Chapter 4
It's been 2 months since my date with Luke. Since then everything seems normal for me except for the fact that Luke is going to leave tomorrow.
As usual, I woke early this morning to start my day. But this time I was surprised when I saw my mom and my dad were there for breakfast.
"Huh? Good morning everyone.." I said
My mom looked up from his phone and said "Good morning sweetie..come to have some breakfast, your father and I have something to say"
I sat down and ate my breakfast. My dad starts to talk
"Shay, I know that I and your mom haven't always been there with you...we both realized it. We both want to make it up to you somehow"
Then, my mom starts to talk
"Honey, We both love you and always will. I think your father and I haven't got used to all of this...we both are sorry and we hope you can forgive us "
"We both are working on our relationship. Couple therapy and everything we need to work on us but we both realized that you matter the most." said my dad.
I smiled at my parents. I'm touched by their words.
'Let's hope this will last long until the end'. Maybe this is a start. Let's work on it'
I felt my eyes start to tear up but I refused to let it fall.
The day just went by like that. I forgive my parents and am willing to let the time make it up but tomorrow seems like a new beginning to me, I'm used to seeing Luke leave for shows but never really move away from me. I'm scared somehow. I decided to text Luke to see if he wanted to spend his last day with me.
"Hey, you :) "
A couple of minutes later,
"Hey, you ;) "
" Since today is your last day here..wanna hangout?"
"Sure baby, I'm picking you up in 10 minutes"
Exactly 10 minutes later Luke arrived at my house and we decided to go to the movies.
"Yours or mine?" asked Luke
"Definitely mine..yours always the scary movie"
"Oh come on! you know that IT chapter 2 was sooo good Shay.."
"It is good when you are not traumatized by Pennywise, Luke"
"Okay fine..what do you want to watch?"
"After seems a good movie"
*After two hours watching 'After' *
"I'm glad I picked that movie...THAT WAS SO GOOD AND DID YOU SEE HERO! UGH, HE SO HOT?! '' I said to Luke.
" I'm way hotter baby"
I rolled my eyes and he chuckled and said
"Don't you dare roll your eyes at me baby.. hmm..I think you deserve some punishment, don't you baby girl"
He started to lean closer to me seductively, his eyes were staring at my lips and back at my eyes... His gaze seems dark. Too attractive, boy. too attractive.
I felt my cheeks blushing from his action and my mind went crazy about what he might do to me. I can feel his breath so close to my face and lips as if he is going to kiss me and take me.
But then, he moved away to kiss me on the cheek
"You so cute when you are blushing baby," said Luke
I let out a nervous laugh, not going to lie but I'm slightly disappointed.
After the incident, we both went to a restaurant for dinner. We both talk and talk as if it was the last time. Luke drove me back to my house. On the ride home, I didn't realize I was super tired and felt my eyes starting to sleep. Then, I heard a voice saying
"Baby, wake up..come on shay..we've arrived "
Suddenly, I felt I was being carried in a bridal style somewhere. Then, I felt I was laying on a soft sheet. I was still half-asleep but I saw Luke in front of me.
"Hey, you...go back to sleep baby...I hope you don't mind I carry you to your bedroom" said Luke
"How do you get the keys?"
"It's in your purse baby..I'm gonna get going. it's late"
I just looked at him deeply and I felt this sudden sadness about him leaving.
"Do you want me to stay?" asked Luke
I just nodded and Luke started to remove his shoes and shirt to lay down beside me on the bed. We both were spooning.
"I love you Luke...don't leave me" I mumbled in my sleep
"I love you too Shayna...Never my angel" said Luke
*The Next Day*
I woke up with an empty bed beside me but Luke left me a note
' Good morning baby..I'm sorry I had to leave early to pack some stuff. I see you at the airport, okay? I love you and always will - XOXO LUKE '
It's 8 am and I had two hours before going to the airport to Luke. I went downstairs for breakfast and I saw my dad having his morning coffee.
"Morning dad"
"Morning Shay, Luke left this morning...You both didn't do it right?"
I was confused at first but then I realized what he meant by that...I started to blush
"No dad..no ugh don't please"
My dad put both his hands up " I'm just asking..no need to put a guard up sweetie" then he laughed.
We talked while I'm finishing up my breakfast. It feels good to talk with my dad after years of my silence in the family. Even though we lived together in one house, yet it feels like things and their workaholic habit drifts us apart.
*At the airport*
Luke's final call was announced. Luke's family, my parents and Shasha already said their goodbye and farewell to Luke. I was staring at Luke, somehow I felt scared to say goodbye or even to approach him.
"Shay Baby, come here please," said Luke while opening both of his arms.
I went into his arms and hugged him so tightly inhaling his scent and felt his heart beating so rapidly to me.
"I'm gonna miss you so much, Luke"
"Me too baby me too," said Luke
I started to pull away from our embrace to take the final look at him before he goes to Paris. He grabbed my left hand and hold it against his chest. "Remember this heartbeat is yours" he said
"I love you. Remember and feel my presence and support with you, Luke"
"I love you too, so do you, babe. I still will be visiting you shay"
"I know..I just...I love you"
With that final word, we shared our goodbye kiss and he finally left the country to pursue his dream. I'm not afraid of him cheating on me or anything. But what I am scared of is the possibility of something more dreadful.
I was proud of him and always will but I can feel the incoming of him leaving me. It hurts, I'm scared of the future. The last time I felt this way was three years ago after my accident.
'He will be alright. He's going to be fine. You not going to lose him'
Trust me, it's not a good feeling.