Doing Everything But Nothing

A whole week... you can't believe that. A whole week I am staying that stupid assholls house.

In all week I just eat workout and stay in my room. Yeaa sometime I did encounter with him. We also talk like normal talk. 'Am I here comfortable or how was i. Did I eat well.' All stupid conversation. Well I have to be with nice because I don't have other option. And he seems nice. And I most of the time stay away for him too not to involved with another cat and dog fight.

Some time I think he also saw me when I workout. Sometimes my all anger I throw in gym. Sometimes I cry. He know he saw he evan asked. I didn't say anything. I just ignore him. I don't like when people piitty me. Give attention. And most of not for him. He and me both are not friend's or I don't know what are we.

In this week I also saw that he always in his office room. I don't know who is that. Some boys appear thay meeting they talk and dont know whatever they do. I never go and see.  He said to me stay out of he's business I will stat out of he's business. I am not interested in any business. sometimes I heard voices fight or yelling I never try to come out side and check. But whenever I come out of my room when I thought that there business is over than I saw there is no mess. There always cleaned up there mess. It's good. If I know or saw this I can't control to myself asked this so it's good.

In this week I still contact with Ray. We talk in chat and call whenever he got time he talk in call I also contact with my roommate to asked about anything happen in dorm that I know about. And about my now friend's anggi and dani they both always call me but didn't have any word to say to just simply ignore there calls. Dani to try hard he literally sand voice mail also. But I didn't heard that. It's hurting when people care for me or I just ignore them because I don't have any options so it's best to be not to talk with them. I don't want that they will in danger for me. They are innocents. If something happen to them I can never forgive myself. I also lost her because I never think that my actions are back fair me and because of me I saw her dead.

Ray told me that he dont know who they are but he still try to know who they are. Also thinks going to better that said by ray. And I am finally get out this house. And  Again join my competition. That was good think to know. I am so happy about hearing this.

About my brother James. We still in contact. I talk with him in every night. I lied him. About everything. I hate to lying but I have to do if he know about anything. He hurt and upset with me again. I don't want that. I know after her he is to protective for me. So I just can't said to him. Or give stress.

Today's I talk with Ray. He said that he coming today to talk about me to Max. Things are going to better. And now I have to go again where I am before.. I know if he come here maybe things going to messed up. Or maybe he going to understand. And most important think is me and Ray decided that we told him about me everything. First I dont agreed with him. That he told me that we can told him what he wanted to know not about everything not about her . That I relaxed myself. But still little bit nervous and scared I don't know how he react. About me if I told them I don't know how he reacts but we have to tell him. If I have to get out from this house.

Its dinner time I left my room and go to the kitchen to eat. I am really hungry today. I didn't eat much here. Because I dont like to. But when Ray said he coming today to get me so don't know but I feel like hungry. So that I am doing it. I see Max already in dining table and eating.

Fuck..

Today's I am going to face him.

Suddenly I dont feel like hungry.

When I about to turn and exit the dining area. He catch me. And call me.

"ava.." he rise he's voice and called me. Fuck. That's it. I turn around and face him. Rolled my eyes. And looking at him. With fake smile.

" you eat?" He asked.

" nope. I just going to but I feel like I am not hungry anymore. Will come back later." I said to him and turn about ready to walk. Didn't wait for his reply.

" stop.. come site. And had dinner with me. I don't mind." He said. I just about to reject his offer.

Ding... dong...

Someone bell the front door. Maybe its ray. I hope that. I look at him and ready to open the front door. But he stop me to do that. Yeaa how can I open this it's not my house or rules. I rolled my eyes.

" stay there. I got that." He said to me. fuck off dick. I just wanted to yelled but I control my temper and nodded. It's really not place. Clam down girl.. I said myself to control my anger.

The door swing open and Ray stood there. He look at him than me. And give me a small smile. So did I. Max turn around and see that and than again look at him. With smirk. and I see he's body language change.

" what a present surprise." He said almost yelled him. I am getting scared. So i walk there.

I stood beside Max. I turn to my side and look at him. " why are you here. I told you to stay there. Do not move. Why can't you just listen to me huhh..." He said angrily. He just ignore that ray standing front of the door. And looking at me and insults me. I wanted to punch him hard.. why can't just he talk like normal people..

"Max.. Max.. cool.. relax bro.. I am here to talk" ray interrupt. And I am glad that he did. I look him and give him small smile.. and than Max turn to him and looking at him..

Its not that I am scared of him. But I dont want fight for now. So I just control my temper. When my time come I will 100% show him how to talk with people. And if I have to get out here I have to listen to him. Or he's insults. Just for some more time..

Max nodded. And we all walk in and site the comfortable couch. I still standing there. I dont know were to sit what to do. So I just stood there.

Max look at me and observe me and than he said me to site beside him. Yeaa I know thar this going to happen.. he know how to annoy me. I dont want to but if I didn't do that than he can do that by himself. And than one I just can bear it. So it's better to be site beside him. Without  making him angry. I sit besides him with some distance. I look me that but than he ignore me that one he did good. If he react opposite than I can't control anymore my anger.. plus I am hungry as hell.. can ray come after some time.. Without eating I am begin to wild cat.. and I just control myself and I react so fast that they evan think.

" so I am here to talk about red." Ray said and broke the silent. And Max little bit getting cold. But why he angry about me. I didn't do anything. Or did i?

" and what about her. I. Through she's dead. Before I going to killed her." He said very cold tone. What the... what's going on here. Why he wants to kill me..

" what your business with red.." I said to him. I wanted to know why he hate me. I know that he dont know about me but I wanted to know. And Ray know about this. Than why he told me to stay with him and most important why he didn't tell me about Max haters toward me.

" it's none of your business. " he said without looking at me.

" it is my business Maxx.. and I wanted to know.." I yelled to him and stand up and walked toward him and stood front of him. And he still sitting there and looking at me in wild eye's. He shocked to my suddenly anger. And I don't care about that. I just wanted to know. And about this I am so stubborn.

" And why is that... you don't know about this.. so stay out of it.. and why are you here.. go to your room now" he said angrily order me.. Like I did what he said. No I didn't. I am ready to punch him but suddenly Ray stood up and stop me with grab my hand and control me to do that mistake.

" relaxed bro.. don't fight. She didn't know that that's why she irritated. And about this red.. you killed his brother in last year red." Ray said and we both look at him in wild eye's.

" what" we both yelled and looking at him and than looking at each other. oohhh no you can't be serious ray. What just happened.. I mean seriously..