Chapter 22

RAQUEL

Change

I've feared unseen monsters under my bed, bullies I hid from in bathroom stalls wishing I had lied to stay home and then there's change.

It comes so unexpectedly blinding us- easily leaving us paralyzed in confusion and once again fear. One second it seemed things were looking up for us. I was relieved to find out Alex was just as willing to take on the role of parenthood with me. In fact it made me fall deeper for him. And the weekend we spent together had been beyond perfect. Both of us planning on our next step forward along with my next move to end things with Derek.

When he left this morning promising to soon return to me, all seemed possible. I was ready to call Derek and meet to talk and finally reclaim my life. It had all made sense, the words took no time to ponder on formulating and I felt no remorse whatsoever for what I wanted to say.

And yet in as much as we take a step forward we get pushed a million steps back.