Diary Entries: 26-30

twenty six

22nd October, Monday

You know what scares me the most other than losing myself and dying? You. Losing you. And I almost did today.

I know you didn’t mean the words you said to me when you saw Liam hugging me and hearing me confess that we had shared a kiss. But they still hurt. Not to mention, my father wanted to go back to India and I just couldn’t handle it all.

It hurt me more when you said you didn’t want to see any of us. But I stayed put. I was scared that if I moved an inch, something would happen to you and I would blame myself for it. I was fuming with anger, pain and hurt when I saw you on that bed. I never want to go through that again, Ethan.

Yes, I let the words slip out about how I feel about you in anger, but don’t you ever scare me like that again.

It was the scariest incident of my life. Even scarier than me being suicidal because I might lose the only thing I was living for.

Love,

Kiara

twenty seven

26th October, Friday