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(MERLIN'S POV)
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Gazing tearfully up at my friend. My limbs trembling in terror and sorrow. I stuttered out what may be my last words on earth.
"Please forgive me. I'm sorry I did not tell you about my magic sooner. I wanted to. I truly did, but my fear and pride wouldn't allow me to. I'm sory. So so sorry. I know I should kill you to save myself but I can not kill you. You are my friend. Although I know it will kill me I can not do it. So please if you must kill me. Do it quickly." I begged my gaze falling to the ground so as not to see the hate filled eyes of my closet friend. I'm sorry everyone. I have failed destiny.