II: Please him

Her PoV

We are getting along fine. As husband and wife? Nah. As strangers maybe. It's been weeks. And I'm really confused. Why did he marry me? To expand their business? Why me?

We arrived home without being tailed by the media, another safe arrival. He is a businessman, I'm an actress. Our life isn't as peaceful as what you think. I took a shower. I've already eaten, that's our routine. We both work our ass off and arrive home late so we eat outside. WhenI got out of the bathroom, he's nowhere in sight. Maybe he's in the study room. Even when he's home, heis still working. That's why we never really talked. It feels like his time is not even enough for his work. I have too many questions. But do I have the right to ask? This relationship is too blurry. I don't know the scope ad limitations. I wore a night gown, I always wear these because it is so comfortable.

I stared at the glass wall at the side of the room. The garden outside is visible. Such beauty. I sighed. This beauty makes me sad. I went to the kitchen and prepared coffee. Which is also my routine every night.

I remembered the first night I made his coffee. I am so nervous because I don't know how he like his coffee. I had to do some research, base on personality, what flavor of coffee would he like. Then I found out that usually, for a silent and secretive person, they like their coffee black. So I made him black coffee. I brought it to his study room nervously. Maybe you're asking why I didn't just ask him directly. I am intimidated. So I resort to this method. When I entered his study room, it is bland and dark. The only source of light is on his table. A single lamp. There are lights but he doesn't turn them on. I knocked at the door of his room to get his attention. He looked at me blankly. He's wearing reading glasses, round and big. God he doesn't look like a businessman. And don't forget he's wearing pajama, stripes and a colored navy blue and black.

"I made you coffee." I shyly said. I don't really know how to act in front of him so maybe I looked like an idiot that moment.

"Thanks." was the first word I ever heard from his mouth. Then he turned to the computer and papers again.

Thanks.

Surprisingly, his voice sounded so gentle. Almost like a lullaby...

I went back downstairs to play the piano. There is a song I wanted to play right now. Most of the time I played it sounds happy and vibrant. But now it is different. My surrounding is dark only lit by the light of the moon and thousands of stars silently watching me. His study room is on the second floor and is the last room there, he wouldn't be disturbed right?

I finished playing by 12 in the midnight. I stood up and wipe the tears welling in the corner of my eyes.

I went back to my room and lied on bed. I tried my best to sleep.

~~~

I woke up easily even on the slightest noise. Perks of being an overthinker. Always on guard.

As I slowly opened my eyes, I am startled when his brown eyes met mine. He is also lying down and he is facing me. I was startled and back away. I saw his eyes darken because of what I did.

"Are you afraid of me?" I hesitated fo a moment but nodded my head honestly.

"Good. You should." he said and hashly yanked my waist.

Suddenly, he was on top of me. My heartbeat frenzied. Not because I'm excited but because I'm scared. He doesn't look gentle and I averted my gaze. He's really serious. Are we doing it? Will he take my purity now? Thinking of giving myself to this stranger is too much for me. I'm nervous and scared. If I hadn't woke up, will he still do this?

"Look at me." he commanded. "I... want to-" he stopped and breathed heavily. I never noticed him to looked so good. So good yet I wasn't overstating it at all. His face was exquisite, none of actors I met could compare. "I wanna kiss you." he whispered. I suddenly become more scared. Then he leaned on to kiss me. I shivered.

When his mouth enveloped mine, my pulse accelerated and all I could hear was my heartbeat. Just a peck but I'm nervous as hell. His hands on my ways slowly made his way to cup my face, which is slightly trembling. Good god help me...

The moment he cupped my face, my heartbeat intensified more. He pressed his lips on me harder and I shivered again. I held my breath not knowing what to feel. I've kissed actors in my job but this feeling is completely different... Maybe I'm more scared of what he'd do next.

When I'm running out of breath, I tried to push him but he held my hand and entangled my fingers on his. He pressed his lips on mine harder and all I could do was struggle free. After a while, he broke the kiss and stared at me straight in the eyes.

"I'm a bad person. And I'm not experienced enough when it comes into this, I'm helpless." he said seriously and I gasped. It felt strange when he said those words.

I breathed heavily. I have been ignoring him for weeks. Except when I made his coffee. When he came from our wedding and got back to work like nothing happened.  The more we lasts, the more distant it gets. We never felt this close.

"You hate me, don't you? I know. But still, I'm not letting you go." he said, his breath was heavy and his eyes were intense. I can't help but stare at him. So divorce is hopeless now?

But still, I'm not letting you go.

"I hate you." I said, almost a whisper. He looked at me in daze, probably because it was the first time I spoke to him. Yet I openly declared my hate. "I know." he gently answered which surprised me.

He kissed me in a whim and caressed my face gently. I didn't move. I am also shocked on my lack of reaction. I didn't picture him to be gentle, and once he did, I can't help but feel a little nervous, is he acting to get my trust? I eventually accepted my fate to lose my chastity tonight. Just close my eyes tightly and accept the truth. After all, were married and it's normal to have conjugal nights. He parted my teeth using his tongue and I timidly opened my mouth. Oh god. My heart was palpitating. Will he do it to me? I'm afraid. His tongue delved deeper in my mouth and the kiss turned sensual. His hands slipped inside my shirt and I shivered. His warm hands caressed my naked waist. He pulled away to get some air then he sucked my lower lip, I gasped wildly and breathed heavily.

After a while, he pulled away and kissed me on the forehead.

"Sleep. I won't do anything to you."

My mind is in chaos and my heart was a tangled mess. He is not having sex with me tonight?

~~~

After a while, Ali started going back to filming and everything was going out smoothly. She was on the set that day and she was the female lead of the drama. It was a story of a girl who fell in love with his gay friend and wanted to seduce him to make him a man. Ali was amused at the story and is very fond of its flow. It was light. Happy and warm. The male lead was a cute guy who is so charming and enticing . He is too beautiful as a man. His name was Dominic Ye. Dominic was considered a beautiful man because of his feminine appearance.

Her career had been through ups and downs and shooting this kind of drama was a rest for her. "Mrs. Ali has always been the prettiest actress on the industry. I'm glad to work with you." Dominic greeted  with a compliment. "Mr. Yi was flattering me. I even think that you are prettier than me." Ming Yao said and giggled lightly. However, Dominic was not offended and stared at the giggling girl in front of him. He was enticed with the way she carry herself naturally and that added to her charisma. After a short exchange of pleasantries, they got ready for shooting.

Alina Zara is a queen in this area. She can portray every character naturally and smoothly. So they have no problem shooting the film. She knew how shady the show business is. But she didn't dare associate herself with it. Just do what made her happy, and it didn't feel working at all.

When the shooting was over, she stood at the roof top where the last scene wasn't shooted.

This time, it crossed her mind that she still doesn't know anything about her husband. People shouldn't know about this affair. Even her assistant doesn't know. When she thought about this, her heart feel heavy. It made her sad again... This thoughts pops up whenever she's alone. When nobody is there to console her.

She called her mother.

"Lin... How's my daughter? How is your relationship with your husband?" her heart felt heavier after listening to her mother's gentle voice. She sat on the floor and leaned on the railing.

"Mom..." she whispered. "Why did father made me marry this man?" her voice was trembling. Her mother sighed before answering,

"Some powerful man was behind this. He threatened us to make the company bankrupt if you father won't let you marry that man."

Reivenn. All I know was his name. "Mom... Do you know anything about him?" she felt helpless.

"He is very powerful. Even your dad was afraid of him. The son of that man was more ruthless than his father, your husband. " she leaned her head on her knees.

"Mom... I'm not happy at all..I'm scared and hopeless. I'm not happy." she said helplessly and tears started falling. After a while, she hunged up without listening to her mother. Her mind was occupied with something else. Is Rei really a bad person? How? Is he doing illegal things? She felt lost.

She couldn't see her direction at all.