Chapter 7

Chapter 7

LILITH'S P.O.V.

I sniffled thinking about what to expect when I turned on my phone. With that, I picked up my phone and turned it on. The first thing I got was messages from our server and a lot of dms from all my friends from the server. I cried thinking about the concern that they had for me. Austin told them what's going on but I'm sure you already knew that. But a text I was dreading came and caused me to cry harder out of fear.

This caught Austin's attention and he came running to my aid. The door slamming open scared me so much that I ended up throwing my phone at him. "Hey what the hell was th-" he saw my tears. "Want me to look at it?" I shyly nodded wanting him to do it as I couldn't do it myself.

"I think you should read this instead." he tossed my phone on the bed and I glanced at it. Instead of seeing a lie, I saw the truth. It was more painful than the lie I fabricated for myself. In fact, it was more than just truth it was raw feelings that she never expressed which just pissed me off. She was breaking up with me. I had felt that she never loved me in the beginning. She thought I was a crybaby. She thought I was childish and immature. She thought so many things about me that I never thought she was capable of thinking. She hated me with every fiber of her being. But I was scared and alone.

I wanted nothing more than to die at this moment. It was painful. She said it was for our own good but I didn't see it that way. I saw it as a curse. I was cursed to love people who didn't truly love me. It hurt so much and I couldn't understand why they would hurt me like this. Nothing made sense anymore and all my plans for the future shattered. All of the love I had invested into her was wasted. What was the point of love if I couldn't find someone to love me the way I needed to be loved? I couldn't love someone the way they needed it.

It was all too much for me. I loved her. I didn't want to let her go. It was too soon. And too fresh. I loved her for so long and I suffered watching her suffer from across the world. And all I wanted to do was to hold her close when she needed it and her to do the same to me.

How can one person act as a knife being driven through your heart? You know like when you run a race and your heart is pounding but then just as your body starts to calm down someone runs a knife straight through your ribs and to your heart but not stopping there, no they keep going until they can see it coming out from your back. (a.n. Fuck that got dark fast). That's how I feel right now.

"Lils I'm sorry." Austin hugged me tight and let me cry. It was what I needed. A shoulder to cry on.

'Wait do I-' I cut myself off knowing it wasn't possible. I'm gay. I only like girls. I vowed to myself that I would never date guys again.

I screamed in frustration. I didn't know what was going on with me. My phone lit up and vibrated scaring me a little. It was a message from Priya. 'Lilith I'm sorry for what I did. I hurt you and nothing can make up for that.' she was trying to get me back, wasn't she. I always fall for this trick. I never know what is truth and what is a lie. Austin came running into my room. "Lilith are you ok?" I could only laugh.

"I'm fine. It's just…" I show him my phone and the only thing he does is take my phone and call the bitch that is messing with my head.

PRIYA'S P.O.V.

My phone ran and I looked at it to see that it was Lilith. "I didn't think you were going to call me." I smiled a little because I knew my plan was working. I knew that Lilith fell for these mind games id seen it happen with a few people she knew. It was my turn to play with her. There was no way that I was going to let this boy ruin my life. I was honest with her but now I need to right my wrongs.

"What have I told you about checking to make sure that it's actually Lils your talking you?" shit it was him. She was still with him.

"Oh… um. Well, can I talk to Lilith?"

"No, you may not."

"And why can't I talk to my girlfriend?" this is perfect. Act as if I didn't know what I had just done. Act like it was someone else who did it.

"She not your girlfriend you made it very clear that you don't love her. You cheating whore." ouch that one hurt.

"I have no clue what you're talking about." play innocent. I'll say I was drunk when he caught me with Noah.

"Ok so I didn't catch you sleeping with someone else when I brought Lilith home the other day?!" he was pissed. I need to calm him down.

"I was drunk that day that doesn't count. I wasn't trying to hurt her."

"SO THAT FUCKING TEXT YOU SENT ME ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU HATED ME WAS YOU BEING DRUNK!" shit am I on speaker?

I heard a soft thud like a phone being dropped on a bed and then screaming. It sounded like he was trying to restrain Lilith. After about five minutes the screaming stopped and turned into crying. He was silent while she cried. Damn what kind of guy just sits there quietly while the girl he cares for cries. What a dick head.

AUSTIN'S P.O.V.

As Lilith cried on me I heard laughing and quickly remembered that I had the cheater on the phone. "What the fuck are you laughing about?" I was pissed at this point. She had no right to laugh or even act the way she was.

"You're a dick. You know that right?" I growled. I don't know what compelled her to say that.

"How? Please tell me." I was extremely pissed at this girl. She had no right to be like this. Was she even human?

"Something she complained to me about was that she needed someone to comfort while she cries. She's obviously crying and you're just sitting there doing nothing at all." that was enough for me. I turned on the camera and waited for the hoe to join too. I had the phone propped up against the headboard so that you can see Lilith and me.

"Next time you say im doing to help her the way she needs it think again." as i said this i heard lilith chuckle. "I paid more attention to her barely knowing her, to know what she needed emotionally. And you.. YOU did shit! Even after she told you what she needed from you" lilith put her hand on my chest causing me to shut up quickly.

"Thats enough austin." her eyes were red and puffy from crying when she looked at me but they glistened with a little bit of hope. Whatever that hope was, I was hoping it was something good.

"Priya i want you out of my house and your stuff gone by next week. Leave all gifts and jewelry i have given you." with that lilith hug up the phone. Her facade gone and she broke. Before having to restrain her again her phone made it across the room and hitting the wall. You could here it shatter as it hit the wall.

Seeing the girl i love so much in so much pain was probably the hardest thing i have ever done. Let alone having to restrain her like this. Her screaming and crying hurt like hell. I just hope this whole it over soon.

Not long after i had Lilith restrained again she started struggling but that only lasted a minute because she eventually went limp and quietly cried into my chest. Her sobbing soon stopped and i knew that she had fallen asleep. I laid down with her and pulled the cover over us sighing. "This whole thing is fucking shit."