4. Heartbroken

*Few months passed. He still fucked you alot even when you didn't give him permission which made you feel worse. You still didn't get back with your friends. You and Draco were getting more toxic ! He controlled you, letting you not having your own choice, you followed him, trying to not break up.*

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You freshened up and went down to the great hall to eat dinner before Mione, Weasleys and Harry came down. You ate and as you got up, you noticed they were walking up. You went to Draco and sat beside him to tell him something.

" Who are you, you filthy mudblood sitting with Draco ?! " pansy said.

" I am his girlfr- " as you said, Draco cut off the sentence.

" She's just a friend. " Draco continued.

" Right " i said.

Pansy laughed and teased at you.

" Draco i am going to ask Seamus out on a date. " you said.

" I thought we are going on a date to celebrate our monthsary ? " He replied.

" I thought we were just 'Friends' " you said angrily stepping out of the great hall.

He ran out to find you. He spotted you. " Shove off " you said.

" I thought our relationship was private ? If you can't keep it that way, you can break up with me ! " He said angrily.

" I lost my friends for you- What's wrong with you ? You have been controlling me ! You took away my happiness to be honest ! Fine ! I am dumping you ! I was happy on my own anyways. It's only been a few months since we dated ! I don't want this toxic relationship anyways. " You said running off to your room, crying.

Draco didn't talk to you and you don't talk to him anymore. You ran to the common room and to your dorm, crying, Fred noticed and he was grabbing your wrist.

" It has been a few months since we talked ? What's wrong ? " He said.

When you turned around to face him, you couldn't hold your tears back.

You ran to hug him. You hugged him tightly as if you are going to lose him.

He held you in his arms and let you sob quietly into him. He gently rubbed your back and held you tight in his arms, making you feel better. After a while your sobs stopped.

" I am a total mess. I don't even deserve you. I have been hiding things from you ! I MESSED UP ! I hate myself. Sorry Fred ! If you don't want to be my friend, I understand Fred ! " you mumbled on his chest.

" You mean the relationship between you and Draco ? Mione and Ginny not talking to you until you break up ? The reasons why you sneaked ? I know everything after you were getting strange. I would never give up on you. I am always there for you ! " Fred said.

" Well ! I broke up with him ! I had enough suffering in that relationship ! " you said.

Mione and Ginny came out to the common room to meet Harry and Ron who were near the fireplace looking at you crying on Fred's shoulder.

" What's wrong ? " They asked you.

You pulled away, now facing them.

" I know i messed up. I am sorry ! " you ran to your room crying.

Fred felt sad as you were crying. Mione and Ginny followed you.

" I BROKE UP WITH HIM ! I was stuck in a toxic relationship. I am tired of life. You guys didn't talk to me and that was the worst part of all ! "

They both ran to you and hugged. " Sorry we just hate Malfoy ! Seeing you date him was making us uncomfortable "

You settled down, washed your face and went back to the common room with Mione and Ginny.

" I am so sorry to everyone ! Will you guys forgive me ? " You asked, facing the floor.

George walked over and cupped your face. " Of course we will ! I miss my sister so much " He said and hugged you.

Harry, Ron, Fred, Lee, Mione, Ginny joined hugging you.

" So George, Fred ? Can you guys set up a prank for Malfoy ? I want to get him back for how he treated me ! " You asked.

They agreed and you all went back to bed.

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It was the next morning. George and Fred was waiting for you in the common room. You freshened up and went to meet them.

" Good morning Fred and George ! " you said, smiling at them.

" So what's the plan for todays ? Should we come up with ideas ? " you asked them.

" You do know that we are the prankster kings right ? Of course we have a plan already ! We just need you to bring draco to the room of requirements ! " George said.

" And...we will get on from there ! Finally some good prank ! " Fred said excited.

" Alright then ! Shall we get started...I will go get him " You said and left to the great hall.

You walked to Malfoy. He was with Pansy. She was laying her head on his shoulders.

" Oh, look, Malfoy, you got yourself a girlfriend. " You said.

He turned to look at you.

" What are you doing here ? Came to get back ? I didn't like you anyways after knowing your true colours during our relationship. You didn't even let me makeout ! What kinda girl won't let her boyfriend makeout with her ? " He said slightly laughing at you.

" It was because you were a good boyfriend ! You only bought me unhappiness ! Date me, break me, easily replace me ! " you said with madness.

" I am here to give you back your clothes you leant...Oh no, i think i left it at the room of requirement. Follow me ! I will give you back ! If you don't, then okey. I mean it's your property. " you said.

" Fine and why would you put my things at room of requirement ? Whatever, i want my things back. " He said.

He pecked a kiss to pansy and followed you.

You went near the vanishing cabinet. Fred and george covered him with a sack and put him into the vanishing cabinet.

You guys started laughing at what happen. To make things less suspicious you went to pansy told her " I thought Malfoy was coming but he dissappeared. Tell him i won't give him back his things. ". She laughed at you as Draco ditched you.

You went back to sit with Fred and George. " Wonder where he is now ! " you said chuckling. You thanked them. " Anything for you, y/n ! " they said.

" Christmas is coming. Guess we are going back home for christmas. I am excited ! Some family time after all these ! " George said smiling. " Yes it is ! " You said smiling back.

You attended the lesson and time flied and Draco's back. He was now scared of you, so he didn't disturb you.

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You fell in depression. You still couldn't over come the break up and you loved him but he was all a mess. He left and you wanted him still. Yet, you deserved someone who was willing to stay and accept for who you are. You are angry, yes, you hate him, maybe, you can't move on. You hated your body for letting him fuck you. You shouldn't have allowed him to fuck since day one but you didn't know he would leave you when his true colours wasn't shown.

This time you took your clothes off to bath, you were about to grab a bath bomb but you saw yourself in the mirror. You punched the mirror as you cried at places he fucked you. You took sleeping tablets that you have been taking to get sleep. You broke down crying on your bathtub. As the water poured over you, you cried, letting your madness out. The tablets were all on the floor.

Ginny heard you cried and a sound of the bottle and tablet as it fall down, and the glasses shattering sound. She unlocked the door with a charm and came inside only to see you crying and the tablets on the floor, hugging your knees, resting your face on your knees.  The bathtub with blood from your hands.

Ginny ran up to you and joined you with clothes on and hugged you. You looked up and cried over her shoulder. "Look at you ! What's wrong ?" she asked. "I fucked him when i was with him. Every body part reminds of what he did to me ! Both forcefully and with permission ! I hate looking at myself. The way i looked at myself wasn't the same after i had relationship with Draco !" you cried to her. "I want to die !" you cried to her, more. She cried a little looking at you. Ginny didn't had any respond but to cry with you.

Hermione came in, hearing a crying sound. "Y/N ! What's wrong ? You tried to killed yourself ? Y/N I am here for you ! I could have missed you ! OMG ! " Hermione teared up looking at the blood, glasses and tablet and you. She joined and hugged you. She pulled away herself and pulled ginny away. "Y/N get showered and we'll talk about this. We are always here for you !" She said wiping your tears. She left with Ginny after cleaning up the mess and locked the door. You bathed and came out. Mione and Ginny weren't in the dorm. You then laid on your bed, still crying. Ginny was telling how you felt to Mione. Ron came in and asked "what are you guys talking about ?".

They both didn't want to tell him, but Fred came, they spilled it out, privately to him. After nowing you and Draco maked out alot and some were forcefully, It hurt him badly. His eyes tears up but he held it back. He rushed to the dorm right after Mione and Ginny finished their talk.

He saw you laying on the bed, crying, facing the side. He came into the blanket, laying with you, slowly grabbing your waist and pulled you to his chest, hugging you. "What's wrong ?" he asked you.

"I'm still haunted by the memories, I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece but i couldn't. All those memories that i can see every part of something i own IS HAUNTING ME ! " you cried, turning to him and hugging him.

His thoughts : I know i can treat you better than he can.I love you like you've never felt the pain,I promise, you don't have to be afraid, Love is here, and here to stay, So lay your head on me.

He cupped your face and wiped your tears and said, " I'm always there for. Call me, if you need a me ! Anytime ! Don't hate yourself. Things are over...take time to heal ! Love yourself, not hate. You know what i have got something for you, i made it a long time ago to make you love yourself even more. Didn't know it will be useful in this time and that, things will happen.' He said.

He walked over to your table and grabbed the jar he bought and gave it to you. The title of it was self-love. "It's filled with compliments about you and things to do to love yourself !" He said, looking at you as the tears slowly stopped. You hugged him, thanking him. You thought to yourself, what could you do without him. He started humming a song and reached a hand out. You accepted and you guys slow danced. He twirled you as he dance. "I love you three thousand, Y/N !" he said. " Me too !" you mummbled on his chest, hearing his humming. "Don't ever try to suicide ! If you die, i will die ! " He said and he asked you a promise to not suicide, you promised as you didn't want him to die for you. He cheered you up.

You guys laid down on your bed. You were still hearing his humming as you laid down on his chest. Your eyes started to get heavy. He watched you sleep. After you slept, he tucked your hair behind your ear, kissed your forehead, tucked you in the blanket and went off too common room so that Mione and Ginny can come in and sleep. He went back to his dorm and slept.