CHAPTER 49

Everything is numb.

Everything is spinning.

I'm not in control of my mind or my body.

There's just so much pain.

I know there is but I can't feel it.

I can't feel a thing

What I can feel is the pain in my heart? It hurts. It hurts so fucking bad.

I want to cry but its not happening.

Why won't it happen?

Why can't I cry? Why won't I cry?

God someone help please. Please.

Please help. Please.

Please I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to .........

I just want something, anything. Please.

Help me feel someone anyone please.

I can see.

I'm lying in a pool of blood.

There's lots of blood, deep dark red.

I don't think I've ever seen anything this dark red before.

Its my blood.

I'm lying here on the hard, wet floor. It's wet with my blood and I'm all alone. It's so quiet.

So quiet.

No its not quiet anymore.

I can hear it, its my blood, slowly dripping out of me, robbing me of my senses.

Its robbing me off life, my life.