CHAPTER 19

[Ella's POV]

With every touch from Remus, Elpis was stirring more actively. I don't know why my eyes turn purple looking at him, I don't remember my eyes ever turning purple before. I could also feel these strange sparks, even stronger after Remus removed his Gabe disguise. He is not my mate; my grandfather is my mate. Gosh, my stomach churned just by thinking of that, and I almost kissed my own grandpa. I don't understand how Ierudiah is my mate when Remus is the incarnation of my dream man, he is kind, thoughtful, has a sense of humour, makes me feel appreciated, and he is so so irresistible. I don't know when exactly he captured Gabriello, well Ierudiah, but I think I kind of know. At our first date he was so different, he behaved so differently to how he behaved in class. In class he just couldn't wait to jump me, at our first date he was so thoughtful. He didn't pressure me into anything. My heart aches thinking that he might have acted like that just because of his orders, not because of how he really felt. But then, the blood oath he made. "Elpis, what do you think about Remus?" I found myself asking her, after all I am sure the purple eyes are her doing. "Ella, I can't tell you much. But the Moon Goddess told me we can trust him. I think the blood oath he made with us is what brought me back from the coma." I looked at my finger intently, I still remember the shock that travelled through my entire body when he said the spell. "I like him, Elpis. And I can't even imagine why my grandpa is bond with me in such a way." I told Elpis. Yes, I like Remus, despite him being a hunter. I so wish he could be my mate instead of Ierudiah. Why on Earth did the Moon Goddess paired me with my grandpa; it's beyond me! "I am not sure why this is the case, but I am sure the Moon Goddess has a plan for us." Elpis assured me. It felt so good to finally hear her talk to me, this past month when I couldn't reach her made me feel so lonely. If it wasn't for Remus, I might have done something I swore I'll never do. "I stopped using the wolfsbane, Elpis. I am truly sorry for forcing this wolfsbane on you." I apologised to Elpis; she is the only one who was there for me since the beginning. I don't know what I would have done without her. "I know why you used the wolfsbane, you don't need to apologise to me. I wish I could do more for you." Elpis assured me. "Do you like Remus?" Elpis suddenly asked me, my heart quickened just thinking of him.

"Ella," Suddenly someone spoke in my mind. Last time that happened I was in the Blue Delta pack. I froze. "Ella, is Remus." Oh, Remus. I breathed out, in relief, I was terrified my father might have found me since I stopped using the wolfsbane. If my father finds me, he will either kill me on the spot or take me back to be the pack's slave.

"Remus? How?"

"Is the blood oath, we became linked to each other when we mixed our blood." Remus explained. "Is Elpis better?" He asked with worry in his voice.

"Yeah, she's better,"

"I have a surprise for you, come outside," He tells me before closing the link. Luckily, I was out of my Pj's as I had just returned from doing some quick shopping. I just put the same shoes on and went outside. Remus was right outside my door, leaning against his bike with a large bouquet of red roses. The smell of fresh snow and pine trees surrounded me, I knew it was him. But it felt strange that I knew this was his smell from a dream. He smiled at me and opened his arms.

"Come to me," Remus invited me. I ran into his arms. I don't care that weeks ago he was set to kill me. There's too much pain in my life, too much suffering. The night he showed me who my fated mate truly is I decided to live my life day by day. I decided to go after what I want, even if by that I go against the whole world. And right now, I want him, I want Remus. I don't care if I can have him for only one month, or one week, or even one day. He will just be the something for myself; is time to be selfish. I told myself hugging him tightly and burring my face in his chest. I could get drunk on his scent, and still not have enough of him.

"You never told me how I can reject Ierudiah."

"There are two ways, and I am not sure how you'd feel about it." He tells me, his eyes go sad for a moment. "Now, as I said there is little time left. The crown Prince only gave me time until the full moon, which is just two days away, to come with a new plan so they won't have to use the original one."

"What is the original plan?" I asked. I need to know, why? Because if the alternative fails, I must prepare myself. Or maybe because I hope to find an alternative.

"The original plan is for me to kill you in front of Ierudiah, and then exploit the fact that he is weakened by losing his mate and kill him too." He answered, I could feel how little pleasure the answer gave him.

"So, if we don't come with a plan I am doomed." I whispered more to myself.

"I don't know what I'll do if I'll have to run the original plan, I don't and I can't do that." He spoke with sadness, kissing the top of my head with possessiveness.

"What are the other two ways?"

"One of them is for you to reject him, the other plan is for you to mate with someone else. Both plans end with him being killed."

"I don't know if I can live with the knowledge that I helped kill my grandfather. Even if he seems to be mad and a creep, maybe that's not all he is." I want to believe people are fundamentally good, and only act bad when put in terrible situations. Although, I don't think I could excuse the way he reacted to the fact that I am his granddaughter.

"Ella, I don't know what we'll do as an alternative plan. But I was thinking just for one hour to spend some time together. I want you to forget all heartache for at least this one hour." Remus whispered, caressing my face. His touch makes my heart flutter. How can I feel like that when he is not my mate?

"What do you propose we do?"

"I booked a table for two at the Acanthus." He answered climbing on the bike. I climbed in front of him this time. I want to feel every single muscle of his fit chest, I want to smell his intoxicating scent, and I want to feel his warmth against my body. Even If for one little moment, even if this will cost me my life. Some memories are worth that much. Just like he could feel my desire, he kept me tight to him the entire ride.