She misses him

Firdaus's POV:

"It slipped from my-"

"Just shut up. I am not surprised because that is what you know after all. BREAKING. Whether It's things or people's heart. It's not about a watch but It's about your habit." He said it with so much hatred, emphasizing the single word with bunny ears. I couldn't help but choke out a sound of sob. After that he left without a word. Controlling my sentiments I turn towards lily, who was looking at me sympathetically. "I am sorry." I mumbled to her to which she shook her head.

I left to our bedroom. Trying to ease the hurt I was feeling. And the best way was to do it was by praying namaaz and reading Quran. I lay the prayer mat down and was busy praying. After some time I felt light at heart. Thank you, Allah. Allhamdullilla. Quickly keeping my prayer mat back in the cupboard I went out. Lily was cleaning the book shelves. As I didn't had anything to do I too joined her. It was past seven in the evening which means that lily had to leave for her home. It was better when she was here as I was not alone in this penthouse. Now with lily gone I had to do the cooking, so I was thinking what should I prepare. If you would ask me I would just simply cook anything and eat it but now the concern was for Asad and after today morning I didn't wanted to upset him anymore.

So I switched to cooking streaked chicken breast with some spicy curry and white rice plus some koftas. When I started cooking it was past seven thirty as I was thinking till then but thanks to Allah and my cooking skills I was done with cooking the dinner by eight thirty pm. Quickly I arranged the food on the dining table and went to the bedroom to get myself to look presentable. After I was done with I went out to see if Asad had come and you know the answer. No. I waited for him but he didn't come. It was past nine thirty. Where is he?

At that the front door quirked open and he came in. I wished him with a salaam to which he replied but didn't looked at me. He went inside our room and I was debating whether I should go in or not? As he would need my help in anything. But then again it was a debate. He has taken care of himself for years when he was alone and it not that he cares.

I waited for another half an hour for him to come out and when he did I stood up. He glanced at me and made his way towards guest bed room.

"Asad?" I called him nervously. Hearing his name, he just stopped walking and stood there but he didn't turn to look at me neither he replied which was my queue to continue.

"I... the dinner is ...ready...hmm... waiting I mean." I told him. Ya Allah! Am I that bad at communicating with him now? I mentally palmed myself. After a moment he replied.

"I have already eaten my dinner with my family." With that he left me there standing. I couldn't think of anything for a while. Just that he had his dinner. I am not angry at him It's just that he could have said it before. I hoped that tonight we would have been eating dinner together. Well I guess he doesn't want to see my face. And that thought was enough to pull me in to sadness even more. Quietly I picked up the bowls and plates keeping the food in the fridge and crockery in the cupboards I went back to my room. That night I kept crying for everything. I couldn't control it anymore. Call me pathetic but I don't care now. The more I thought the more I was depressed. It was like Asad had left all the hopes on our marriage suddenly. He was all distant. Not even talking. I was like he was angry on me. But what did I do? Didn't he know that I was innocent? Of course, he did, I saw Ammi, Abbu & Bhai talking to him. Then why is he behaving like that? I don't know when I went to sleep with my wet pillow underneath me.

ASAD POV:

1:00 a.m.

From past 3 hours I am just tossing and turning around. And now I could literally hear the rumblings of my stomach. I am so hungry. Yeah, I lied to her about me having dinner with my family. At first when I entered in I was hungry then and there with aroma all around the penthouse. I saw her from my peripheral vision. She was waiting for me. For dinner. This is how I wanted it to be. Me and her. But then why is not the same now? Why can't I have her when she is with me? Why is close but yet so far? Yeah because you have her mind and body but not her heart! My subconscious mind reminded.

Wait! From when did I have my subconscious mind taunting me?

Wow Asad!!! Now because of situations you have gone crazy man! I was thinking to myself. I quickly opened the fridge to find it full with food. The whole fridge smelled sweet as well as minty-meaty. Well sorry I am bad at explaining smells and odor! After few shuffling I found that the dinner Firdaus made was intact and even she had not eaten either. Why would she do that? I took out the dinner for myself and herself when I saw the pancakes kept on the other shelf down. Did she make it? I quickly removed the pancakes plate putting it in microwave for heating while I contemplated whether to go to her or no. She might have slept but I was not bought up with such values where you eat food and are full while not caring about other. And no matter what I still did cared somewhere about her.

I went to our bedroom where she was present. I knocked twice or thrice but she didn't respond. For a minute I panicked and quickly rushed in. She was asleep. I went over to her side of bed and stood there watching her. Her hairs had been sprawled over half of the pillow while half was on her face. I smiled at how innocent she looked. Bending down I removed her hairs that were sticking on her face. They were slightly wet. Was the A.c off? I turned to check but it was perfectly functioning. I tucked her hairs behind her ears when I found her pillow wet. She cried. But why? I should be the one who should cry not her. I was heartbroken not her. I was ignored by her but then too I approached her then why is she supposed to cry? Is it because she misses him?

That only single thought was enough to make me pull away from her and leave the room. The pancakes I had heated was there in the oven but suddenly I felt as if my hunger had died. Taking the car keys I left the house thinking of what has happened all of a sudden.

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