Chapter 2

Love is hard especially if your love story involves as much pain as mine has. My advice is don't fall in love at a young age as I did. 5th grade was the biggest failure in my life. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first everything. I just wish those days could have lasted though. I mean we never even properly broke up. Not even my brother figure whom I tried dating never properly broke up with me.

Honestly, you wouldn't be able to understand my love story with Priya unless I started from the beginning. Not the beginning starting in 5th grade but the beginning starting in 6th when I was forced to leave someone I loved so much that I was never able to truly understand love properly.

I guess I should explain what I mean then. I've graduated now so it was years ago that this happened to me. I was only in 5th grade when I started dating. That was the first mistake I ever made in my dating life. Never start at the age of 10 or 11. Honestly, it just sets you up to struggle throughout the dating. And for me, it was that struggle that ruined my life.

All of my firsts were in 5th grade. But my first true heartbreak was in 6th grade. I was forced to move to where I'm at now and for me at age 12; that was not easy. But moving turned out to be a good thing for me. I made new friends and was given a chance at a fresh start.

Now don't get me wrong moving was painful. Especially since I was moving away from my first ever relationship. But I was able to sort out my sexuality (kinda) and learn new things. It was a nice change and being around new people allowed me to be myself more because the people didn't know me at all.

The first person I met was a girl named Janet. She introduced me to her group of friends, that's how I met Nadine. Nadine is a nerd just like me and we got along really well. We were the oddballs out and the ones people avoided like a disease. After some time a couple of other people moved into our group of friends and just like Nadine and me, they were nerds (mostly sonic nerds and that's how I became a fan of Shadow the hedgehog). Dylan and Ruby sadly moved away from me and we never got back in contact with each other.

Eventually, I started high school, and again it was a new start. The only change was that I started the year dating Jackson. But about a week in, he dumped and started dating someone else. He kept hurting me and acting like I was nonexistent. It took me a while to get over him and I finally got with someone again, he was kind and loving. Probably one of the best relationships I've been in.

Jonah was a good guy but like most high school relationships it didn't last. The next year he and I chose to break up. After that, I was consistently hitting on my good friend but that failed. Next thing I know I'm dating Jackson yet again. We lasted 2 years but after some time I realized that our relationship was not going to be healthy if we followed through with our plans for the future.

That brings us to my current love interest Priya. I met her 4 months before I dumped Jackson. I wanted to be free for her. I love her and I'm willing to do anything to make her happy. Love is hard for me, but falling in love with people is easy for me. I have attachment issues; ask all my exes and friends, I refuse to let them go even if they try to cut ties with me.

Some people love that I get attached easily. Nadine was someone who I refused to let go of. And I don't regret that at all. Her group of friends is a family to me and they have supported me through a lot. I've gotten close to one guy. His name is Austin and he's been there for me a lot.

All in all the move from my hometown was good for me. Aside from being with Jackson and stuck in his toxic trap. I should have listened to people when they said to wait to start dating. But right now my life is good.

"Yo Lilith, you alive?" Austin asked me, snapping me out of my trance.

"Huh… oh yeah I was just thinking about my life and I've gotten to the life I have now." I was still a little confused as to how I deserve the life I have now but hey I'll take what I can get.

"How are you doing?" he asked me, looking a little concerned about me.

"Yeah, I'm fine. What about you Austin?"

"I'm good. You know, I just graduated and am trying to figure out life after moving out." he looked stressed and I didn't blame him. Neither of our parents let us get jobs so we can have the money we need to move out.

"Still struggling to get a job?"

"Streaming isn't enough right now," Austin states laughing a little at his own words.

Authors note: this chapter was written after my girlfriend (ex) had dumped me so writing this chapter was painful for me. Now I'm currently with someone else. He is going to be playing a major role in this story but he's already made an appearance. Thanks for the patients with me and being slow. My updates are going to more regular as I'm starting to work on the book and with winter break I've got more time. Again thank you all for the love and support.