Chapter 5: Attempt, Part 1

Alex's P.O.V:

I got up from the ground after crying for a few minutes walking to the shower. I took off my jeans and boxers and stopped in front of the mirror. I look at my bloody torso seeing all the bruises and openings that my blood escaped from.

Blood dripping down from my chest, waist and stomach. I shed a tear at the sight of the condition that I am currently in. Some of it dried and some of it still seeping through. The amount of blood I have lost today, it's outstanding that I can still be able to stand, but I still lose consciousness.

I enter the shower turning on the cold water washing off the blood off of my body. I washed my body off with soap and it pierced through my cuts. I couldn't bear the pain any longer. I rinsed off my body and got out. Luckily most of the blood came off and the dried blood became wet again. I wrap the towel around my waist and walk out of the bathroom. I walk into my closet picking out some pajamas. I picked out a navy blue tank top and black loose fitting sweatpants.

I took an extra towel to dry off the excess blood and water. I put on a pair of boxers and pajama pants, letting my slightly build torso bare. I hopped on my bed and reached over to the drawer beside my bed and got some bandages, alcohol, a rag and a leather strap. I double the leather strap and placed it in my mouth between my teeth. I damp the alcohol on the rag and start to clean my cuts and bruises. I couldn't handle the pain, thanks to the fucking bastard that made my condition worse. As I kept wiping the rag over my scars and bruises, I gritted my teeth into the leather so it would ease my tension. I finish sterilizing my scars and got a grip on the bandages. I wrap it tight around my arms to my wrist and around my torso securing the space in between the gaps. As I finish wrapping both of my arms, I put away everyhting else. My arms feel stiff but manageable.

I get up to turn off the lights, got back to my bed to lay down. I got under the covers and as I got comfortable, I look up at the dark ceiling.

"Tomorrow, I will end it then and there." I say before drifting off to sleep.

Time skip: 6:34am

I wake feeling pain and aches in my arms. They feel like they were stung by a swarm of angry bees and then bitten by a pack of hyenas.

"Can't be helped I guess." I sigh. I get up to take a short shower and get dressed, changing my bandages in the process. I pick out a black long-sleeved ripped button up shirt and tight black jeans with my favorite black Jordans. I mess up my hair to look slightly messy, but normal. Resembles bed hair.

I grab my bag and walk downstairs. I slip on my jordans, grab my keys and walk out of the house. I put on my helmet and got on my bike and drove off.

7:09am

I park my bike and head to my class. I was walking a bit more confident today knowing that I'm not gonna last for the rest of the day. I see a few girls taking about my outfit and how cute I was.

"Please, save me drama." I mouth to myself. I got into my English class and sat down at the extreme back close to the window. Scrolling through my social media, Instagram. I look at a few memes that were surprisingly relatable. Few minutes pass and the rings.

7:35am

The class and the teacher enter the session begins.

7:52am

A few minutes go by and someone knocks on the class door. I knew who it was, but I kept quiet. The teacher opens the door and it was Tyler. He enters without greeting the teacher and walks to the back of the class to sit by me. The teacher continues with their lesson after he is seated. Tyler turns his head to me, whispering at me trying to get my attention.

I ignore him. I rolled up my sleeves showing the blood stained bandages just to get a reaction out of him. I look over at him to see his eyes widened at the sight and condition of my arms.

"What did you do to your arms?" he asks, I can sense the worry in his voice.

"Why do you care? You were the one who made me like this." I stated.

"Like what?" he asks, looking more concern. I turn my head to make eye contact with him and say

"Suicidal."

He frowns.

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