Your life is not going to be the same now that your a Knight
The wedding was much easier that I expected, everyone was too busy with each other to the point that the only attention I got out of them was me walking down the eyle and exchanging rings with Elijah,
Not that I mind ofcourse,
And since we had already registered our marriage everything else was quite easy actually,
Well expect for the fact that they kept shouting "KISS THE BRIDE, KISS THE BRIDE" so I ended up getting a peck from Elijah while hearing so much screaming that I swear I think my ear drums were inches away from exploding.
I was able of catching Lily's stares at me every once in a while so I needed to pretend that I was completely happy all the time.
Luckily we didn't even stay for the whole party,
I had to get back home early to finish packing because Elijah just had to catch the first train out to London.
Which was at 5 in the fucking morning.
I wasn't even able of catching the reason why we had to leave so early.
Yeah.. I got myself such a dear husband.
After having like four of five crying sessions from mom and Lily I wasn't even able of sleeping because of them,
I was already too nervous and a part of me was still against moving to London and having them around me didn't help me focus at all.
God it was such a tiring night.
After I said my final goodbyes to mom Lily and Jack I was looking for Dad.
I can't believe he decided to go missing 45 minutes before my train.
We looked everywhere,
And when I say everywhere I mean EVERYWHERE.
in his room, library, bathrooms, garage, back yard and we even checked the neighbors,At 4 something in the morning.
Luckily most of them would always be up at this time since most of them are seniors.
These are the rare times I'm grateful they are.
"Mom did he not say anything?.."
Mom looked at me with as much confusion as I was feeling
"Honey i swear he was just outside a while ago."
I dialed his number again for the 6th time and called him.
"Its 4 in the morning!!where could he possibly go"
My last words were interchanged by the door bell
Well crap.
Hearing the doorbell I knew that was Elijah and I had to go.
Where ever he went,I just can't believe he decided to go at this exact moment.
"Mom I'm already late so I have to go."
After I heard Lily screaming
"JAY ELIJAH'S HERE."
I just went back to my room to get the rest of my stuff and left.
I placed final bag outside and looked at him
"Hey.."
He smiled a little
"Hi..sorry I'm late I got caught up with work.."
My eyebrows almost met as I focused on his face.
His green eyes were so tiered that they were just almost red and the eye bags under his eyes just showed how tiered he was.
"Did you not sleep?"
"Hmm?"..
Was all that came out of him
He was too busy loading my stuff with Jack and I think he decided to just ignore my question, and I didn't bother to ask him again because I heard my dads voice shouting out my name.
Elijah looked at me and I smiled a little
"I wasn't able of saying good bye"
He looked at his watch for a second
"Don't get me wrong but just make it quick,I don't want to be late."
I replied with a small okay and quickly headed inside the house
"Dad,where are you?"
Hearing my mom say that he is in the storage room I quickly opened the basement and looked for him.
I watched my steps looking around with the whole place being such a mess, I don't recall it being this messy.
"Dad..I'm running late I have to-"
"I know I know, its just that I have to give you this before you leave."
I looked at him as he suddenly showed up to me with a dusty journal in his hand.
Wonder was all over my face
"Whats this?.."
My dad gave me a very warm smile and looked at the rusty journal
"This was my first business journal."
Business journal?
Since when does dad have journals?
Let alone Business journals from between all.
Lack of understanding was written all over my face,
Dad was never the kind to leave his important work on some cheep piece of paper, he always has those huge files.
You know the ones with srtong strings and a big hanger at both sides.
He was just simply the kind to never trust anyone with anything.
He opened it and was going through the pages for a couple of seconds before he stopped and stared down at a specific page with a small smile.
That was one of the few times I saw dad look so calm.
Growing up as the rebel I am while having a strict father who needs you to be perfect for every small detail of your life because everyone he knew was watching us,
I just feel a little down everytime I see him smiling like that.
I know that sounds fucked up but I don't mean it in a bad way, its just me feeling sorry for my own self.
He cleared his voice before reading whats written out loud
"To whom I wish nothing upon but happiness and well-being, I would like you to know that I pray your fist hits the firm wall that is holding you and sheds it to pieces that shall be your guide, light, strength and evidence of the ability you hold."
After looking up at me I saw the memories in his eyes.
This was something important.
"Your mom got me this when I decided to start TAI, the family business."
He smiled once again before adding
"So she thought of giving me a business journal."
Yeah right..business.
"So being the idiot child that she is she wanted to make it special and write short poems with each page.."
I smiled without realizing, knowing how mom is she must've really gave it her all to help him.
They've been through so much together, from starting the firm to marriage and rasing a family and trying there best not to lose who they are.
I've seen a part of what they went through, I've seen them raise each other up at times while at other time they broke each other down until they were pieces.
I've seen them give up on whats between them and walk away,
But come back before its late enough to lose the broken love they have for each other.
My mom and dad have a survival marriage story that I pray I won't have, and luckily I won't.
They started with something that me and Elijah don't have,
Love.
I don't think i have the energy to give someone that feeling again.
And I don't know if it's right or wrong, I never thought about it until now and I hope I don't have to.
My dads voice broke my deep thoughts and got my attention.
"I want you to have this."
He held my hand gently and I see worry and anxiety as he speaks to me
"I want you to open and read this everytime it gets hard on you there,ok."
He looked down at it again and I think I'm beginning to understand how much it means to him
"It helped me alot back in the days"
He looked back at me and intensity was back to lock up his eyes
"And I think it can help you with what your going to have to fight and face out there."
I bit my lower lip and I felt my eyes burn.
Why the Hell are they watering now in front of him out of all people.
Looking away and slowly steading my breath, he is the last person I need to see me crack right now.
"I know this isn't easy on you"
The look on his eyes just told me that he knew, everything
But I was too much of a coward to even ask
"But it's not impossible alright?your my daughter and that's enough to know how capable you are"
Sometimes I wish he would just try to see that not everyone is like him
"Remember what I told you about the bird that chose to drown because its wings were too wet to help her fly"
He swallowed hard, its as if he's trying to carefully choose his words to not mess things up.
"You need to be strong enough to believe you can make it"
I wasn't even able of stopping the tears,
They just rolled down my eyes and my dad just took in a deep breath and sighed a little
"Crying doesn't change the situation-"
"It only a waste for your energy..I know dad i know."
Finishing his sentence to help me steady my voice I cleared my head a little,
I'm not a Crier
I'm not a Crier
This is not even hard
"So honey don't cry, go fix whats wrong.."
I think he knows everything.
No.
By the way he's looking at me I know he knows everything.
And if not everything then atleast something.
I swallowed my breath to gain enough strength to ask
I need to ask and know
"Dad I-"
I couldn't even finish my sentence because Elijah's voice cut out mine
"Jay we need to go"
I looked behind me to see him standing at the door steps of our basement.
Looking back at my father,he just smiled and walked past me to leave with the only chance I had to understand.
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The train was almost empty and it was too quiet for someone to move or do anything in our cabin.
Elijah was too closed up into the the papers that were in front of him to the point that if a bomb went out he won't even look up.
He looked so tiered, his eyes were red and the wrinkles beside his eyes were showing how hard he was trying to focus.
He was dressed in a casual black shirt and just some simple jeans,his hair was a bit messy and I could see from the fact that his glasses were on the table in front of him he wasn't just having it.
Moving his eyes from one piece of paper to another, his calm voice caught me off guard.
"Can I help you?" He said without changing his movements.
It took me a couple of seconds to get some words out
"Hmm?"
He looked up at me with his icy eyes
"You look like you want to ask a question."He slowly replied.
"So let me hear it." He finished while looking back at his work.
I bit my lower lip as I looked at him.
He seems so......simple.
Everything in him, the way he speaks is so straightforward that I guess he says what firstly comes to his mind.
"You seem so tiered"
He didn't even look up as I spoke and for a second I actually thought he maybe didn't believe me.
"Ok." He said and I almost believed he probably didn't hear me.
"Ok..so don't you think that you need to have some rest, we still have a couple of hours and you can finish this work when you get home."
The small smirk he had on after my words confused me
"Finish it at home?Jay this is not some homework I can just finish at home, I understand the deference between TAI and Knights Association is quite big so I need you to know that this isn't Children's work."
Letting his words sink in for a while I felt down.
"I never said anything, its just that you look like a horse kicked you it the face..twice."
Glaring at me he tilted his face to the right a little showing how inhibit he was at my choice of words.
"You will lose all that focus that your trying so hard to pile up." I calmly said trying to not get intimated by his eyes.
One of the few things I've sumed up about him until now is that his eyes got this wierd way of making others swallow hard.
He his eyes returned to the papers in front of him ignoring my presence again.
Rolling my eyes I just looked out of the window.
The train was moving so fast I couldn't catch a glance of almost anything, just trees.
"I don't know how you claim that you know much about me but you seem to not have the knowledge of how much I hate being ignored"
"I do know." He replied once again in such a calm voice I could barely hear.
I rested my head on the palm of my hands with my elbow upholding the table.
"Do you know that I feel kinda frustrated when people speak in such low voices with me?"I kindly tried to choose my words this time to avoid getting another glare.
He nodded his head at me.
He was probably just playing along without even focusing on what I'm even saying.
This is much harder than I expected.
I feel like he is parlty dead inside, no one could possibly be this simple and calm.
His dark brown hair framed his overall face despite how messy it was, his green eyes that looked a little bit lighter now with the light of the window infecting the small hazel flexes they have, sitting upon a slim nose and a some lips that were a light shade of pink.
It was clear that he shaved today and seeing how these fetcures sumed up he looked like a straight rich player.
Money was all over his face and its so hard to believe he is this calm with such a handsome face.
I couldn't deny how good looking he was and it just feels so weird.
It feels so wierd staring at someone like him and realizing he someone I met in such a short notice without knowing anything personal about him as a person and still have a ring in my finger that is shared with him.
It feels so weird looking at a guy I don't understand fully, let alone know, yet here I am 3 hours away from moving to London together with his family And act like a wife, daughter and sister in law now.
"You still haven't told me why you need to get married to me." I said out of the blue. I saw how my words caught all his attention and just stop every muscle in him for half a second.
"I told you its because of my father."he replied without even looking at me. I can't even tell what is true and what isn't when it comes to him and the words he uses.
"Stop thinking about what happened and please look at what is yet to come." He continued while picking up his pen once again.
"Well I can't think about whats yet to come if I have no clue whats on the way."
I Added not wanting to lose this conversation. Not that it mattered though, I just needed to stop thinking about whats been happening lately.
"Hmmm, how about you start by this."He looked up at me with ironic eyes and an ironic tone as he spoke. He placed a long piece of paper beside me.
"Whats this?" I said looking from the paper down to him again a couple of times.
"This is your contact, it states your right over the department of TAI which will be opened at the end of this month under Knights Association in London, it also states that I have no right against the Headquarters back in Manchester and any decision that shall be held by the department needs both mine and yours approval first"
"Your approval?" I repeated after him with some query in between.
"Its needed since I'm the CEO and your boss, of course I doubt I'll need to rethink a choice you'll make." He cleared of firsly to avoid misunderstandings.
"I know how serious you are with your work and how much this means to you so I believe we will be able of seeing eye to eye in most things, don't you agree?"
He said so professionally.
I just shook head and looked back down at the contract.
I slowly started to read it making sure I won't miss anything before I sign this.
Reading this just made me feel how serious he really was. Everything he promised before the marriage is written right over here. He even got some of our company workers to move all the way to London to have this Department full on ready to solve the virus that hit us.
"We will try our best to find out who was trying to hack you, why and how it happened. So don't worry about it I will try my best to keep up with you." He added again with a normal tone this time.
I looked up to see that he was already looking at me trying to see how I was feeling.
"Why are you doing all of this?"
He looked rather confused at my question
"Parden?" He said with wonder in his voice.
"Why are you helping me out like this, you don't even know me and your willing to hire the best team in England just to get our software back on track?"
I sounded more offended that grateful and he must've caught that.
He looked at the contract for seconds, seeming like he was trying to carefully choose his words before he spoke.
"Listen Jay, i don't know why you didn't take my earlier words seriously but this is happening." he said very calmly as he placed his hand on top of the contract.
"And I hope your taking your vows of this marriage very seriously too." His voice sounded like he was warning me before anything else.
"I understand that you don't completely know what you signed up for, and that's okay because I'm here to help you with it."
He let out a sigh and it was more of a concerned one.
"because it takes two to dance." He said as He licked his lower lip before he spoke again with a much firm tone this time.
"But it takes two focused dancers to dance without making mistakes that could ruin the whole dance, not someone who can't keep up with the beat."
I felt like he was just giving me heads up to something I didn't even know was coming.
"You won't fully understand until we are put to action." He added while looking out of the window for seconds again before finishing.
"But when we are you can not make incorruptible mistakes alright?"he lastly said while staring me dead in the eye.
I just shook my head.
Thinking about it now, the universe keeps on giving me signs to not let my guard down, from how worked up Elijah looks like everthime he speaks about my actions and how my dad decided to give me such precious journal.
What is out there in London? What did I get sign my self up to?
Elijah scoffed a little putting all his focus on arranging the papers he had in his hands.
"Your life is not going to be the same now that your a Knight."he said out loud.
And all I could do was just swallow hard at that small information.
"You can't even guess what that will cost." He spoke in such a low voice I barely caught what he said.
And just by hearing this I grasped one thing.
I'm in shit tone of trouble, and there is no way out except walking through the gates of hell.