Chapter 21: You Aren't A Failure!

( After The Conversation )

( Ember's POV )

I'm now almost to my dorm room with honestly, no care in the world who sees me.

I feel ticked off. Like really really freaking ticked off. How could she even stoop that low and go all cyber stalker. All of what she probably dug up isn't me anymore. I was just so angry, upset, sad, hurt, and confused.

I felt like a failure. I still do just not as much. Alot of people might say I'm broken when really, that's not the truth. The truth is, I'm just a stupid teenager who has a haunting past, is violent, has no future, and is just a total failure.

"Stupid people.", I mumble to myself as I close and lock the door behind me. I walk over to the wall next to my closet and press my forehead against it.

"Stupid me.", I mumble again except punching the wall lightly.

"Why can't you just be a normal person? Why can't you just be able to do something right for once?", I say a little louder to myself punching the wall harder.

"Why can't you have a normal life? Ya know, one where you don't have a psychotic father wanting to kill you, one where you don't always get nightmares when you sleep, one where you not so violent, or a failure, or a fucking idiot!", I practically yell punching the wall as hard as hard as I could.

I guess it's a good thing that I probably hit one of the beams or studs that are in the wall cause I probably would have made a hole in the wall.

I hear a knock on the door and look at it for a second.

"Who is it?", I ask politely trying to seem calm.

"It's just me, you know your roommate.", I hear Dylan say from the other side of the door. I walk over to the door and unlock it.

I walk over to my bed, take my shoes off, and pull my knees up to my chest after I sit down in the corner on my bed.

"Yeah! You can come in now!", I yell and the door flies open making me jump a bit. He sits on my bed next to me and gives me a quick but comforting side hug.

"What did the wicked witch have to say to you?", he asked and I looked at him confused.

"How'd ya know it was MacKenzie?", I ask and he shrugs.

"I had a pretty good feeling.", he says with another shrug.

"Long story short, basically all she had to say was she doesn't know how to keep her nose outta other people's life's or pasts and she went all cyber stalker just to find somethings out about me. It made me pretty mad. I think I left a few bruises on her.", I tell him and he widened his eyes at the last part.

"Dude, I didn't get into a fight just a few shoves.", I say to him and he sighs in relief.

"Okay good. So, what couldn't she keep her nose out of?", he asked and I sighed

"Some really, really, really shitty crap I did after ya know I was finally taken away from that monster. I was in a pretty bad place.", I tell him and he nods with a sigh and hugs me.

"Ya know, I never asked, why were you crying? I mean your cheeks are tear stained.", he says and I laugh a little.

"I guess I got so mad I started crying.", I say looking at the freshly new dent in the wall and then my knuckles.

"Holy shit Ember!", he exclaimed in worry.

"I'm fine. It's not like I just cut my hand off or something. It's just a few deep cuts and some bruising.", I tell him and he just shakes his head.

"I'm telling you I'm fine. I'll clean it later so, let's just drop the subject, okay?", I ask him and he sighs in defeat.

"Fine, I guess.", he says and looks away from knuckles

"So, do you wanna tell me what you were yelling? I heard you yell but I didn't hear what you yelled.", he says and I shake my head.

"No, it's nothing.", I say and he just nods.

"Let's chill and wait to see if someone will realize that we're not in class.", I say and he laughs a bit and nods his head

"Alright. Whatever you say your majesty.", he says and I gasp holding my hand above my heart

"I'm so offended.", I gasp out and he laughs.

And after that we just laid on my bed talking, joking, and laughing until it was the end of the day.

"Oh wow! It's already dark out?", I said in more of a question tone.

"Yep an-", Dylan says before the door busts open.

"OH THANK THE LORDS AND HEAVENS CHRIST!" I hear Kai practically yell in relief.

"We thought you were dead!", Blake exclaims

"Who do we gotta kill and bury?!", Yasmine asks in a dangerous tone

"What did the old wicked witch want?!", Aaron says and causes me to laugh since that's what Dylan asked.

"This is not a laughing situation woman!", Kai exclaims

Wow, for someone who just met us he seems to act like we've been best friends since forever, that's nice? I think myself as I look up at all of them.

"Okay, okay! No more laughing! I get it!", I exclaim looking up at them to them have a serious face.

"Okay so first off, there's no need to kill or bury anyone. We are not going Sam and Dean Winchester hunting monster mode.", I say looking at them.

"Secondly, the as you guys seem to be calling her 'old wicked witch' was just telling me about basically how she can't mind her own business and dug up more of my past. I took care of, no need to worry.", I tell them and they give a confused look I sigh

"I pushed her into the wall told her to mind her own. Got a little angry and wallah I'm here.", I tell them and they give me a suspicious look.

"Don't give me that look. I did nothing wrong. She really needs to learn to mind her own business and besides, y'all are acting as if I killed her.", I told them and they shrugged with a 'meh'

"What?! Do you guys seriously not believe me?!", I exclaim getting up off of the bed.

"We're not saying that we don't trust you!", Blake yells

"Well, I didn't say that y'all didn't trust me! I asked if y'all don't believe me!", I yelled back trying not to laugh.

"Are y- wait what?", Blake asks cutting himself off. Okay, I can't. I think to myself as I start to laugh after a few moments I stopped with a sigh. I was fixing to say something but before I could someone knocked on the door. I motion for Kai, Yasmine, Blake, and Aaron to hide and they do.

"Yes, may I assist you? If you're looking for the bathroom it's that way.", I say in the direction of the bathroom. I didn't even look up before I said that which earned me a sigh.

"Seriously? I thought we were friends!", I hear Vicki exclaim causing me to look up and smile.

"Oh, hi!", I say with a smile.

"Guys everything's good, it's just Vicki!", I yell back in the room and they sigh in relief. I open the door motioning her to come in.

"So, anyways, how ar-", Vicki goes to say before Kai interrupts her.

"Wait, isn't she a security guard?", Kai asked I sigh with a nod.

"Kai, thus Vicki our most favorite security guard! And Vicki this Kai, a new kid we helped out today.", I say and Vicki smiles with a nod.

"I heard there was gonna be a new kid I just never got to see who it was. So, it's nice to meet you Kai!", Vicki says reaching her hand out to shake Kai's and Kai shakes her hand.

"It's nice to meet you too.", he says with a smile.

"So, I don't have much time so I'm gonna say I checked this hall, and if i remember correctly your dorm is in this hall too, right?", Vicki ask Kai and he nods.

"Okay, goodnight guys! Make sure to keep it down. I need to keep this job.", she says and we nodded as she opened the door and closes it back behind her.

"Alright you heard the lady, we gotta keep it down, and I need to change into more comfortable clothes.", I say looking down at my outfit.

"I'll be back.", I say grabbing a light gray hoodie and dark blue jammy shorts. I walk out the door and down to the bathrooms.

I change into my pj's after I get in a changing stall. After I'm done changing I walk outta the stall and look in the mirror staring at myself.

My silver like eyes staring back at me looking at all my flaws. I look down at my knuckles with a sigh. I turn the sink water on and start to clean my knuckles.

"Stupid people.", I mumbled under my breath as the water stung my knuckles as I'm cleaning them. I sigh after I'm done and look back up at myself.

"I could only imagine what my mom would say about I did today.", I smile as I thought about what she would probably say.

"She'd probably say something along the lines of, 'Damn I wish I would've known I would've asked for front row seats.", I said thinking out loud. But then I feel upset for some reason as I remember what I did.

The fear in her eyes. It looked like me after my dad would try to hit me or when he was done beating me.

"Ugh! I'm exactly like him.", I say to myself lean against the wall and then sliding down to the ground.

"My mom did her best to prevent me from becoming him but it just seems like I am, more and more everyday.", I say to myself with a sigh of defeat.

"I guess he was right along, even when it first all started. He already knew I was a failure, and well, I guess he was right. I am a failure.", as soon as I thought that out loud the door swung open and in came Yasmine.

Damn it, she most have heard me. I think to myself, mentally, as she sits down right in front of me.

"You did not seriously call yourself a failure, did you? Please tell me I was hearing things.", she says seriously. Like way to seriously. I almost couldn't keep a straight face because of how serious her face expression was.

"You heard what I said. I'm sure you can evaluate what I said.", I told her quietly putting my head down. She puts two fingers under my chin and makes it to where I'm looking into her eyes.

"Listen to me closely cause you should already know this.", she says and I gulp nervously with a nod.

"For one, who do hell do you think you are calling yourself a failure?!", she exclaims while I look down at the ground again ashamed one of my friends heard one of my stupid pep talks.

"Sorry.", I mumble almost inaudible to hear.

"Why are you apologizing?", she asks and I look up into her eyes.

"I-I.... I don't know. I guess I'm sorry for causing you guys so much stress and trouble.", I whisper and then Yasmine kneels down in front of me.

"Ember, you don't cause us stress or trouble.", she says in a soft tone and I nod. She stands back up and holds her hands out towards me and I look up at her like she's crazy.

"Come on. We should probably go back to the others before they decide that they are gonna come here and barge straight in.", she says causing me to chuckle lightly and take her hands.

She pulls me up off the floor and we start to head back to the dorm.