CHAPTER 2

(Menzoni P.O.V)

But, unfortunately, things couldn't still as they were once before, that life changed and everything changed with it ...

I hate that new life, the old one was way better than this, the best! I still remember when mum asked me about what she'd cook for the lunch, I loved all her meals, so I had a hard time choosing and telling, she was actually good at cooking, she was my special chief! My one and only indeed! I felt happy every time she asked me that, I felt my head empty when I was thinking of food and was trying to answer her...

But I don't mean by that, that father is nothing compared to her, he's also something important in my life, his incredible self-confidence and physical strength drive oneself crazy, that was what made me inspired by him and pushed me to be a lot more like him which made me a courageous girl. But, of course, as we already predicted earlier, that happy life didn't continue forever, the terrible one started since dad started drinking, I got worried, dad spent so much time, more than usual... That wasn't all, even mum started getting nervous and afraid before I did and more than I did too, and I observed that from her strange behavior, and I really tried to comfort her with my own way with her but I couldn't help, my own way didn't help, I didn't help... And then I started wondering:'' Why does dad change that much? What made him do that anyway? When and how? Or maybe who?'' I couldn't find the answer, how could I? And the bigger problem is that he didn't come back home in the evening, and I was watching mum, I felt that I took dad's place, did my wish really come to reality? Am I dreaming? Why am I asking so much myself? And when I was watching her, she went to their room, took the album and looked at their marriage photos and started crying with the sad smile on her face... After taking a long look at his face, she started touching, then she put it away and went to the kitchen to cook the dinner, I shut the T.V, no need to cartoons, I followed her and hugged her and said my most-used sentence: ''Love you'' But, I felt useless every time I did it, 'cause she hugged me and went back to that room... I just wanna lock it forever so that she won't be able to enter it again! But I didn't give up, I looked at her and said:'' Mum, everything's fine, dad's fine, sure he'll come back... You'll see!'' But she just held back and said:'' I wish so'' It was the night, in the last part of the day, I love it... I love blackness and darkness! But that doesn't matter currently,huuuh... And dad didn't come yet, I and mum were going out from our minds, mum tried to call him using her phone but he didn't reply, then she started being crazy... I couldn't sleep that night, mum also couldn't, she cried and I was hearing her crying the whole time. And that made me cry at the turn... WHERE DID DAD GO?