It Feels Kinda Weird

Toma suddenly disappeared out of my sight when classes were over. I tried searching for him only to have my eyes stumble upon the sight of Xia talking to the guy I've seen with Toma last time. I immediately hid myself nearby and happen to hear their conversation.

"I don't know, I… I just." Xia's voice was trembling.

"I'm really sorry about before. After some time I realize that I'm still inlove with you." What the, is he Xia's ex-boyfriend or something?

"Haven't we agreed not to see each other ever again!"

"Come on Xia, I really love you."

"Stop forcing yourself on me!" I wanted to interfere so badly so I can drag her away from that man until the guy said something that shocked me.

"Fine, I won't force you but you have to let me see my son. You've been receiving support but you never let me see him anymore."

"That was part of the agreement!-" I couldn't listen any longer and ran away from that place. I was so shocked with what I just learned. Xia had a son with that guy?

It felt weird. The sadness from the damn break up turned into something else, instead of longing for Xia, I felt so betrayed and angry. Not only that I feel like that, I also feel like I've been deceived by someone so horrible.

"Fucking disgusting!…"

I walked it off, trying to distract myself with the surroundings but it wasn't so easy to erase this anger. Then as I saw Toma at some corner talking with Cami, I felt a little relieved but something made me feel worse so I rushed to get by Toma's side. "Toma!"

Right now, I feel like Toma is the only one who can help me with this.

When they looked at me, both their expression turned into worry. "Yuji? What happened?"

"Are you alright? You look bad."

I wanted to talk, but I couldn't understand why my throat was suddenly blocked and I can't utter a single word even if I tried. My eyes feels hot and my head feels numb. What the hell is happening to me?

"Yuji?"

I looked down, avoiding their gazes. I feel… so weird. I never felt like this before. All I could do was to press my head on Toma's arm and close my eyes.

We were all silent for a while until Toma spoke. "I think I have to help my friend here for a bit, I'll text you later Cami."

"O-Okay." Then I felt Cami's hand patting on my back after leaving. "I hope you'll be alright."

I just nodded and still wasn't able to utter a word. I hear Toma sighing and ruffled with my hair. "Want to go back to the dorm?"

I nodded again as response. Before we could leave the place, I felt Toma suddenly wrapping his arms on me and hugged me real tight. That's when all the tears escaped my eyes. "There, there. I'm here so everything will be alright." He said, giving me all the comfort that I ever needed at the moment.