chapter 1 seem as dream

I can't believe today is my wedding day am married someone younger than me  some people are happy for me saying my time has come while some are green or black with envy 

Everything seems as a dream to me in less than 2months a go   am crying praying for God to grant my wish which to get marry 

In case you are wondering why I am depressed to get marry is that am 28yrs now yet not married my age mate have 4 to 5 children 

In my country Nigeria girls marry at the age of 18 early is 16 and boys is 25 

Am regard as the left over woman  but my parent always taught me my time is coming and any disappointment is a blessing  sometimes I wonder if something is wrong with me am beautiful glass hour figure well manners  educated   so what the problem why am yet to get marry or maybe is true that I am possessed by evil spirit which I  will never  marry and if  someone marries me will be his downfall 

I think why people stay away from me who would want to marry the person who will be the source of  his downfall even some girls don't want to befriend me thinking they will have bad luck in marriage 

Only farida my best friend think differently she said 

"Don't mind than some people believe a lie because the wish it to be truth  and person are you  going to marry will worth the wait  ,"

Me"  l hope so but is hard to be still thinking positive when all my younger sisters get married ,"

Farida" yes is hard but everything has a reason maybe your husband is so great that you have to wait ,"

Me" great!! I want to get marry  to a simple person not wait for a great person till old age " 

Farida " what about adam that guy like you ," 

Rakiya " what,!!!Adam that is disrespectful and abusing," farida roll her eyes and ask how 

Rakiya" he disrespects his body by sleeping around and abuse his soul and l will never like THAT to be future father of my children'