CHAPTER 4

CHAPTER 4_

I'm in pains, it hurts so much to be punished this way, I don't even know what to think anymore I thought my parents would consider my feelings and let me make a decision for myself but no they didn't, things really have to go wrong _crying_

It hurts so much to discover that my parents have decided to push me away, not push me away actually but indirectly they are doing so, choosing college for me without my permissions and knowing full well that I wouldn't like the idea but not giving me the chance to speak up anyways _sucks_

I call Nicki but she doesn't pick up so I try again and to my luck she picks up on the second ring. I cry to her on the phone I'm unable to say anything, she tells me she's coming to get me then drops the call. Not long after Nicki had dropped the call, she's already at my doorstep, she calls for me to come down which I do.

Nicki engulfs me with one of her warm, comforting hugs and I'm grateful because i really needed it, it suits my mood right now and is able to reduce the tears pouring out of my eyes.

She decides to take me out to dinner and I join her without any argument. We go to the creamies, and place our orders. Nicki give me the go ahead look and I spill everything that has been going on with me for the past 2 days starting from the party to the heated argument with my parents then getting lost in the woods, having lunch with total strangers and getting forced by my parents to attend the HillSide College across the Country side.

Our food arrives and instead of eating I'm picking on my food. Contrary to my expectations Nicki gives me a reassuring smile that everything will be fine and honestly, I feel more relaxed after talking to Nicki.

Nicki is laughing about me getting lost in the woods and how she has to scold me everyday about wondering off but she doesn't judge me and I feel relieved. Grilling about how I had fun

in the woods admiring nature's beauty without her presence haha, I'm impressed.

We are finished with dinner, I'm so filled up and most of all relaxed as i stroll with my best friend by my side back to the car. I climb into the car and we are talking about some random things. We begin to plan our tomorrow now. We are arguing if to go and see a movie or if to go swimming, I want to see a movie but Nicki wants to go swimming so we decide on something out of the options which is to go on an ice cream date since neither of us will give up on our choices and that is a more neutral decision considering the fact that we both love ice creams and going on an ice cream date will be so much fun.

Its 8:00pm already and we are packed in front of my house. I really don't want to get in there so I seat still not without making any efforts to go down. Nicki encourages me to step down and go inside, feels like she's giving me to the the enemies but in my case she's just trying to make me make up with my parents. Nicki raises her eyebrows at me and with that I slide out of the car. I bid Nicki goodbye and she zooms up, with a final look at her car which is now long gone in the streets I walk into house.

I'm welcomed with sweet flavors of cake, I'm hungry again. I'm Walking so determined towards the direction of the Kitchen but stop when my dad calls me giving me a good welcome way to ruin in my night_ I ignore my dad. Contemplating between going to the Kitchen and eat all of those cakes or if to go straight to my room up the stairs and sleep with an excuse I already had dinner with Nicki and I really don't need dinner with my family. I go to my room and take a cool shower. I can here dad calling for me to come down that dinner is set. I don't have a word to offer to him so I stay mute and enjoy the water.

After the nice shower I search for some pyjamas suitable for the night with consideration to my mood.

Walking down the stairs, heading for the dinning,

'...don't you think we are being too hard on her' dad says

'If we don't push her to do the right things she might grow into someone you would never wish to know, she definitely would be mad at us darling but we are doing this for her sake' -mum replies_

Seems like they are having a conversation about me but the whole 'for my sake' is something I don't understand and I don't know if I would ever understand that idea. I have been living my whole life for my parents but when i decide to do something for my self I get punished _something for yourself did you say, going to a party, drinking, wondering off, returning home late, sneaking into your own house is what you describe as to be something for yourself ugh Sophie, is that really what you want? Think again_ Arrghhh, my sub conscious never spares me.

I'm annoyed at why my parents want to take total control of my life. It really sucks. I understand the fact that they love me and they are doing or should I say they think they are doing what's good for me because truth be told they aren't, not to sound like a rude child who is ungrateful, I totally appreciate their efforts but I wish they'd stop sooner. I walk into the Kitchen and both of my parents go mute, why I always get a feeling that they are hiding something from me I don't know.

'Sophie- I hope you don't mind joining us for dinner, been a while we had dinner as a family' -dad says but I just stare at him, walk over to get a glass of juice across the room. After I have emptied the content of the glass into my tommy I turn back to dad -I'm already filled, ate outside- then with a final look I walk back to my room and onto my bed. I close my eyes and wait patiently for the sleep.