Prelude

"Oh my gosh Twine, it's been a long time since I last saw you."

My twin sister look so excited to see me again huh? As if that's what she really feels right now. I bet she's praying that I should not go home anymore and stay where the hell I was.

I took my shades off as she excitedly walks towards me.

"It feels good to be home! It's nice to see you again Loreen" I smiled at her and tap her shoulder. "Where are Mom and Dad by the way?"

I roamed my vision around the house to look for our parents' presence. I notice that nothing change in our house, the living area is still big and contain large and single sofa, while our family pictures are still hanging on the wall. The staircase is as grandiose as before, the floor are shinning and seems like there's no dust on it. Nothing really change, what it looks before I left is still the same when I return. I hope everything stays the same. Like before.

My sister caught my attention when she speaks again.

"They are not here; they're still at the office. You know they are still workaholic like before" she mimicked Mom's voice then she laugh.

Holding my D&G purse, I continue walking inside the house. "I think my timing is not right", I whispered. "Well anyway I'll just come back here, maybe tomorrow. I still need to rest; I have a lot of errands to attend this coming week."

It feels so suffocating being with her on the same place. It seems like I'm fooling myself whenever I talks to her. I've learned how to be a fake person when I'm with her. She's good at acting, acting so kind, sweet, and loving daughter even if she's really not.

I don't know what runs into her mind and the reason of that awful attitude of hers. I just got home but she's giving me too much stress. Oh, God! Please help me.

Yes she's my sister, not just a sister but my twin sister, and I don't know why she's so fan of manipulating people and putting them on an injudicious situation.

And even me! She ALWAYS put me on a critical situation. That's the reason why I don't want to be with her or even live with her on the same place. She always gave me problems and stress.

"What? I thought you're going to stay here twine since I'm staying here as well, you know I thought we're going to bond together." She sounds like she's going to cry anytime. She even bow her head to look more sad

What an act! Amazing Loreen, I can give you an award and a plaque for that.

She's really a very good actress and if I don't know her and her tactics, I think she can still manipulate me with that act like before.

Too bad for her I already learn how to read people's action and even master it since I attend law school.

I'm looking for the best word to decline what she wants and leave this house peacefully without a bad vibe. So I took a deep breath before speaking again. I'm sure she'll going to cry like a hurt puppy and act like a victim if I tell her directly that we are not that close to have a so called sisters' bonding.

"I'll be back once I finish the cases that I'm holding at the moment, then we'll hang out." I force a smile after saying it. Even if it's against my will, I can't still refuse because I don't have a choice. And I never had one.

My twin used to get whatever she wants, whatever she like and whoever she like. Our parents always give her the best, or should I say everything. On the other hand, I'm always at the other side where I can't do anything but to agree and follow what they want me to do, because I'm just me. Nothing special.

"Oh! I have a good idea why don't we go shopping now then you go home to your condo later, then rest and be back tomorrow so we could bond more." excitedly she said. "It's a brilliant idea isn't? What do you think twine?" she just ignore my words with that statement I think?

What the heck? I already agreed to bond with her even if I don't really want to! Then now she still has a new proposal! My bad it's not really a proposal. It's a command.

This is another thing that I hate about her the most; she is so fan of dictating me. It always goes this way, 'hey Laureen you should do that', 'You must be here', 'You should have stay there', UGHHH so irritating. She always calls me "twine" as if we grow up together and shared a lot of moments together. But we're not and we'll never be close with each other.

I'm sure she's planning something that will provoke me to make an unhealthy decision. And if I did, our parents will surely get mad at me and scold me too.

"But-" I'm not yet finish to what I'm saying when she cut me off.

"Right that's a brilliant idea, wait for me here I'm just going to change" she go upstairs quickly but stop on the mid-stair. "Do you have your car with you?" she asked.

"No the driver just picks me up from the airport" she nodded.

"Alright, wait for me I'm just going to change" she smiled at me before going up.

Since I am left with no choice I just patiently wait there while she's preparing.

While I'm still waiting for her I decided to sit on the couch to rest for a minute. I'm so tired from my 16 hours flight from the US. I want to sleep cause I still have a jet lag. But unfortunately I still have to accompany my TWIN SISTER today.

I didn't notice that I fall asleep while waiting for my twin. I was awakening when I heard some footsteps. As I slowly open my eyes I saw the person that I'm not expecting to see here. The person who I dreamed to see after eight years. It's none other than the only man I love.

Rnthl.

I look at him as he walks at the entrance of our house like an International Model. It seems like he didn't notice my presence so I got the freedom to watch him, his movement and facial expressions. I feel like my heart is going explode anytime because of its loud sound.

He made my heart beat so fast. No erase that, cause after so many years he can still make my heart heat so fast.

Nothing has change.

Finally I see him again after a long time.

The structure of his body became more mature. His hair is messy that looks like he just got up from bed. But why it makes him look hotter than before! What an unfair world, cause when I have a messy hair I look so stress and a servile grrrr!!!!!!

Unexpectedly, our eyes locked to each other. He looks so shock to see me while I'm trying so hard to look calm as I can and maintain my posture. I want him to know that his presence is nothing to me and doesn't affect me, even if I feel the opposite way.

I stand up to walk towards him.

His jaw tighten, his eyes is burning with anger and hatred. He hates me I know and I know it.

I also notice that his biceps became firmer; his body hugging shirt proves that his body becomes bigger. His lips become more kissable and red. It's still attractive even if it's on one line because of his gritted teeth.

He loath to see me that much huh?

"What are you doing here?" I asked with my raising eyebrows.

"So you're already back" he speaks like a thunder. I feel like he knocks my whole body because of it.

"Don't worry I'm not here for you" I felt like he thrust a knife on my heart by the way he said those words.

I feel so hurt to the point that I just wanted to disappear.

I can speak right after what he said. I look at him with a strong expression on my face and he gave me the same look. No one wants to break our eye contact. But when I hear my sister's voice, I automatically avoided his gaze.

"Love" my sister run from down the stairs to welcome Rnthl. I thought she's just going to hug him so I was shock when she welcomes her with a kiss ON THE LIPS! What the freak!!! Its not just a smack but a torrid one!

"How long have you been here?" her lips was almost tear by the way she smile.

"I just got here babe" he said while his arms are in circled around Loreen's small waist.

What a cliché endearment. Babe really? I can even call my friends babe.

Yuck!

They hug like they haven't seen each other for years. I thought I'm the one who's gone for years, so what's with the act? My instinct never fails me, Loreen is really planning something.

Or maybe I'm just bitter? But no I'm not that kind of person.

I'm not really shock to see them together because I heard news about them years ago but I didn't expect this kind of scene right after I come back.

Eight years ago I'm on my twin's position. My waist is the one he embrace, my hand is the one he holds, he pick me up for school, he buy me stuffs and date me whenever we have time. It's me the only one he loves .But now it's all in the past because many things change, sadly it includes us.

"Any way Love, Laureen is coming with us, she just arrive earlier and I want to bond with her." I just got back to reality when I hear them talking.

"Sure, no problem Babe." he sweetly said to my sister while his eyes remains on me. It seems like he want me to know that "What Loreen wants Loreen gets". Well it's not new to me, I'm used to it and I also need to be inured on this.

"So let's go?" Loreen said with a wide smile on her face.

Holding my sister's waist, Rnthl guided Loreen out of the house and I just follow them.

He's right he's not here for me. Cause he's here for my sister.

For my twin sister.

I thought he will understand the reason why I left, but it seems like I was wrong. He doesn't understand.

He doesn't wait.

I don't regret my decision in the past cause it makes me grow. It helps me achieve my dream, the dream of being a lawyer. But I didn't know that I need to choose between him and my dreams. I thought I can have both at the same time, but I was wrong. Cause in order for me to achieve my dream, I need to lose him. I must let him go.

And now he's not mine anymore.

So maybe I'll be contented on what I have right now and just admire him from a far like what I used to do.

Cause what I feel must be hidden.

It's must always be an

OBSCURE AFFECTION