Chapter 1| Forced Out

Crumbling...

Shattering...

Breaking...

What's happening? One minute I'm sitting in my living room with my family playing card games, and the next I'm on the ground outside. Clothes are being thrown and my arms hurt.

"Go find somewhere to live, from today on you're not my daughter."

Those words were all it took to send me away. Once they were uttered from her lips, I instantly found myself being kicked from my own home.

**Flashback**

"Mother, I'll be back. I'm hungry." I say

"Alright Yan-Yan, just hurry up so we can play another round. And get me some food too." My mom cheerfully says.

"Okay, continue the game without me. I haven't eaten dinner yet so I'll take a while."

After a few minutes, my mother started yelling my name. She seemed really excited and I wondered what was going on, but probably suspected that she won a round somehow and wanted to tell me about it. As I walked into the living room, my dad and sister were crowding around the computer looking at something. The action made me curious.

"Mother, what is it?" I ask curiously

"I just got an email that your test results came in!" she exclaims

What?! There's no way at all. It was wayy too early. I'm scared, but I tried to pretend I wasn't. A few weeks ago my mother told me if I didn't get a decent score on this test, she'd kick me out. I didn't really believe her, but at the same time, I did.

At first, I thought she said it to make me study harder thinking of the consequences. However the more she started saying it, the more started to believe her words.

This test was a big deal, so I understood what she was trying to do. After all, If I did badly, a lot of the good colleges wouldn't accept me. But I knew that. That's why I studied so hard.

Mother knew I was a smart kid on my own because I got mostly all A's in school, but even so, I wasn't a genius. I knew all the things we did in class, but that was the extent of my knowledge.

"Okay Yan-Yan, I'm opening it now!"

"Um- yeah." I was so nervous, but what for? I've worked so hard for this so it shouldn't be something to worry about right?

WRONG

Once she opened the email, her expression turned to disgust and absolute anger.

"What score do you think you got?" Her voice sounding harsher than before.

"I-I don't know." I lost all my will to hold back my nerves.

"You got the same shitty score as last time."

I couldn't believe it. After months of constant studying, while abandoning my childhood, friends, and sleep. HOW COULD THIS HAPPENED? I thought it was easier this time too. It didn't make sense.

"I don't know how that happened. There must be a mistake. You know how hard I studied ma'am."

"If you studied, then you wouldn't have failed." She turns her head seeming like she heard enough from me.

"Mother I-" I tried to reason with her, but maybe I shouldn't have said anything.

"STOP! I am not your mother! I don't want to hear your lies. GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! I won't take care of a pathetic child who can't do something so simple as this. I should have never brought you home."

And with that, it was over. I couldn't move nor could I stop her. My mother jumped up from her couch and started stomping her way to my room. My brain wasn't functioning, but somehow I started running after her to see what she was doing, even though it was obvious.

As soon as she walked in, she opened my closet and pulled out the biggest bag I owned, and started to shove clothes left and right into it.

"Stop mother please" I screamed. She looks at me with wide eyes and dropped the bag to slap me.

"Shut up you little bitch. I'm not your mother and you're not apart of this family anymore. Why couldn't you be a little obedient girl like your sister and do what you were told." She grabs the bag and my arm and gripped my wrist really hard while dragging me towards the front door. My dad and sister were just standing in front of the door as if they were waiting for something.

"Father, tell her to stop" I cry. But he just stands there and looks at me.

"You're getting what you deserved," he says while walking away. Not only that, my sister jumps up happily to my mom laughing.

"Hey mommy! Can I have Yana's room? It's wayy bigger than mine" she cheerfully asks.

"Izumi, my baby you can have all of her stuff because she won't need it anymore." Mama sweetly looks at my sister and then changes her face to disgust when she turns to look at me. As soon as she turns back to me she opens the door and pushes me out. I end up falling down about 5 stairs and scrap both my arms till they are covered in peeling skin and blood.

"Go figure your life out on your own. It's not my problem." Right as she was going to close the door my sister pops out smiling.

"Maybe you should go find a rich husband or something and be a housewife since that's all your good for. I wish you luck in finding a man, but looks like it won't be happening for a while." she then goes back into the house while doing the usual skipping.

Once again my mama was attempting to close the door when I had a rush of emotions fly through me.

"I've had enough. You always were like this. One second you were yelling at me telling me I was the worst and should have never existed, and the next you were nice to me trying to make up for it. I always thought you never meant it. None of it."

All of the emotions kept pouring out of me. Even when I told myself I was done, more words kept coming out. And slowly I started feeling something I shouldn't have.

"Even when you'd constantly hit me and tell me I'm worthless. I put up with it because I'm your daughter and you were my mother, but I was really dumb to think I could call you my mother. You showed me what you can do, it's about time I show you what I can do."

Suddenly the shadows behind you created from the sun started mutating into different forms and shapes.

"You're a mo-monster. You- DISGUSTING CHILD." She said in fear. It only took her a second to try and close the door as fast as possible, but a shadow held it open.

"Haha a monster? That's rich coming from you. No, I'm not a monster...I'm your darkness.