Invisible

    Is it wrong to be used to something people don't like? Is it wrong to no longer care when people leave you? Is it wrong not to mind being invisible?

    I hope not. I'm used to being invisible which causes people to leave me which is something people don't like. It's gotten to the point where I expect it more than anything. I mean, how can I not? I can't name a single person in my life who hasn't left. Some came back but the point is that they left in the first place.

    I can't really blame them though. I don't stand out at all so it's easy forget I'm there. When I do stand out, it's in ways that piss everybody and who really wants be around that? Sometimes it's neither here nor there and we drift apart. Sometimes they get bored and switch from person to person before returning only to start the process over. Sometimes they get hurt and forget I know how to be there. Sometimes they go to someone they like more. Sometimes they simply stop caring.

    No matter the case, I end up being invisible again. When I don't talk there isn't anyone to care anyway. When I do talk, it isn't loud enough. I don't have any extraordinary talent. I'm not especially kind or hurtful. I don't put myself out there. I don't do anything to make people want to stay. 

    They leave, come back, leave, come back, leave, stay gone. When they leave for good, someone takes their place. Until that happens, I think I'll stay invisible.