WHEN I LOSE YOU

"Praising my husband to be precise Lam, not other people .. and I praise my own husband without any lies." Fazrani replied with a soft gaze.

Allam was silent to save his happiness in his heart.

"Thank you Zra, you have made my heart happy even if it is only for a moment." Allam said silently enduring the pain in the wound in his chest which made it difficult for him to breathe.

"I'll take care of you so that you look fresh Lam." said Fazrani intending to get out of the bed made of bamboo.

"Don't go anywhere Zra, stay here till the doctor comes." Allam said softly, holding Fazrani's hand tightly. Fear enveloped Allam's heart to die without Fazrani by his side.

"Okay Lam, I'm not going anywhere until the doctor comes." said Fazrani, feeling Allam's fear by hugging Allam's body in her affection.

"Fazrani." calling Allam raised his face looking at Fazrani's face with a sad look.

"Yes Lam." Fazrani replied with a pounding heart, could it be that her love for Hafiz was lost so quickly and turned to an Allam.

"I am sorry to you, that I have hurt you a lot Zra?" Allam said with a look full of regret.

Fazrani was silent, what should she say between her disappointment and pity or hatred and affection. All these feelings still shackle Fazrani's heart.

"Fazrani, answer me .. you want to forgive me right?" Allam asked with his breath getting heavier he felt. Allam feels that his life will not be long, and he hopes for an apology from Fazrani.

"I've forgiven you Lam, don't you think about it again, okay? we just forget everything and we start over." Fazrani replied, hugging Allam's body tightly when she saw that there were tears in the corners of Allam's eyes.

"Thank you Zra, you are very kind." Allam said slowly raising his hand to rub Fazrani's face for the first time when Fazrani looked at him.

For some reason Fazrani felt something else that she felt with Allam's attitude and gaze.

Especially when Allam's hand rubbed her face very gently and Allam's eyes were so full of love.

"I love you with all my heart Fazrani." Allam said with a smile on his lips.

Fazrani looked at Allam with teary eyes, why when she heard Allam say that he loved her, her tears were filled with tears.

"I know you can't love me yet Fazrani but this is enough for me to feel happy to be able to tell you my feelings and feel your embrace of love like this. I sincerely if I have to go even though I still can't make you happy, maybe we are destined to just end here." whispered the voice of Allam's heart, still staring at Fazrani's eyes without blinking as if framing Fazrani's face in his memory.

"You don't look at me like that Lam, don't make me worry." said Fazrani feeling a very big fear of losing.

"I'm okay Zra." Allam said with a soft smile, trying to breathe his increasingly heavy breath.

"Fazrani." called Laila to come with the village doctor. Laila picked up the village doctor early in the morning because she didn't want anything to happen to Allam.

"Yes ma'am." Fazrani answered and then let go of her hug slowly because there was a village doctor who could examine Allam.

"I have heard the story from Laila about Allam's condition, I will check his wound now." Said the village doctor approached Allam and sat beside him.

The village doctor carefully examined Allam's wounds, especially Allam's chest wound which was indeed deep and Allam's pulse was getting weaker.

"Fazrani, I heard you were going to town to buy good medicine for Allam, and actually Allam not only needs good medicine but medical equipment that supports Allam's breathing which is very bad, Allam's chest wound was infected and spread to Allam's lungs. Because it made it difficult for Allam to breathe. We should take Allam to the city hospital." It was clear that the village doctor who actually regretted the Village law could not be broken by anyone, including Hafiz, who had tried to break it.

"Doctor please give me the prescription, I will go to the city now then I go to the Chairman to ask for policies for Allam." said Fazrani with a heart increasingly confused by the village doctor's explanation.

Quickly the village doctor wrote down the medicines Allam needed and he handed it over to Fazrani.

"Thanks doctor, I'm leaving now." said Fazrani then approached Allam, who had his eyes closed and looked limp in Laila's arms.

"Allam open your eyes for a moment." said Fazrani with a sad look.

Slowly Allam opened his eyes to look at Fazrani with a dim gaze.

"Hang in there? I'll be right back." said Fazrani in a trembling voice holding back tears.

Allam smiled at the corners of his lips.

Fazrani was unable to hold back her sadness seeing Allam's condition in her arms. Allam so tightly could not bear to leave Allam alone without her.

"I'll go for a while Lam." said Fazrani while kissing Allam's forehead with feeling for the first time.

Allam's heart cried, unable to hold back his happiness to be able to feel Fazrani's soft kiss at the last moment in his life.

"I'll go first Mom, Doctor." said Fazrani leaving Allam with a million prayers and hopes that Allam could survive.

***

Hastily, Fazrani went to Husnan's house to ask her to take her to the city because Affandi was not well.

"Fazrani." called Hafiz who had just come out of the house.

"Hafiz, I'm looking for Daddy to ask to help take me to town to buy a good medicine for Allam at this time Allam needs it." said Fazrani with teary eyes.

"Daddy is at the Village Chief's house, I also want to go there at my father's order." said Hafiz, who plans to discuss again the matter of Village law policies that are too harsh for residents of Kunjang village.

"I have to go to town now Hafiz." said Fazrani who was confused about who else to ask for help.

"Come on Fazrani, let me deliver." said Hafiz as he walked into his car.

"But doesn't Hafiz have to go to the Village Chief's house?" said Fazrani, feeling bad about bothering Hafiz.

"It's okay, let's hurry." said Hafiz as he started the car.

Fazrani got into the car and was thankful that someone was able to drive her to town.

Arriving in the city of Kunjang, Fazrani immediately entered a large pharmacy and gave the prescription to the pharmacist.

Almost half an hour of waiting, finally Fazrani was able to get the medicine Allam needed.

"Hafiz, we go straight to the holy house." said Fazrani to Hafiz who was waiting outside.

With high speed Hafiz drove his car towards the holy house.

Arriving at the holy house, Fazrani got out of the car and saw several people crowding outside the holy house.

"What's the matter, sir?" asked Fazrani with a beating heart at one of the people she did not know.

"Allam has died Miss." replied the person who did not know that Fazrani was married to Allam.

Fazrani's body swayed a little, but Fazrani tried to be strong and held on to a bamboo pole.