The Butchery

I've been crawling in this shit hole for the past thirty minutes and I don't think I am anywhere near halfway close towards the other end where I expect Linda would be at waiting for me. She would be there waiting for me and we will be together again, rather, I hate it that for that thirty minutes I spent in this hole, I've been thinking of how terrible of a person I was for using Huff: of how much of a terrible of a person I am in general. I should be celebrating that I am now just few miles away from my girlfriend and it's just a matter of time before I could finally hold her once again but instead I am feeling this strong pull of guilt and it eat me up each time I take a step forward, the confliction I am in right now is beyond me, this shouldn't be a problem! I'd pick my girlfriend over Huff any day but why do I feel so shitty?! With her freak ability its only natural for me to take advantage of her and make use of it in this crazy town.

I can feel my body burning up inside but I feel so cold. I could barely make any progress on getting my body moving and the wound on my should is not helping at all; everything hurts! It is so dusty in here I am starting to find it difficult to breath, I can feel everything closing in as the narrow space around me become even tighter, compressing me in. I found myself hyperventilating and clutching the ground around me.

I clenched my eyes as dread washed over me, my vision was playing tricks on me, at first the space around me stated to close up and now the corner of my vision was dimming as if I was about to faint, maybe because of how much I was snuggling to take in air. I stopped crawling for a moment and lied on my back to take a break, resting my flashlight onto my lap breathing heavily. I came down here prepared but no amount of preparation could be able to prevent me from having these clashing feelings and the pain am feeling… on second thought, maybe a first aid would have done the trick.

Staring at the ripped cloth that I had found by the entrance of the whole clutched tightly in my hand, I remembered why I came here for, I remembered why I decided to betray a companion, why I used her and why I jumped inside this hole with no hesitation; it's all because of Linda, with those thought in mind I tied the cloth around the lower half of my face to cover my nose and mouth like a face mask, I continued on faster ignoring the still bleeding burning gashes that her father inflicted on me, I carried on. Not allowing my judgement to be swayed once more I pushed the thought of Huff to the back of my mind: determined to get her off of my head and finish this off once and for all.

At this point, I couldn't feel my right shoulder and my whole right arm anymore: it was numb now and I was thankful for that. I looked at my watch and it say that it was now almost four in the morning which means I've been in this hole for more than three and a half hour already! I need to hurry! What if Linda was hurt or bleeding worst than I am? I pushed my self to crawl faster. For the past three and a half hours I spent here so far the only thought that keep on repeating in my head was the 'what if's' what if this whole time I was gong on in circles and I would be trapped here forever? At first the thought that I'd never get out of this hole scared the shit out of me but it made me think that dying here for Linda wouldn't be that bad but dying here would also mean that I would never see Huff again and I would never get the chance to apologize to her.

"Fuck!"

Why is it so hard for me to admit that I screwed up?! I hate it here! I hate it here so bad! I want to get out of this hole as soon as possible and I think three and a half hour is too long already, it was long enough for a man to lose his mind and I hope I'm not loosing my mind if I hadn't yet to begin with. I can feel the path slant a little and it gave me the little hope I was holding on so desperately strength. I looked at my watch and it read 4:30; I basically spent the whole night underground and I am looking forward to finally see the light again, I was so thirsty and I know that my legs and arms would be bruised for weeks from rubbing on the material of my jeans and the the cold hard ground raw the whole night.

With urgency I pedaled faster as I dug my fingers into the soil for a better grip, I can finally feel the air blew from where I am at, it was a little colder that I had expected-- it was too cold to be honest but who am I to complain? At last! I finally got tot the other side! I couldn't help but smile and tear up as I saw light coming out of the exit… I hesitated, the light was red, Am I in hell? But why is it too cold in here then? I can even see my breath from how cold it was. I brushed it off and with a loud grunt I hauled myself out of that god forsaken hole and eventually getting a good look of the place. I took careful steps, inspecting my surroundings. Am I where I think I am? There is only one butchery in town.

"Linda."

I called out softly.

"Linda where are you?"

I hate to admit it but the red lights, the hanging meat and the cold was not helping at all, after everything that I went through today I'm not sure if I can take any more of this. I was so focused on looking past through the numerous rows of cow meats hanged like curtains around me for Linda,I didn't see the chains that caused me to trip and fall accidentally letting go of my flashlight with a loud thud echoing through the room the air was knocked out of me as it took me longer to recover, I tried standing up but I couldn't with the chains now wrapped firmly around my ankles. I was suddenly being yanked by my chained ankle backward, I tried to claw on to the icy floor with my muddy fingers but it was too painful to do.

I faced the person dragging me with the chains by laying on my back and felt the blood drain from my face.