Space Away From You
My mind is out into space
A space of relentless thoughts
Drowning from the inside
But able to smile on the outside.
I am here and I am not
Like I am the stars in the sky but you can only see the clouds.
I could be a comet crashing landing but you wouldn't know seeing the clouds.
It doesn't matter how happy I am
Sadness always finds it's way back
At the end of the day.
It was the best moment with the best friends
I enjoy it like sweet chocolate cake,
Like it could be the last day on earth.
Depression takes apart the cake piece by piece
It feels blurred like the cake got turned into liquid.
It gets replaced by flashbacks and trauma.
It sucks I never got to relish the cake even though
I was there...
But at the same time
I wasn't there.