The Change

How the fuck all of this happen. One moment I had it all and the next, I am reading a tweet about me been broke. My dad made a mistake, the way he puts it, and lost it all. Like all, money, house, cars... The bank will take the house in the next week or so, the cars too, no cash nothing left. I even have to leave school since he will withdraw the payment. What the hell are we going to do? I have to leave my friends my life, fuck. I was sitting on my staircase calling Tom when the whole situation became even better. My mother came in, "Daniel, what the hell is going on, my credit card was declined". For some reason I felt a bit happy, my mom will not buy shoes, WOW. I do not know it was strange, kinda like a payback. I had some satisfaction in the situation that my mother will be broke, she will not have money. I can't explain the feeling ...

That is when all hell broke loose, my dad told her to come to his office, all I heard was yelling, what will her friends say, what will this one say, how will she buy things, not even once she asked about me, nothing. She stormed out of the office, not looking at me, and went to her room. My dad came out, his head was low, he was embarrassed, too embarrassed to look at me "we need to move out, we will go to my old house for now then I will see what to do, I will not give anyone satisfaction...". I stopped listening, his old house," that is in Werunt" I blurted out "I can't move, my life is here, I can't move, no, no fucking way". I started to panic shaking my head, no this is not happening "can you understand that we are on the streets Aron, there is nothing, absolutely nothing left, no money, get it, WE ARE BROKE! When they take all of this, sell it, maybe there will be something left but now there is nothing. Nothing Aron, Nothing!" he yelled at my face. He was not yelling at me, I could see that, he was screaming and convincing himself, with that he turned around and went to his office.

Some kind of exhaustion hit me. I called Tom again and he finally answered. I heard some giggling in the background, I just ignored it, "I heard it all, I can't believe man, what will you do, we have that party planned next week". "The party" I started, "I will lose everything I have and you are worried about the party, Fuck you asshole". I slammed my phone at the wall. Anger took over, it all came back, the shaking, my head was about to explode. You see I kinda have a problem with anger when I am angry I lose it. When I was younger I got in a lot of trouble, I was fighting all the time. Like I lose myself self I forget where I am, I just want to hurt someone. My dad took me to some therapist and she told me I have stress anger, and I have to release it before it gets worse. So my dad took me to the gym, boxing class, it was hard in the beginning, I was the youngest and the weakest, but I grew older, my talent for anger started to show and I was the king of boxing.

I started to take deep breaths, trying to relax. I was sitting there for god knows how long, just I could not accept, I was not thinking just I could not accept. It was Tina, our housekeeper, that interrupted my state, "hun your dad told me, I have to leave, but you are a strong man, and I know you will be good, also keep an eye on your dad will ya, I am kinda worried about him", and with that, she left. My housekeeper worries about me and my dad more than my mom, I am glad she is broke. That day passed like a fog, I do not really remember much. No one called me, no one called to see how am I, not even Tom, yeah I yelled at him, but really... The day after that was similar, I did not see my mom or my dad, I guess they left in the morning. I got some juice, from the fridge, I could still not accept the situation. My phone pinged, and got me out trans a bit, there is some party tonight. I might go, just to relax a bit maybe apologize to Tom, sensitive asshole. I had some breakfast, went to the gym, again like my body was not mine like I am just watching, still not realizing. Maybe my dad will come and say that this was all a stupid joke.

Party time came, I got dressed, got in my car, and started driving to the party. I had my white t-shirt, black jeans, Jordan's, nothing special I just wanted to forget. I sent Tom a message that I will be coming, no response, kinda strange. I entered the place where the party was and fuck, it was strange, everyone was watching me, do not know, weird, like I do not belong there. I saw my friends, and started walking towards them, on the table where I was walking there was a bear and I took one. Once I got close to them I yelled "Thanks for the support assholes, not even one message how are you Aron", I stated sarcastically. I was so wrong....

Tom looked at me smiling, " hey, so how you been, I told the guy's not to call, to give you time to settle". His smile was not honest there was no sympathy, it was an obligation and so fake, but I played along, let's see what happens. We started the small talk, when I saw Natalia coming in, well at least I can have some stress relieved. Smiling I told the guys, I am going to talk with Natalia when Tom grabbed my hand "can I talk to you for a second" I nodded and followed him outside. We went behind the house, and Tom started "listen I am sorry that this shit is happening to you, it is really bad, my dad told me what really happen. You will not attend school, you lost the house, the money, cars, everything." He started to shake his head bowed head, he was really nervous, I just looked at him in disbelieve. He lifted his head to look at me and continued "I have reputation and name to hold, you know, and what your dad did I can't be around you. I know it is not fair to you but... Also since this is Allan's house and his parents told him the same thing and this party is for Wedgwood students only, I have to ask you to leave. I am really sorry, I will stop by your house tomorrow to talk to get things cleared but, please man I....".He wanted to keep going and to talk, I just lifted my hands in the air and told him to stop, I turned around and started walking. Heard him yelling something I briefly stooped "don't, just don't, I thought we were friends, I thought you will at least help me, be there for me, but you just hurried to cut me off. Thanks for being my best friend." For a second I have seen a smile in his eyes like he is glad... He started mumbling something, I did not listen, he was my best friend and he was turning his back to me. I knew money was important but really. I turned and started to leave again. I wanted to talk with Natalia but then Tom was acting like that what can I expect from her. I was heading to my car when I saw Nat, she just smiled, and turned around to talk with her friends. What a beautiful lie my life was.

When I got home I took a bottle of I have no idea what, took a big sip and started smashing shit around me, I was so angry, sad, I had so many feelings that at the end I was empty.

I woke up the next day, I dragged myself to the kitchen, to grab another bottle, as soon as I grabbed it I heard voices. Honestly not caring, I went upstairs and started drinking. The next day was the same, I was nothing and I had nothing. In a couple of days, the school should start, I will not even go to school, what a wonderful thing.

My dad came into my room, on the third day, he looked horrible, as he should. Without looking at me he just told me to pack my stuff we are leaving tomorrow. I smiled shaking my head, Right dad, on it. He did not wait for an answer, he just left.

I was lying in my bed when it hit me, I am alone, no one, friends are gone, parents well doing their own thing, no one really cared what will happen to me. I did not cry, I just did not want to exist. Like this, all was happening to someone else, and I am just watching a bad movie, or my friend's well ex-friends are pranking me. I am still not accepting, this is all a bad dream.

When the morning came I heard my dad, start packing we are leaving tonight.

Leaving, maybe for the best. Maybe I will have an accident in the meantime and just die... I was empty, with no emotions. I took garbage bags from the kitchen and just started throwing stuff in the bag, not caring for anything. "take the stuff in the truck I think it will have enough space" Shaking my head I took some bags and went outside and started trowing in. The night came, I was sitting on the doorsteps of my house waiting for my mom and dad, to come out. I started thinking I grew up here, all of my memories are in this house, this town. Jesus what did you do dad. I should be sad but again I was empty. My dad came out got into the truck, driver's seat "get in we should arrive before the morning".

I looked at him confused where is mom?