9. Stars

There was dead silence in the dining table. But Zander was stiff. Like he was thinking what to say. My dad and mom were looking at Zander. Probably waiting for an answer. Then what felt like hours " You know Mr.Black -to which dad nodded. He continued- he used to be my dad. But we are not together anymore"

Used to????

Of course he doesn't call him his dad after he left him

But why did he left such a happy family????

Then mom and dad didn't questioned again. But Mr.Black I think is one of my dad's business rival. Like from the very starting they have been in a competition.

Throughout the dinner. Zander mom and dad were talking. I even talked but my most focus was on the food. Then after having cheesecake for dessert. We bid our goodbyes. And Zander went. Mom was extremely close to him. She was caring for him like he was her own child.

I made my way to my room. Kept all the books properly. Had a bath. And selected the dress I will wear tomorrow. I do it at night only. Cause I'm not a morning person. I was about the sleep. But something out of the window or rather someone caught my attention.

It was around 2. So mom and dad must be asleep. I climbed off the window and tiptoped towards Zander and "Boo!!!!" But he didn't even finched  and then blankly said " I know you were coming. When you climbed off your window". I just stared at him. After sometime I sat beside him. He was still having his cigarette and was gazing the stars. And he was in deep thoughts. I knew I must not interfere into his business. But curiosity always kills the cat.

" What are you thinking?" He glanced towards me " Nothing." And I knew this. Getting an answer from him was impossible. But I know Zander is very competitive and he never back off from a challenge. " Ok so if you are sitting here free. Let's play again. I will ask you a question and in return you can ask me a question. And if you don't answer the question then you lose the game" he again blankly looked at me " What will I get out of this?" I know he is selfish. " Don't always thing of getting something. If you want to know what you will get. Then you will get memories with me and even you will get to know about me" I tried my best to explain him and let him play the game.

And finally he nodded. I actually jumped on the rooftop. I was about to fall but Zander took hold of my hand at the right time. I avoided the tingle that I felt and asked him the first thing that came to my mind " What is your favorite color?" He looked at me like he was not expecting this questions. He simply looked towards his dress. I followed his gaze. And he was wearing a black hoodie. With a black ripped jeans and a black bandana.

Okay in all he was wearing black

And his favorite color is black....

He then asked "what's yours?" I smiled and said " White". He nodded. I still wanted to make the conversation as big as possible. But when you are with Zander. You can't expect a conversation. " I like white. So it's so pure. And give a you a feeling of safety. Like you are safe and happy. It moves the dark. It can bring light to any dark thing. And then like it is killing all that bad and negativity. So I like white". I breath after I completed my speech. I glanced towards Zander and he was intensely looking at me. And then said the most unexpected thing that I didn't expected or though " But if white is mixed with allot of black. The black also turns the white as itself". I just stared at him. Like he was comparing us out here.

He IS comparing you and him. Stupid!!

He is directly telling you to stay away from him....

But I can't. It's like he is in pain. But he don't want help. He think he is capable of handling the pain. But he can't. He has endured alot. And it's time to share it. To share his pain with someone.

Someone he believes

Someone who will never broke his trust

Someone he loves

And I don't know but I want to be that SOMEONE.....

I Looked at him. We can feel the tension around us. So I asked the next question without thinking " What's your best childhood memory?" And then snapped shut my mouth. Zander was looking at my actions. " If you don't want to. Then don't tell". Suddenly there were fire in his grey eyes "Why are you so curious about my life. Come out of your fantasy world Amelia. I'm not a fucking project you are working on. You want to know my childhood memories. So listen. My mom and dad used to fight all my childhood. When I though the

Problem will come to an end. Dad divorced mom. And I was left alone. I used to see other children play happily with there parents. I needed my dad. To make me understand all the thing that one should know. But no. He was not there. And you know the reason why he left us. Was Money, fame, status. Seriously, and for that he used to casually fight with my mom without any reason. But my mom knew this that he is giving her a reason to leave him. But mom didn't did that. Cause she loved him. She would do anything for him. And he also very well know. So he started having affairs. But still mum didn't left him. He always used to come home with a new slut. And mom used to try all night. She didn't left him. She was in pain. She stayed with dad for me. Cause she knew I will need a dad"

"Pls stop Zander. I will never ask anything. Pls don't continue" by now I had tears in my eyes but there was not a hint of tears in his eyes.

He is a heartless beast!!!!

Say away from him

He will make you just like him

No I can't stay away from him.

And I will never.

He shaked his head in no and continued " And then at last. He blamed my mom for having an affair. And this time mum left him. Cause she didn't want to have a man as her husband who would doubt her. And she left him for good. Now my dad has everything money, fame , status all that he wanted. But he didn't have us. He even came to us for forgiveness. My mum will forget him but I can't and I will never forget him.

Because of him my childhood was destroyed. If he is able to give me my childhood then I will talk to him. But he fucking can't give it to me. So I never ever want to be with him. This is all you wanted to know. Or there is still things remaining. Say Amelia! You wanted to know na. And I swear dont ever come to near me when I'm angry. I swear I don't know what I do when I'm angry. And don't talk to me. Cause all that you have done to me is bringing me some sleepless night. Bye !"

And he dashed away from my sight. Like my sight just fired him. Throughout all the talk. I noticed he didn't call me Lia. And for some reason I felt sad that he didn't.

Throughout you just noticed this

Stupid!!!! 

I'm really stupid. I just wanted to help him.

But you are a trouble to him.

I know. But still

You have brought sleepless night to him.

But I didn't talked to him during night

Stupid!!! You are really stupid. You still didn't understand???

What! I know I'm stupid. Now say me what I didn't understand

He was thinking about you all night

Was I supposed to laugh on this joke??? Me beautiful are the two words that can never be together.

Whatever helps you sleep at night

Sleep, night

Shit I'm supposed to sleep right now. Tomorrow a big day for me. Dad is taking me to his office. And some of his business partner office. To help me remember them and teach me about his business.

I quickly cleaned my face. Which was red due to crying. And slowly and steadily went to my room.

I was laying on my bed. Now that devil has given me sleepless night. I will not talk to him. I was going to help me. Guess you can't help someone. So I will give him. What he want. I will ignore him. I will not talk to him.

But, deep down I also know that It be impossible for me to do so....

Hey Readers!!!

Fheeewww!!!!!

It was really a big chapter. It took be two days to complete it. And I'm getting more and more homework and assignment. So I can't promise next update.

Untill next chapter

Stay Gold!

- kuls