Soul

Every one in this world has at least once done something bad in their lives, mainly the rich people. But there is always one person out there who is willing to stand up for those who can't stand up for themselves. Which one are you, are you a good person, or are you a bad one? You can't really know for yourself, well, not until you become a bad person. But then again, you could have already been a bad person.

The point is, there isn't very many people in this world that would fight for others. There hasn't been for many years, not till I showed up. I changed how things work. I changed how people think about others. Sometimes, not in the best ways. Like I said when this started, my story isn't a heroic one.

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Loud steps splash through huge puddles of water, rain pouring down from the sky. People all around are either rushing around for cover or pulling out umbrellas. All but one person, yeah. Me.

The rain doesn't really bother me much, it has been one of the only things that really kept me sane all these years. Just listening to how peaceful it sounds, it just calms me down. I quickly run into the building of my apartment and go upstairs, I don't notice I started holding my breath as I open the door slowly.

"Great." I sigh, looking around. Eli isn't here. My hand gently rubs against the back of my neck. I quickly run over and grab a duffel bag, then begin filling it up with my few possessions I have.

"Let me guess, just gonna run?" I jump slightly at the tone of the voice, standing up, I turn around to face Eli. This sad look on my face. "Well? I don't know who you are-what you are. But I know that you are a good person-creature-whatever." A small smile is on her face, my sad look fades to a happy but sad one. I walk forwards and hug her. "Just promise me you'll be careful." I nod my head slightly, feeling my tears threatening to fall, my arms wrap around her shoulders, burying my face into the crook of her neck.

"I promise, I'm so sorry Eli. I just didn't want to hurt you." I whisper into her ear, the tears finally falling down my cheeks. As we both pull away, she brings her hand up and wipes away my tears.

"You could never hurt me, Ruth." A smile lights up her face, I give her one more quick hug, before slinging my bag over my shoulder. I then stare at her one last time, her beautiful long blonde hair flows down to her waist, making her bright blue eyes pop out against her palish skin. This sparkle shines in her eyes for one last time before I break contact.

I quickly run downstairs, then outside. I run over to my motorcycle, turning it on and jumping on. The wind blows against my face, my hair blowing back behind my shoulders from the force of the wild wind. Water splashing against my skin from the rain. My speed picks up, just as I reach a steady pace of speed I close my eyes.

"You're not a monster, and you're not alone. You'll never be either of them. Ever. You have a soul, you have a heart. And you have love." A woman's voice echoes in my mind, her voice is like this song playing over and over again in my heart. "No matter how separated we are, you will always be my daughter. I love you. Ruth." Her soft voice whispers into my ear, I never understood what she was talking about then, but I do now.

My speed picks up again, opening my eyes slowly, tears forming in the corners of them. I bring one arm up to wipe them away, my sleeve getting more wet in the process. Tears mix into rain drops against my palish skin.

"Never forget who you are. You have love, you have a heart. The biggest heart ever. But most importantly, you have a soul." The tears stream down my face, everything around me fades away as my speed goes higher over the speed limit. Cars and people, buildings and billboards fading past me. The smell of the fresh air fills my lungs, the wind wiping into my face and damp hair. Removing any and all remaining water from my face. Only for more rain to splash against it.

My tear filled dark ocean blue eyes look up at the moon rising above me, her voice echoing against my head. A few trees start to appear around me, the road becoming more bumpy. Then hundreds of them. My head goes down, a small cry escapes my lips as I pull the motorcycle to a stop. My mind finally giving up on the painful memories. I drop the motorcycle where it is and run into the woods.

The pain in my heart grows, my body moves gracefully around all the trees as they come up. This black swirling color fills my ocean blue eyes. The rain around me growing more violent by the second. I finally give up running as I end up in a open area surrounded by trees. My knee's give out and I collapse to the ground. Tears stream down my face. Everything goes black for a moment.

There in front of me stands a beautiful woman, her long brown hair flows to her waist. Loving brown eyes glow towards me, a soft smile planted on her lips. "You are not a monster, Ruth. Monsters are full of hatred, but you aren't. You have love. You have a heart. You have a soul." My hand pulls at my shirt right above my heart, why does it hurt so much? Why does it feel like losing her all over again?

"I'm so sorry mom!" I scream into the empty woods, the pain never going away.

"I love you Ruth. My little baby girl..."