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What if the beautiful kingdom you have always loved became your hell because a prince you once thought will be your knight in shining armor is nothing but a monster, will you do anything? Can you walk straight or jump into the fire if that means justice? Can you keep yourself until the very end?

I play Death and died

"Nyx, you know I could wait but please tell me why?" Grey has been asking me why I couldn't make our relationship official and what was I finishing.


"I thought you are my good girl, but why are hiding something? Good girl's don't lie." Him trying his best to get the truth from me. 


I am sorry for being a good girl only to you. I promise, after this, I'll be really good.


"Grey, I am not lying. It's just a secret not a lie. And it is for us." I smiled and kissed the tip of his nose.


"Okay, okay, I understood." Grey said and surrendered from asking and asking me.


We're in a cinema but he kept bugging me.


After while, when the movie's half done, Grey started talking again.


"Sorry, this is not suppose to be what we are to watch. You okay?"


He knows I don't like bloody movies. I do watch horrors but without so muchblood.  stuff going on.


I am still afraid of blood. Blood causes me anxiety and paranoia.


That is why I do not lay hands to get revenge.


Except for Timothy, that was greatly chaotic. After that, I didn't get enough sleep. I always have nightmares about blood and what happened before.


But it is just partly the reason why Tim died, most of it is because of overdose.


I shook my head and looked at my only escape, Grey.


He is looking at the big screen intently. How I wish we have a typical relationship.


I placed my head in his shoulder and continued watching.


Grey tag along with me, we went to see my Mama.


"We are here. You sure you are fine?" He said and held my hand.


I lightly nodded and walked clinging to each other.


I badly want to burst into tears. Her screams turn into a laugh. Her eyes are bewildered. Her moves are big and violent turning into a slow swing in the corner holding here knees to her chest.


"Mama, your daughter's here." I said and got closer to her.


The nurses advised me to not get close but I said I'll try because I know she recognizes me.


They let me but they are still on guard.


"Anylou, my love! Where is Andrew? Your Dad? How about Anysia?" My Mama asked while turning her head around looking for them.


"Drew and Sia are busy with school, it's their exam week. Daddy's busy with work. They'll come visit you with cake after sometime." I smiled.


I feel my heart pounding and it aches as if someone's punching it.


"I miss them so badly, Anylou my love. It is always just you who come to see me. I still happy that you are visiting me, don't get me wrong, my love! But sometime, tag them along with you, hah?" Mama said while brushing my hair and crying.


I didn't stop myself from crying anymore, I just let my tears fall down. I held her hand and rubbed it. Even though Mama's hands are cold, I can still feel warmth because I am with her.


"Me too, Mama. I miss them so so so much."
