24th March

My own recovery has been more important in terms of motivate to do much. I managed to pull out a few stitches before they healed the day before yesterday. I did however over see the nerd wife in trying some small changes to her recovery. This has made enough life improvements for her return back to her normal life and loving relationship.

Surgery is never always the answer to everything medical, nor has there ever need a magic pill for all illness. Sometimes it's about management and learning over treatments that can take over your life. It may not make everyone happy but it is the truth, most times you live longer due to it.

Now with having Lavander around, I have managed to understand what is up with the air lock vault here. Jackle didn't know about everything that was in this vault nor did Freya. There was wedding offerings in here and my opinion for if they were suitable gifts for a wedding.

There was also new equipment for me as a sort of helping me be a part of current organisations and affairs between humans, machines and parasite folks (newly formed as the urban Beasts). Lavander as been able to explain that affairs on the Earth's clouded surface are not completely dead and cut off. Signal may bounce for machines due to the radiation in the ozone. But there is life and contact due to impulse by Lavander and me being able to work past the radiation buffer.

This putting a reliance on us both to be monitoring the earth when current tech can't. There is allowance to be given a micro processor and some small amont of the nanotechnology back in, not to the levels I had back on the surface. This were simply to have better access of gestures to communicate between devices and machines - not for a health service. At least so far any jobs asked of us has been easy sorts with no contact with other people.

It has gave me time into putting in more detail of better explaining a wedding. How we been going about planning if secret but not entirely secretly. The final date and locations are up to the bride and groom. But the sort of guest lists, catering and theme was left me - the official wedding planner. I had even when to the trouble of sourcing a real fruit cake with white icing. It's nice look forward towards a welcoming warm event such as a wedding. That planning made now was going to result into something beautiful and meaningful.

Most of my ideas had been finally put into a book for later. Notation and drawings adding to why details mattered. A direct passage copy of the speech spoken by a priest. The point of bring blessing and luck into a lasting relationship. I wrote up a example of what I said as my vow at my wedding.

It was quiet hard to write it now, due to the heartache of how strong that moment was for me. How I miss my wife, and how she wouldn't even reconginize me now. A dried white rose for her and in memories of our family. Emotional reflex aside, it wasn't fitting of me to be crying about those I lost. I must continue to enjoy the expansion of my family today and cherish the best of now.

I am currently in the process of moving into a ensuit room that shares common space with my brother and his girlfriend. The two of them are always in the living room talking of business. I may have spooked her while I was cooking in the kitchen beside. I were at least decent that if we did have guests over, I wasn't around embarrassing them.

She seems to have trouble of how best suited in how to accept me, for that matter just trying to see me for a person and not the creature I am now. To be fair, the breaking the sofa with a tail flick was completely a mistake. Even I had no idea I had such strengths about me. I did nearly hit her, she must have seen is as a sort of threat or misunderstanding. I guess I would too in her place.

More importantly to me, I was watching him. I wanted to see how comfortable he is with her. I wasn't at all disappointed in how he does treasure her. Not just as a value item. He did care about her opinions and always was comfortable in sitting cosy together at long lengths of time. Important was it to him that they worked together in thick and thin of problems as Ambassadors. He trusts her to be wise with spending for the weekly food costs. She was on point of what to buy and avoid.

At this point of time, I can see them working. My fears as a sister didn't matter, as it should if this as healthy as I see it. It was now her turn to see me as a sister too. But I think things will take a while to be there. She must still think I have some sort of jealousy over him. My actions could be viewed as such. But I am not one to over step my place. It will take her time to see past it all.

I spent a lot of time with tuning into whomever can. I spend suited hours staring down at the earth, talking to the many whom seek general questions. I managed to be in contact with the zoo grounds which have became towns, rebuilt into housing for everyone. Some of the vaults have continued to open and now there was welcoming communities whom had shaky ties to make. My advice in business and trust building has spread fast, just about everyone seems to call me a respect elder. I can't argue the point of that being the truth. I am old and I know stuff.

The emerging group of anti-slavery protester have already cross my mind connection, they understood I was nuetural to them and that I disliked the practice of second Brain implanting. They all imposed under the same code as our Poison did. They continue to be on the look out for the master links, and advised me what they did know about these 'Outsiders'.

I didn't tell them that been in new contact with a outsider. Or rather it keeps bothering me with headaches until I link a connection. When I do make any sort of connection, it plays mind warfare and then screams in fear of the images I return. Because clearly my fear is much scarier then its. I did tell the AI network mother, privately. I didn't tell my brother or his lover. I report on these 'conversations' to the network for her advice. As she is best understanding of the annoyance. She agrees not to let Jackle know for now. She wants him to worry about their wedding, it seems the event isn't just a small simple ceremony. This seems more like the wedding of a royal.

Tomorrow is my last client downstairs, then I will be moving work desks to the clinic along the market area of this station. I am to be expect new races of creatures from other worlds in need of treatments. I will be trained in the new equipment on the job, the leaser techniques are not suitable for all races. My old practice is welcomed, needles and all.