°°°°TEARS°°°°

"Do you need water?" I whisper asked.

He didn't say anything, but his hold tightened, like he was asking me not to leave so i just kept standing.

After some time he pulled me on his lap, i settled and wrapped my legs around his waist.

He put his head on my shoulder, and i kept stroking his hair.

And suddenly i felt a drop on shoulder, i pulled his head up to look at his face. A tear dropped from his left eye, then from right, but his face was neutral. He put his head back on my shoulder,

"I am so fed up, Nat. I can't take all this anymore." He whispered, suddenly sobbing.

"Don't cry. It will pass." I tried to console him.

"You will be fine, i am here whenever you need."

His head shot up, and looked me straight in the eyes, like he can't believe his ear.

"You are?"he managed to ask between his tears.

I wiped his tears away and nodded.

"Always." I smiled at him.

Getting up to bring him some water, only to stopped by him by holding my wrist.

"Stop" he ordered.

"Why?" I asked softly.

"Stay." He pleaded in a soft voice.

"I am going to bring you some water, i will return" i said stroking his cheek with my thumb.

"No, don't go!" he pleaded, his tears welling up again.

"Okay, i am not going anywhere." I told him.

He leaned down in my touch.

"You can sleep here." He said, eyes digging hole in my face.

He layed down, and patted spot beside him.

I layed down there too. His hands wrapped around my waist securely, placing his head on my chest.

I shouldn't let him, but he needs me. We never know what the other person is going through. He needs to embraced, like i want to be embraced when i am going through shit, but i never ask anyone, and if he is asking then he might going through more than that.

Some time passed, but his breath didn't even out.

"Nat?"

"Yeah."

He lifted his head up to see me, and then placed it back on my chest, like he was checking that i was still there or not.

"Are you not able to sleep?" I asked, yawning.

"You shouldn't speak while yawning." He commented, sleepily.

I smiled as his breath evened out.

I woke up, to find Divine was in the same position as earlier. Arms around my stomach and head on my chest.

I tried to get up but his heavy arms didn't budge.

"Divine!"

I started shaking.

"What?" He muttered sleepily.

"I have to go, get up."

"Lexi what are you doing in -

He immediately slapped his hand on his mouth, when he saw me.

I stood up and left, i was hurt, really. I mean i  was with him all the time and he forgot, and even thought i was somebody else.

I went to my room, brushed my teeth showered and put on a jeans and a crop top with a jacket and black boots.

I was eating my breakfast, lost in my thoughts, when Divine entered the kitchen, drank water and left, without even nodding.

I stood up, leaving my breakfast and left for college.

It was in my first class, and that Harley whom i met the other day, sat beside me.

"Hello, beautiful." He said, twirling a pencil between his fingers.

"Hi."

I smiled politely.

"Are you enjoying your new college so far?"

"Not that much." I replied.

"What's wrong?"

A confused look on his face.

"Nothing. Trying to adjust in this unfamiliar place."

"Let me?"

"What?"

"Let me show you around and famialarise you with this place."

"Okay." I chripped, excited to have some time away from my thoughts.

"After college?" He asked.

"Sure."

"I will meet you at the parking lot." He chatised, waving me and left the class.

The class didn't even began yet and he left already.

Why did he came in the first place?

After college i was standing and waiting for Harley.

A car turned around the corner and stopped beside me.

"Sorry for the wait." He muttered.

"No, i just arrived here."

I sat in the passenger seat. His car blasting with the music. I was having a headache by the time we pulled in the parking lot of a restaurant.

We got out and went inside. I followed him to the table which was full of people, and that Lexi girl was there too.

He greeted everybody and sat there, pulling me to sit beside him.

"Wassup, new gal?" a boy with a golden tooth asked.

"Nothing much?" I asked more than replied, scared beyond imagination due to his tall and broad figure.

"Not a whore, huh?" She commented, indicating to Harley's hand around my shoulder.

"Not every girl is you Lexi." Harley replied for me.

"Don't you dare compare me with this shitface." She shouted at him, a pointing a finger toward me.

"Or what?" He growled.

"I can speak for myself!" I shouted, not wanting any more bullshit, i have had enough from Divine.

Lexi smirked at me.

"So you chose to spend the night with Harley instead of Divine, he isn't that boring."

"Atleast i don't pay for it, like you do."

I can't come with a better comeback. My mind wasn't working at all. I think it will shut if this continues.

Her face became red with anger, but returned to its usual shitty self after a minute or two.

"So you get paid, huh?"

"ENOUGH!" A voice roared, making us all to turn our face to find a angry Divine standing beside the table behind us, with clenched jaw and closed fist at his side.

"Let's go out of here." I whispered in Harley's ear.

He gave me a confused look.

"We can switch to another table?"he suggested.

"Please?" I pleaded, in a soft voice.

He nodded, understanding that i can't stay there anymore.

We both stood up, he waved at the guys and we passed a confused Divine looking at us like he saw a living chicken in front of kfc.

We got in the car, i gave him my address.

I was looking out of the window the entire time, my thoughts pushing me over the verge of crying.

We pulled in the driveway.

He leaned against the car.

"Look i am really sorry for today." He apologized, sounding genuine.

"It's okay. It wasn't your fault that she is a bitch" i blurted out, slapping my hand over my mouth, but it was too late.

He chuckled.

"Sorry" I apologized, looking down at my hands.

"Its okay, everybody knows she is." He announced.

"She might have her reasons." I muttered.

"Really?" He questioned raising an eyebrow.

"Yes, i think nobody is born bad and not anybody wants to be, something, someone ,or their past force them to become the person they are." I explained my thoughts to him.

"You are nice!" He said, getting lost in his thoughts as he stared behind me.

"Thank you!" I whispered.

"Wanna go out with me later someday?"

"I don' know, i will let you know when i will feel like it."

"No problem, Natasha." he  chripped, smiling at me.

"See ya around!" He said as he sat in his car.

"See you!"

I need some time alone with my thought.

I went upstairs, sat down on the floor, placing my head on my knees. I wasn't going stop the tears that started running down my cheeks.

I wish my mother was here with me. Nobody, not a single person wants to be around me.

Am i that bad?

I was going to answer the question when the door burst open, and Divine came in view. His eyes searched the room and i wiped my tears away. His eyes settled on my small form beside door.

"Nat?" He whispered.

I didn't reply. I just want him gone, i don't want him here.

He crouched in front of me.

"Were you crying?" Ha asked, staring at me straight in the eyes.

"No!" Shouted at him.

"Look, i am sorry for what happened in the morning."

I didn't reply.

"Nat, Please say something." He pleaded.

"I didn't remember anything from last night when i woke up, and i thought that Lexi slept with me after-

"Stop right there!" I warned him.

He shook his head in a 'no'.

"But when i saw you, i remembered everything, i am sorry Natasha." He apologized again.

He wiped my tears away from my cheeks with his thumb.