I Hate You

I hate you.

     I hate you so much that whenever I am feeling like there's nothing left for me here I think of how you would feel if I was gone.

     I would always start to feel guilty so I would try and calm myself down. It used to work.

But now, i'm not even sure you'd bat an eye.

     You don't love me. No one loves me. I'm worthless. I am an idiot. I am fat. No one, not even my own mom could love me.