I don't have any clue, for the most part I don't let myself think about it. In 6 more weeks she will be here and we will know. Right now the only thing I know with certainty is I hate seeing you hurting every day and I feel guilty because I'm so selfish I can't stand the thought of not having you around, I'm sorry I'm so sorry."

When I enter he's holding her swaying back and forth, I've accepted that he's going to comfort her sometimes months ago but I still hate seeing it. I know she loves me I see it with every look and smile, feel it in every kiss and gentle caress, still I can't shake the feeling she loves him too and just won't allow herself to do so on my account. He really believes the baby is mine? I hope he's right, I'm not sure I can handle the two of them sharing something else that I can't be a part of. At the same time part of me hopes the baby is Touyas. Now that I've gotten to know him more he's not that bad and I know he loves her every bit as much as I do. He's had a pretty shit life he deserves the happiness of father-hood, since she loves me and wants to be with me we can always have children later after we're married.