Chapter Two Hundred and Eleven - Losing My Mind

"You almost fell down the stairs because of me" Hailey cried, her voice breaking up, "Please Adian, I have to go." Hailey begs. "I could have killed you." She exclaimed frantically.

Bas rushes into the room his eyes wide with concern, followed by Mel with the same panicked expression on her face.

Lifting tearful eyes at Bas and Mel as they stood to the side of my shoulder.

"I'm so sorry," she tells Bas, when he kneels in front of her, nodding at me to allow him to take over.

I tried but I couldn't let her go. Turning to Bas once again, tears running down her cheeks. This is the first time she looks dishevelled with her nose running, but I love her so much more and it breaks me, that I cannot help her at this trying time in our life.

"Please let me go," she cried. "Just let me go away from here, before you all end up dying because of me." Hailey continued crying.

What is she talking about?

"No one's going to die" I promise her, gently wiping her face, that's red and bloated.

Turning pleading eyes to Bas, "I don't want anyone else to get hurt, please tell him to let me go, please." Hailey looks into Bas's eyes and continues sobbing, hopelessly.

My wife stares hopelessly at me, "my parents died, my brother died, my baby died and you could have died tonight all because of me and my recklessness." Hailey tells us, weeping.

Bas sits beside her and slowly takes her from my arms, and I unwillingly let her go, shocked at how much Hailey has actually been harbouring inside her.

Hugging her to his chest, Bas caresses the back of her head and her shoulders, rocking back and forth.

"It will be okay Hailey, I promise you," Bas coos, comforting her with soothing words.

After a while her sobbing ease and if it wasn't for her hiccuping, I would have thought she fell asleep.

"Would you tell him to let me go?" Hailey whispers against Bas's chest and I'm wondering if she forgot that I am here and that I take instructions from no one.

Nodding his head softly, "yes sweetheart. Yes I would and I'll even take you wherever you want to go, but you'll have to help me out." Bas promises and nods for me to leave when I glared angrily at him for making a promise like that.

He already knows that hell will freeze over before I let her go!

Mel touches my shoulders, tugging me backwards.

I did what he wanted but I sat outside the bathroom door because leaving the room was not optional and I could still get a good view of her from here.

Mel slides down beside me with tears running down her eyes as she looks on at her broken best friend.

"Okay," I heard Hailey agree with Bas.

"Then just tell me why you want to leave here? Why do you want to leave Adian?" He asks and I also anxiously awaited her response.

Why doesn't she want to be with me anymore?

When she didn't answer, Bas continued, "don't you love my best friend anymore?" He chuckles softly.

Hailey lifted her head and nod slowly.

"I panicked on the steps and he was holding me," Hailey lowers her eyes, "he almost fell" her voice rose in panic again. "He could have died because of me." Hailey started crying all over again as she remembers that instant when I lost my footing for a very long second, but her holding the railing and me holding on to her, stabled me.

What she failed to realize, is that she saved the both of us.

"I don't understand Hailey" Bas says, "I have to understand in order to help." Bas explains to my wife, who seems determined to push me away.

Sitting up, Hailey wiped her tears but still continued hiccuping.

"Do you want some water?" Bas asks gently. Mel was already getting up and walked out the bedroom, while Hailey followed her departure, before she saw me sitting in my joggers against the bathroom door.

Shaking her head with a sad smile.

"I'm losing my mind" she whispers to me sadly over Bas's shoulders.

Frowning, I got up and walked closer to her, watching her tense up in Bas's arms.

Sitting on the floor beside Bas in front of her once again. "Tell me, please," I coaxed her softly, "tell me what you think you're seeing or hearing that's making you think, you've losing your mind?" I asked gently.

One thing I do know is that I won't allow her to see a therapist, ever again.

Looking away from me, "the night before I ended up in the hospital, I answered your phone when you were sick," she was saying when Mel interrupted her.

"Here you are sweetie," Mel gives the bottle of water to Bas, who feds Hailey the water. Something I should be doing.

Sitting on the floor with us, "is that the night you came into our room afraid?" Mel asks her gently, exchanging a brief glance with Bas, frowning at Mel's question.

Hailey didn't speak until she was finish drinking the entire bottle of water.

Wiping her mouth and chin where some water had dribbled down, she nods.

"What happened on the phone Hailey?" I asked because I saw a call from the security at State Penn the day after when I left Knox's office. "Who did you speak to and what did they say?" I pressed her even though I knew I shouldn't.

Her forehead creased with three lines between her eyebrows, deep in thought.

"He asked for you," she started to explain, staring at her reflection in the mirror. "I told him you were asleep and that I was your wife, I think." She continues. "Then after a long pause another man came on the line and he sounded familiar, so I asked him his name and then when he didn't say anything, I started apologizing for asking his name and I wouldn't stop talking, until..." Hailey stops and looks at me.

"Until what Hailey?" I coaxed again, because I already knew what happened and who she spoke to, but why I am now hearing this?

Reaching out, I touch her cheek gently, "tell me, what happened?" I asked fighting the urge to visit David Sullivan this instant.

Staring into my eyes, "he said, relax little chatterbox," Hailey's entire face crumpled again as her tears started all over again.

Her parents pet name for her!