Short Story

 I'm tired of it, being kind to the other people smiling just to cheer yourself up, helping others.

Sometimes you just get tired of everything.

But alas, regret is always at the end of the story.

Helping your others because you think if you need help they will also help you?

Just because you are kind doesn't mean everyone around you will do the same.

I never asked for help, it's not like they will help me anyway, I never blame my anyone about my situation.

Ever since I was 10 my mom always told me to be understanding and kind to the other people, yet she herself ignored me and alway helped the other people.

I don't hate her, I know it was just her nature to be kind but I always felt jealous.

My father is doing his best to make me and my sister attend the school even though I'm just a bastard son, yes my mom is his second wife but he doesn't live with his first wife anymore.

So I know how responsible my father is.

I never voice my problem because my brain has been developed at a young age, I just bear it on myself.

[circumstantial change detected]

 "i have proposal to chosen one,

If you desire something, then choose rebirth.

If you desire nothing, then choose eternal sleep."

[bedroom]

A little girl jumped at her bed, not feeling sleepy at all but only excited.

"grandma, i wanna hear the story about the female hero and her beloved man"

The little girl quickly made a puppy eyes at her grandma as she knew her grandma can't resist her cute eyes.

"what a greedy child, ok then lay down in the bed and ill tell you the story between the female hero called Alaya and her beloved man"

As her grandma sat near her bead and took a big story book.

"one day...."

There's a female hero named Alaya and the man whom she loved the most is Ed, while alaya is a hero from a powerful kingdom Ed is just a commoner through his whole life, but the difference is that the man named Ed is a reincarnated person from another world.

Ed is borned without power, so he tried to do his best until he became the greatest teacher in the whole world. He taught many younglings how to use magic, how to use swords, how to manage your territory as a proper noble and many more.

His standing has become very high that he is respected by many, but he still chooses to live a life like a normal commoner and refuses to accept payments and such a thing, only donation is the thing that he accepts which he made sure that it doesn't have any bad intentions.

One day the king sends his daughter to the village where the famous hero creator lives, at first the princess is very against the idea of if but she still followed her Father's order.

When they first met, she tried to introduce herself only to be ignored by him, this continued until she discovered that he is Running his own orphanage, she helped him run it along with some volunteers.

Thus getting the attention of Ed.

Not long after that he started talking with the princess thanking her for her generous help and their relationship continued to grow while she was being teached in both magic, sword and king ship.

But such a happy ending never happened.

The princess receives a call to her Kingdom as the new demon king is rising, she left her teacher whom she has feelings with, without even telling him anything as she doesn't want her to worry about her.

Soon as she came back she received a world recognition as she is the chosen hero, she fought and fought and fought knowing that she needed to protect someone or else....

But the fate played against her.

The demons found an alternative route to enter inside their territory, resulting in many village losses, once the news found its way to alaya she froze.

Running towards her only one destination that changed her from being a brat to responsible princess, she ignores his father anyone can't stop her, her only prayer is for her to arrive faster than the demons.

But alas, even if gods do hear her prayers, it was too late.

Everything is on fire, everyone is dead, she run, run,  run stopping herself from crying he clenched her teeth.

She looked back at the old house where the orphanage is.

There she found what she is looking for, barely alive.

She rushed, holding him thigh, as she was about to call his name Ed opened his eyes.

"i know you would come and save me"

"no, don't blame yourself, if, if i only try to make more heroes this won't happen"

" So don't cry ok, I don't want to see your sad face, remember what I told you right? You have to be strong  to protect your kingdom"

But the princess can't control it anymore and shout.

"i've already become strong! What am i lacking something!? I only want to protect you! Screw the kingdom! They don't even think about their people but you! You changed my view about life you help me realize how good to be free.... And yet, and yet you are the one who chains yourself to this!"

She hugs her closer, afraid to lose him.

"Tell me, why do you hate everything?"

Ed was surprised, but then he laughed.

"I'm such a fool, i thought you won't find out... Yes i hate everything but at the same time, i love them."

The princess is quite surprised by his answer.

"i know right? Im weird i don't know why but it just feels like it, remember the things i taught you? Let me tell you about my first life"

And after about few min ed made a summary of his first life, 

He tells her how his world has world peace, even if it's only in some part of the country but still he tells her how peaceful it was, the things he liked the one he loved.

"cough"

Alaya becomes worried, she hasn't received the blessing of gods but only recognition so she cant use the unique skills of heroes, she also forgot to bring any potion as she was rushing.

Ed coughs a mouthful of blood as he use his numb body more than necessary as he is already heavily injured.

" there's still few kids in the basement of this house, please save them my beloved student"

Now alaya understands why he hates it, she also hates it when he smiles, it was pure and kind she likes it so much that she'll do anything to keep it.

"at least, call me something like, yu-your wife...."

Ed is stunned for a moment but only a fool will not notice her feelings towards him since they got to know each other.

"yes, my darling"

Although she doesn't know what darling means, she didn't ask for more as Ed already closed his eyes.