Chapter 138

Saad's pov:

Ya Allah, it has been so long. So long since I last saw her or them. Or be with her or them. Ya Rabbi ya kareem, are you angry with me? Is this my punishment for some grave mistake of mine? Or a grave sin of mine? I don't know ya Rabbi ya Kareem. I don't know. It just gets so hard sometimes. I feel like giving up. No, not on her but on myself. I feel like taking a break from everything. The burden, ya Allah the burden feels so heavy at times. I know that trying to find her isn't a burden on me, but ya Allah, sometimes when I feel tired, when all the burdens of this chaotic world crush me underneath it, when all the responsibilities and expectations come to me all at once, I feel like giving up.