TEARS OF LOVE AND PAIN

Later, even sashank came but more surprisingly with another girl.

He was holding her hands and then I was like what the heck is going on.

Aira saddened a bit after seeing him and that girl together.

I and aira haven't spoken to sashank that day.

I haven't because of that issue we had before, but even he didn't try to talk to us which is also why I haven't tried to spoke to him.

I can clearly understand something's wrong with aira and sashank.

After seeing that unknown girl, I've understood a bit more, but still, I need more clarification.

We are all talking about where to go on a vacation.

We haven't fixed a place yet but it was already very late night.

They all went except Me, Arman and sanay.

Well! Sanay don't have to go anywhere, because he's already in the apartment, if he goes to 3rd floor, he can get into his flat.

We three were thinking about what's wrong with aira and sashank.

Somehow, the day ends.

The next day, we planned on a vacation and fixed a place

It's ooty, one of the finest place in India for a vacation.

It's full of greenary, mountains and waterfalls.

We've taken some tents to live on that place for few days in mountains.

It looks very pleasent, but it kind of looked like there could be wild life here, but luckily there aren't any.

Our camping is going on better.

All of us have separate tents, but that sashank and that other unknown girl were in same tent.

Aira was sitting out very lonely.

I went to her.

I can see the tears within her eyes, she's trying to control, but forgotten to wipe them from her eyes.

" Aira! ... are you ok?" I asked.

Though she replied "yes", the tears have flowed down from her eyes.

" I know.... I shouldn't ask this question now, but due to my over curiosity, I think I was left with no other choice, just tell me what happened between you and sashank if you are comfortable enough to talk about that matter" I said.

" Well! I haven't told this to anyone until now, but I guess I atleast gotta tell you" aira said.

I nod slightly.

" We both broken up" she said.

I need to be happy actually that she's away from sashank, but I'm not, maybe it's because she's so sad.

" I've understood it before, but what actually happened?" I asked.

" Hmm.... Right from the start, I've started loving him very much but i didn't felt the same from him, by reading that letter that day, I felt like he loves me a lot, but he never, rather than love, we are bonded with misunderstandings and few quarrels, but still I loved him a lot, he haven't told his mother about me, his mother don't like the concept of love, few months ago, his mother came up with a wedding proposal for him, and it's that girl he's now together with, she's rich and beautiful, still, he wanted to say about me to his parents, but he was scared about how his mother would react, the next day, he came to me and told me about his marriage proposal with some kind of a depressed look, due to fear, he accepted that marriage proposal, it's not just because of fear, he don't have enough love on me to fight for me or to fight about me, the problem isn't his mother or that girl, it's the love we share together, it's impure at it's best, only I loved him but he never" said aira while few tears have flowed down from her eyes.

She vomits suddenly.

That smell was kind of 'ALCOHOL' like smell.

" Aira!... have you drunk?" I asked.

" Well! Not too much, just a little bit, today's the first time I tried it, so i vomitted suddenly" aira said.

" Are you out of your mind? Why are you spoiling your health about that" I yelled a bit.

" I've just had a little bit of it" aira said.

" But you shouldn't be doing that" I said.

" Atleast it decreases a bit of my pain though it tastes very bad" aira said.

" You're seriously out of your mind" I said.

" You can never understand my pain,.... 'you can understand only if you love someone truly', you just can't understand it now" she said.

Those words kind of shook me and what the hell, why has a tear dropped down from my eyes.

No! I'm not that weak hearted.

" Just love someone so deeply and be in my situation, then you'll understand my pain" she said.

I was left with silence then.

" There were people who lack enough of courage to propose, but they love deeply and truly, i respect those people, but I hate the people who have enough of courage to propose but not enough to carry it" aira said.

It's like she's revising my story though she don't know.

" Another important thing, when we both were quarrelling so bad one time, he unwillingly admitted that he haven't written that letter, he had told me that he stolen it from someone else by unwillingly slipping his tongue, but he haven't told me who had written it, I need to find out who actually written it" said aira.

" What will you do even if you know" I asked.

" Well!... I've shown the true love on wrong person, now it's time to show it on the right one" she said.

Every cell of my body instructed me to tell her the truth then.

But i felt like it's not the right time, she's in pain now, i shouldn't mess up now.

" Do you know one thing? Upto this day, we haven't even hugged once" aira said.

" Don't be joking, I've seen you both.... hugging and kissing on forehead" I said uncomfortably.

" When?" She asked.

" At ending of our 10th class, before final exams, and to be more precise on March 25th" I've said.

" You mean that day? Oh man! We just pretended like we did" said aira.

" I don't understand" I said.

" At that time, when you and Arman were passing by, he told me to pretend like we are hugging, from your vision and point of view, it just appeared like we hugged each other and kissed on forehead, but we didn't actually, i would have kicked him if he really did so in that young age, i later questioned why he told me to pretend like that I'm front of you two, he told me that he just wanted to show off and i don't know why" aira said.

I was a bit surprised, I've remembered that day as one of the worst day in my entire life, but I was wrong then.

The reason why my brother planned on marrying at March 25th is because he just wanted to make that worst day of my life as one of better day of my life by him wedding on that date.

But now, it already had erased from the list of worst days of my life.

" But well, aira,.... why haven't you told this to anyone else, why do you only want to say me?" I asked.

" So you've forgotten it then?" She said.

" Forgot what?" I asked.

" You were the one whom I could share my pain with,... I've told you this before" aira said.

I remembered it then again.

I kind of blushed a little bit.

" It's too late already, go sleep now, and don't ever dare to drink alcohol then, if so, I'll scold you then" I said.

" Alright! Fine" she said while smiling.

Thank God! She smiled again after quite a long time.

My friends have settled up a camp fire.

Aira and that other girl have already slept in their respective tents, let me rephrase a bit, even that sashank idiot slept too, beside that unknown girl.

I told my friends about what went wrong with aira and sashank.

" Man! It's probably the right time to propose her, she somehow got to know that letter wasn't written by sashank, you can tell her the truth and confess your feelings then, but you haven't, why man?" Divya asked.

" She's in pain now, she need to come out of it, right when she's out of that pain, I'll tell her the truth, but right now, i should take care of her, she's slowly spoiling her health, to bes honest, what my brother told us indeed true, ' Love can build you success or can destroy it', but let me rephrase it a bit better.... 'Love can build your life or can destroy it'... " I said.

" Anyways, make sure to confess quicker" divya said.

" The fear in me has totally been exterminated, now nothing can stop me from telling her the truth, but I'm just waiting for the perfect time and moment" I said.

TO BE CONTINUED....