Chapter 43

A little recap...

"Wolfsbane?" I croaked, shakily but anger surge within me when I saw him looking at me with amusement. "You, bastard!"

I stand and run over him, but my body can't take the pain as I fall on the ground writhing with pain.

"Do you think I care what you think about me. There's nothing more important to me but to kill you, Louis."

I slump down, still wheezing from pain while I felt Jensen walking nearer. The pain is excruciating, tearing my body inside and out.

"Finally.. My wish will finally come true." Jensen mutter as he stop in front of me. "Goodbye, Louis.."

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Masha

I grit my teeth when suddenly pain filled my entire body.

Everything around me vanish. And pain. Excruciating pain, is the only thing that I can felt, though its not my own, there is a part of me screaming that the pain that I'm feeling is from Lo...

My father is still talking to me, but I can't hear him anymore. My muscles are twitching, while I felt a stirring deep within me.

A growl tear out from my lips. An animalistic sound, far from my own voice.

I should feel worried. Or even question it. But my mind is not functioning normally. Even my body seems moving on its own, when a boiling fury filled me, at the same time when an immense pain shoot inside my chest.

I can feel my body trembles as I felt Lo's wolf called my name. An energy that's been stirring inside me suddenly burst with so much force, that I even trip on my own feet.

"Masha, are you okay?" Father asked. I know in my mind that he's saying something important but those details just remain on the back of my mind.

Because I'm aware that it's not my priority. That I need to do something first. More important than anything.. And before I can even think on what the heck is it, I'm already running.

So fast..

Everything around me turn blurred, as my legs move faster than I ever done before. Exerting an unknown force, as I run with all my might. Exhausting all my energy, while my mind is only filled with Lo's voice.

I can feel the others following me, but I didn't stop or even wait for them. I actually run more faster. Leaving them, completely. Until I finally stop, where I can felt Louis' wolf.

However, when I saw the sight in front of me I totally lost it.

I suddenly jump so high, while my body shift into a red blood wolf. And even though a lot of questions are on my mind, on that exact moment I do not care anymore. I just want to kill someone.

I saw red. Seeing Louis bloodied and weak lying on the ground, with his blood pooling around him makes me burn with so much rage.

A rage that consumed my whole being, as I become drown with the will to kill.

I howl angrily, and kick the man standing in front of Louis with my hind legs.

The man were thrown like a rag doll and hit an old oak tree. The tree break and fall on another tree, embedding its splinters over the man's body. He groan from pain but I didn't stop there.

I run towards him and clump my canine into his legs and shook his body in midair before I flung him in another tree. He bounced like a ball from the sheer force of it, until he falls on the ground not far from where I'm standing.

But my blood is still boiling from so much hate and anger, and I don't know how I do it but before I knew it I change back into my human form.

Still not satisfied with the man's state, I stalk over him. Until I flung myself into the air and shove my whole weight on his stomach. I smirk when I heard a loud crunch, when his ribs crack under my foot. Then I remove myself on him, and angrily jerk his arms and forcefully trashed him on the ground.

The force from it make the ground shake but I still didn't stop. His unconscious, and his body is already limp on my hand but still, for me its not enough. I relentlessly attack him more without any remorse.

I want him to feel the pain that Louis is feeling right now. I want him to suffer, so fucking much.

But when I heard a familiar voice calling my name, I suddenly halt.

Slowly.

Very slowly I move my head and look over my lashes. My heart throb when I saw Louis trying to sit but he's have hard time doing it from so much pain. Gritting his teeth, he slowly maneuver his body to finally take a seat. Then out of nowhere Josh suddenly appear and help him sit straight.

My eyes swell. And my chest conctrict while I look at him. His completely battered. Covered with dried blood, bruise and scratches. And eyeing him now, I can't help but feel guilty when I remember how I regret becoming his mate, just a while ago.

Louis love me so much that he's willing to sacrifice everything to be with me, and I'm so blind with my own self pity that I can't see it.

And I'm so stupid to not realize it until now.

"Masha, baby.." Lo called again. Waking me from my inner turmoil.

Lo is weak, I can feel it in my bones. But he still gave me a heart warming smile. "Its enough. Let him go. I'm okay.. Everything is okay now, Masha."

The emotions become too much for me to handle. And finally I let the floodgates opened, and I start sobbing. Letting it out all, without holding back.

God why am I crying again???

Between us, Louis is the one who always cry from the simplest things. That even though he is supposed to be the fearless one. The strong one. And the almighty one.. Because as everyone says he is the big bad Alpha.. And he should act as one. But no, he is not like that.

Louis is not afraid to show what he really feels, and I'm proud of him because of that.

While, I'm different than him, and everybody else in that matter. I'm a trained asassin. Who is trained to hide my emotions from other people. I killed a lot, without feeling anything. I saw a lot of blood in my lifetime. Experienced hell, and survived it.

But meeting this man change me. And even though I still think that I don't deserve him, I can't help but felt lucky that the Moon Goddess choose me to be with him.

A lot might scorn us, because of our gender, our age and who we are, but I will never and ever change what we have right now.

Fuck it, I really love him..

A lot.

That it hurts, so much...

Suddenly I saw Keanu, my supposedly father with Liam and Toni on my peripheral vision emerge from the tree covered path in my right side. Then Lee, Mikee, Shannon, the triplets with my father came out on my left.

They have eager faces. Waiting for everything to unfold.

Then as if on cue, my hands become limp on my side. The man I'm holding tightly on the neck fall on the ground with a loud thud.

But I do not move my eyes away from Louis. And even with tear streak face, I continue looking at the man of my life with unwavering gaze.

I slowly walk towards him, as if I'm in trance. Louis is still has a smile on his now pale face. Growing worried with his state I broke into a sprint.

"Louis.." I stutter, with shaking voice before I kneeled in front of my mate. And with trembling hands, I slowly move my hands on his cheeks and caress his skin tenderly with my fingertips.

"Masha, thank God your alright..." He wheezed. Making me sob again, as I slowly and gently wound my arms around his neck. Bringing his body on mine.

I can't believe him! He's the one who is in pain, and he's still worried about me!

Damn it all!

Why he have to get hurt?

If I can just make him forget about everything..

The fact that we are still in the middle of the war. That my biological father is actually alive and I have powers unknown to all. That even though I'm half werewolf and half human, and also an elder I can still turn to a wolf..

That I'm a freak..

I just want him to forget it all... everything..

So that both of us can be happy..especially him.

Louis is a kind soul and he doesn't deserve this pain..

"Baby, are you okay?" He asked, again.

I pull slowly and look at him with a warm smile.

How I can be so lucky to have a man like him, in my life??

"I'm okay, Lo.." I guess, I have to be strong, for him. For us. And even though I can't say what l truly felt for him. Because for me, telling him that I love him won't be enough, I just have to show it to him. And that's what I'm planning to do. "Everything will be okay now. Promise."

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