What Is Left Behind

…Kati POV…

I have not spoken to Sebastian after he got mom to phone me to convince me not to have the boys earlier. I will admit that both Sebastian and her made a valid point. I would rather not put their lives in danger and let them be born with any complications. But what I did say is that if it is becoming dangerous for them to be in the womb, I will have them earlier.

Sebastian knows that I am not going to speak to him any time soon; he has not tried to either cause he knows that we shall just burst out in an argument. I wish I can make him understand what I am going through. 

He does not know how it feels like when your insides are being turned inside out. He does not understand the pain. He does not understand the fear of dying. It is so easy for them to sit back and say that I can do it, that I have done it before. Well, this time, it is worse, and I do not know if I can do it.