Appendix: Dancing Fire - Custom Holidays (2)

Gabriel

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You always flow to sources against the flow... Only rubbish flows with the flow.

I wonder if I have become such garbage...

... Now, I live here with those I hated...

And... I still hate them sometimes, but in my weird way... I love them...

Oh yes.

I love to torment them.

This is exactly that, how I love. When my "love" really doesn't fully apply to them...

Tormenting them... This is wonderful...

Although... sometimes it gets boring, and that's when I'm down. Then I'm strangely sad, and I don't know what to do with myself. 

This is a little strange to me.

Ehhh...

Along with these thoughts, I'm reminded of something that I once come across somewhere.

I don't remember where exactly I saw it, but I have the impression that it reflects well my concerns about whether I'm not sold myself for convenience.