Two different worlds.

I feel something hot liquid running down from the corner of my eyes. Why am I crying? Why am I still breathing? Am I still alive? I open my eyes and get up, I check myself but there's no wound from sword on my stomach. I stare at his standee, he's smiling at me with bright eyes. Suddenly, the door open. I saw my mom carrying a tray with bowl of soup and a bottle of medicine …

Medicine? Who's sick?

" Glad you're awake. You've been sleeping for 2 days already. Here, finish this soup and take this medicine." Mom said when she went near me.

With my mind full of confusion I ask her...

" Medicine? For what?" I stated as my mind still wondering of what's happening.

" It's for you. You've been sleeping for two days because of your high fever. I woke you up the orher day to get you ready for work but you're burning." worried was written on Mom's face.

I just nod at her with my mind full of question and confusion because everything that happened in my dreams felt so real but everything is just a dream, those times that I'm with him is just part of my dreams. I should be happy because finally I dream of him but I feel so sad because even in my dream, there was never an us.


After I shower and finish my breakfast, I went to work listless. I'm so distracted because of what I dream last night. I feel so drained, I feel like my soul left my body already. I'm like a rotten vegetable sitting on a chair in my working area.

" Hey! It's already break time." my workmate tap my shoulder. Time fly so fast, I didn't notice it because I'm still thinking about him.

After I pack my things, I went to a coffee shop for refreshment. While waiting for my order, my phone notification alarmed. I open my phone to see what is the notification all about.

My eyes suddenly became teary after reading the news article about the man I adore being engage with mysterious woman. I close my social media account and let myself cry. I don't care about the people around me at this moment. I'm so sad and I can't take it anymore. I want to cry to wash away the pain, it feels like I am stabbed by million of knives. It's painful, this is how heartbreak feels.

My phone vibrates and the screen light up. I forgot that he's my lockscreen. I watch how beautiful his eyes are, how attractive the mole on his nose is and how seductive his natural pinkish lips is. I realize it's impossible for the both of us, he's a superstar while I'm just an ordinary person. We're breathing the same air and living in the same planet but we're from two different worlds.

" I guess that's what I do, I fall inlove with the unreachable...
the moon...
the sunrise.....
.....YOU...."

I wipe his face on my screen swiftly and smile to the man I adore from afar.