Chapter Eighteen

Following her outside he watched as she went and sat down on the steps that lead to the gym entrance. She looked back at him in a patiently waiting manner offering a smile as if she was expecting him to sit beside her. He looked around at the vacant area knowing there was no one around to interrupt them if needed and instantly became reluctant to proceed.

Like she knew he was debating on leaving she patted the spot beside her inviting him over again this time with more encouragement behind it. Raven arched a brow to these bold action she made and scoffed rolling his eyes settling with the idea that he should just get it over with now. The game was about to start and he knew she wouldn't want to miss it so this wouldn't take too long of his time.

He casually walked over to the railing looking down at the steps beside her where she had suggested to for him to sit. Debating to stand she was taking her time to start talking making it clear unless he sat down she wasn't going to. He grunted letting out a defeated huff while he took his spot beside her anyways. Though he faced away looking off into the parking lot trying to show as little interest as he possibly could while still complying to her wishes.

She looked over at the side of Raven's face giving a soft smile as her eyes followed his silhouette but she still remained silent. This silence carried out and it very quickly began to get on Raven's nerves, after requesting his company on the pretext of needing to talk he was really bothered by the furthered absence of conversation.

He sucked on his teeth looking down at his feet trying to contain his temper though he wondered just what they were doing if not going to talk about what happened, "Look, Jewels I need to get back there and..." he through up a hand showing his irritation with this having nothing else to say.

"Sorry," She spoke up to stop him from finding a way to leave.

His foot almost slides out from underneath of him to the next step with her statement finding it hardly worth his time to go out of the way for. Though he couldn't bring himself to face it he'd much rather she would just act like nothing happen and leave him alone so he preferred not to respond at that moment hoping sorry was all she wanted to say. Instead of anger he gave a forgiving smile like a twit trying to pass it off like he no longer cared as he went to stand like he were saying they were done with their conversation in a indirect manner.

"I had no idea you liked me like that," she adds trying to keep him there longer.

His pretending facade left and was replaced with anger, unable to hide his true feelings any further with her outright lie. Giving her a dull expression as he looked down into her brown eyes he sneered, "Do you know, I've heard that people with brown eyes are full of shit, have you heard that?"

She narrowed her brow having the question leaving her confused. Taking a moment having some slight awareness that he was speaking about her she gave a vacant chuckle, "Raven I have brown eyes and never heard of this, you just made that up" she claims giving a grin clearly trying to pass off the insult like she didn't catch it or that it meant nothing to her.

Raven looked her over not letting her pass this off wanting her to know he didn't believe her at all he continued, "Must just be you then, because what you just said was total bull shit and we both know it" he growled.

Raven became more angered by the moment as he was almost insulted by how she tried to act like she was innocent in the event that happened. When they both knew that even when she kissed him she made it clear she knew saying she wished Carson was like him. Though what really bother him was that he thought for the longest time that she was innocent and just being shy or waiting for him to make a move. Only to find out he just misread her completely and there she was showing him how much of a fool she thought he was.

She looked at him for a second and started giving an upset expression letting his statement truly sink in to effect her. This only fueled him to be more aggressive with his words allowing whatever he wanted to say out.

"Don't sit here and pretend you didn't notice the way I looked at you or took care of you, you took advantage of this information and used it to close the gap between you and Carson" He points out in an angered rage.

"I..." She tried to speak but he stood and broke her off from continuing.

"Save it, just stay away from me Jewels if you want Carson go after him and leave me out of it" he snarled as he was done with all of it.

When he went to walk away he felt a tug on his shirt as she had reached up and caught the fabric forcing him to look down at her, "Do you remember I kissed you?" she blurts out bringing it back in a blunt manner as a last desperate attempt to keep him there.

It worked making him stop in his tracks pulling his shirt away aggressively, "Of course I do, you have no idea how much I recall that horrible event" he snapped only able to remember the event for what it was, the moment that will forever change his life.

"Horrible?" she muttered under her breath taking offense, "I'm sorry, I knew you liked me and I did that without permission, I heard from Carson that you were afraid of kissing, like a phobia or something... I'm so sorry" she pleads exposing all the truth as she sought forgiveness.

He sneered to her weak apology that was meaningless now, "It's a little late now for that, if you knew you shouldn't have done it in the first place... the games already starting, I'm going back you go watch Carson or mess with someone else" he says out of spite.

"That's not all I had to say!" She yelled making Raven jump looking back to her.

"I didn't know your issue till just now when Carson told me in the halls..." She explained how she didn't know of his fears from the start "but I wasn't looking for him earlier." she adds.

Raven narrows his brow to her not sure why this mattered to the point that she needed to explain now like it would change anything. It didn't matter if she were looking for Carson or him to talk about last night he didn't want to even think of her any further.

She huffed looking down, "I was hoping to find you doing your checks so I could talk to you about the kiss but he was resting and you weren't there" she explains.

Though she was speaking clear with her words it looked like she was seriously struggling with this talk like it was draining her by the moment. Raven figured this was his doing for draining her energy and though he didn't really understand why, he did feel sympathy for her.

He figured her wanting to talk about the kiss was because of what she said before knowing it could ruin her chances of getting close if he hated her wanting to fix their relationship so she could still try to get with Carson. Raven knew this was a long shot since she wasn't his type but he didn't care to be the reason why she got rejected. Out of spite he much rather have Carson be the one to hurt her feelings now.

"Look I won't tell Carson what exactly happened between us and things can just stay as acquaintances between us three till you get the courage to ask him out... but do so quickly, once you're rejected I don't want to see you again, ever Jewels" he commands putting his foot down making sure she understood he was not interested in being the middleman anymore.

She let out a slight cracked noise in her voice as if she was going to say something but was about to cry from the defeat of his words. "That's not what I meant..." She whined shaking her head lightly.

"I keep thinking about the kiss" She begins to speak as she starts to stand up, "I keep thinking about you, and I'm sorry that you are afraid of kissing but I'm glad I did it and I want to do it again" Jewels claimed in a firmer manner than her whining from before like she was making it sound like there wasn't going to be an option.

Raven was starting to get scared, he had expected her to cry just then instead she was acting unusual even though he wasn't feeling sick. He had already started to feel a bit of the drain but not like last night and she also didn't look like the others did when they went after him. For the most part she looked normal, a little desperate, but normal.

"Jewels, I..." he went to try bringing up the game again so he could leave but she got closer to him.

He backed up almost falling over the railing behind him. He cursed himself for being so short at that moment. They were too close to the same size, just like a man she was dangerous and could easily over power him. He had to find a way to get away from her not wanting to be a girl again.

Glancing to the door it was like she knew he was thinking about running away. She grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, "I just need to confirm my feelings, I'm sorry" She claims as she attacks him with her lips pressed firmly against his own.

Raven's eyes widened by how fast it had happened, he didn't have a chance to react. He was lost, this was happening again only under the pretext that she wanted him this time and he couldn't tell if this was real or because of what he was. Either way it didn't matter he knew he had to get away from her before he change like he did in front of Carson.

Pulling his face back he paused only for a moment believing she was going to fall unconscious like before but she remained conscious looking at him confused. This confused Raven as his stared at her for a moment feeling his heart race with panic wondering why she was still awake.

His stomach turned and body began to feel like it was twisting on the insides again like before the pain it caused was horrible. He wondered why this only happened when he changed into a girl. He bowed over holding his stomach, her grip on his shirt kept him stable for that brief moment.

The pure agony showing across his face as he looked back up to her becoming a little light headed, "Not again..." he mutters as he slapped her hands from the collar of his shirt.

"Just leave me alone!" he shouts looking up at her in disgust before running away back to the halls, not knowing how much longer he had before he changed. Running down the hall he knew he needed to hide even though his room was the best option it was too far from him now to get to.

Almost passing it by he saw the men's room and slid to a stop deciding it was his best option to not be followed so he quickly rushed into the room. Standing in front of the mirror he looked at himself he was still a guy, but his stomach was turning even harder now than the last time being on an empty stomach.

"Raven, I'm sorry!" Jewels yelled from outside of the door coming down the halls.

Raven panicked to know that even now she was still conscious and searching for him. He rushed to the door and locked it keeping her and anyone else out from him.

Stepping away from the door he wondered just how well it would hold if things went the same way as before. Then it him, he wasn't holding whatever was in his stomach down any longer it hurt and forced its way to the surface. Turning to the trash can by the door he emptied what little continence in his stomach out into the bag as his entire body ached and burned while this happened.

"Are you okay?" Jewels persisted to worry about him hearing the hurling noise from the other end and all he could do was grunt a response.

Wiping his mouth with the back of his hand while pulling back from the trash he knew what this meant. Looking down at his now filthy hand in the light it looked basically normal but he knew it wasn't enough to confirm.

Reluctant he turned to the sink and walked over turning the knob for the cold water to wash his hands and splash his face. He had yet to look at the mirror leaving his hands cuffed over his cheeks the long red hair from before fell to the sides.

He knew it happened again, not wanting look up he didn't want to see himself but at the same time he didn't get a chance to see what he looked like before and couldn't help but be curious. Pulling his hands from his face he rested them on the counter before him and took a deep breath to prepare himself from what he sees. He looked up to the mirror slowly and saw a familiar face he saw Her, the girl from his dream. His blood ran cold and the world spun around him as he almost passed out from the shock of it.

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