Kiss But Not The Kiss

We stayed to play games.. and we are enjoying our time.. me and draw both look at each other than look away.. don't know but we didn't try to talk to each other..

He also try to come to me talk to me.. but he didn't success because of Natasha.. she always go to him.. and he got stuck in him.. gray and shawn come to me and spend some time with me.. and I see that gray also try to rebonding with Bobby.. so did Shawn and I am happy for them..

Liam.. draw's brother try to talk to me for some times he come to me.. and try to flirt with me.. but I don't like he's pick-up lines.. it's make me uncomfortable..

And I am happy that Cassy didn't leave my side.. she is really great company.. and I like her.. she talk a lot.. like a lot..

After that all are started to talking about all memories.. talking about how they all are.. Alex draw and all.. we laugh listing that . Jassica and Cassy both are big bomb for them.. they didn't leave any chance to tease them.. and we laugh hearing this..

After that me and gray also started talking about hazz.. how was she when she was little.. and how me and gray got team up and prank on her.. it's all cute memories that thinking I feel like it's just happened yesterday..

" You remember that our New York frist party.. when we meet shawn.." hazz said.. and she started to talk about our New York trip.. which I don't mind about it.. it's just memory.. that I had it.. it's beautiful.. I smile thinking about it..

" That day we had good time.. we both are dance in counter and give all of us our sexy show ." I told her.. and than explain all of them that what I did and how we enjoyed.. and they all are suprise to hearing that..

" You don't look like party girl.." Natasha said hearing this.. and I look at her.. looking at her like she just don't know whst she thinking but whatever is that not good one first sure .

" You don't have idea how fun loving girl is she even you didn't do things that she did in her life.." and hazz started to told her about me.. and she just drink her drink and nodded with her head . I know she didn't listen to her and ignore her all think.. but others once hear it and they got all listen to her..

" How much guy's you dated.." Cassy ask me.. and all eye's on us.. tuff questions I guess..

" Should I have to give answer..,"hazz  said to me and her.. and I nodded and drink my wine .

" Actually only Shawn.. before that she got married with gray.. that time she is so Young so she didn't know all this think.. after when we left London and come to New York that time she meet shawn.. and she didn't hide think to him.. told him clearly that she is married.. but when shawn know about that it's gray whom she married and he already married and again want to married with Bobby.. that day was so horrible to us.." she said .

" That day first time I see shawn angry that much.. if bella didn't stop him.. I know that he surely call Grayson last day.." and we all looking at shawn and gray.. and they both are looking at each other.. thinking about it..

" But after that all gone well.. and they act like besttys.." hazz told them .

" When all is gone well that why you and shawn both are party away..." Sophie ask me.. and me nad Shawn look at each other.. i don't know what to said.. should I or just ignore her questions.. bit I have to one day told them..

" Its not worked.. for us.. work is first after that everything.. so we both are in bussy to keep position one to stave company so we forget about us.. and my internship come close.. and than we both are part away.. we didn't try after that to think about it.. or do anything.. after that I left London.. and settle down to America to new start.. sure I have my dad company and all.. but still its my dad's.. and I want to do something my own so I just leave behind it.. and give half of share to gray.. plus give divorce to him.. and start some new.. " I explain her everything.

" I thought you want to leave us because of us .." gray told me. And this one is new to me.. but I want to tell him.. so he can not get confused.. and I smile at him and walk to him..

" It's never about you guys.. you are always be my best friend when I told you before your wedding night.. that feeling and all is gone.. I want to do somthing for myself that's why I move out.. it's not because of you or bobby or nor because of shawn.. if it is.. that I never come here.. " i told him and gi e him kiss on he's chick's..

" Than why you stop contact with us.. you just stop talking to me.. what I have to think..." He said to me.. all are looking at us..

" Its not only you gray.. she also never time for me.. after you she is mine best friend but she got change she got bussy the way I got when we go somewhere and start new.. we do lots of struggle for that.. but it's just for us we just don't do that we got already everything.. we just have too maintain our position but she just start with 0.. and you can imagine it when we start with 0 how would we got bussy to earn.. just think when it's about new project when we got how we will got stress out.. same gose to her.. and it's not that that we have same time or anything.. just think like this.. after that you never think like this.. I know bella.. she never leave us for this reason.." hazz come and explain to him... And I am so lucky that I have her. And she know her.. I don't hsve to explain her and it's really mean to me..

I hug gray.. and console him.. maybe he is sad about it and he think wrong about it.. and there is some of my mistake that I didn't give him time.. or Ignore all of them.. and so much bussy in her life..

" I know how aunt Mary got angry when she skippd lunch.. or dinner.. when she don't have time for food.. how can she have time for us.." hazz said and than he nodded with her had..

" I don't know gray what you hiding but if anytime anywhere or anything you want to share.. I always be there.. oky.." i told him.. and he nodded..

" So tell us about you guys.. how you guys become football player.." hazz change the subject.. and Jake and dan started to explain us.. and all.. and I seat besides gray.. and my head one he's shoulder not want to left him go.. or feel alone.. and my legs are under the water.. and I paly with water to my leg.. and listen to them.. and there storys..

Its quite nice to know.. I see that Bobby seat alone and listen to them.. is it right time to talk with gray.. if I ask him will he give me right answer or avoid my question..

" Gray..." I call he's name.. everyone are bussy to hearing that story.. so no one notice that..

" Mmmmm.." he said .. and playing with my head..

" You and Bobby.." I ask him.. and he stop playing it..

" I mean you both are happy right.." i ask him.. and Remov my head to he's shoulder and look at him.. and so did he look at me.. and I know he's eyes all say to me.. that there is nothing good going on between us..

" I thought because of her you left.. dad left.. you hate us.. and that why I don't know I started to think that I did worse decision to married with her.." he said to me. And I don't know what to say.. but I feel bad to knowing it..

" Gray.. it's nothing like you thik.. that's nothing that your thinking.. dad want to be us.. I know but don't you see dad and mom both are started to you know.. there is not your fault.. why you think that.. we love Bobby. And like I said before.. she change.. she not like they way she in past.. and I accept her.. everyone accept her long time ago.. whatever is that I don't like it is the way you act like to her avoiding her so clear things out.. understand.." i told him.. no I don't said I just order him to do.. he know he didn't do that he got punishment from us.. not only me.. also me dad mom and also hazz..

" I don't know how to do now.. we both got in fight and it's bad one.. I told her lots if bad things.. and I don't know she will ever forgive me.." he said to me..

" Listen.. she will.. if she angry on you that much.. you know how she is.. she will divorce you that time.. but she didn't.. why.. she Loves you.. and she wants only you.. she have only you to be call her family.. so don't leave her alone.. she needs you.. just talk to her.. and make things clear.." i told him.. and he nodded with he's head. And I know he will sure talk to her. And I know all things.. going to be good.. after that I just push him.. where Bobby is seating along.. and give him thumps to good luck.. and he nodded and dear besides her.. and they both started to talk..

I know they will be fine.. after talking.. after things going to be clear.. if they fight because of us.. than it is my business to make them clear.. and make them again back together.. like they are before..

" Done doing match making.." shawn come.. and I jump on the water.. and he grab me so I can't go under the water..

" You want to give me heart attack.. now I get it.. you want me to die.." i told him.. and he laugh at this.. and than I stable my position so I can't again sleep or something happen to me..

" Sorry love.. but I like it your all reaction.." he said.. and I rolled my eyes .

" But I like it what you just did.. and I know gray he truly love her.. they will be fine.. to soon..," he said and offer me wine.. which I accpt kindly..

" I know they will.. I never thought that they will stop talking because of us.. I mean seriously.." i told him.. and drink wine..

" Well you make suddenly that decision who never think like this.. even I also think same.." he told me . And than I nodded with my head..

There is little bit my fault that I didn't explain them why I want to move out.. if I did told them.. that they both are never in that distance.. but I am happy thst now they will be back again..

I look at them.. they both are laugh.. and gray try to make her joke.. he and he's typical jokes.. I forget that Shawn also still standing beside me..

" So how's going you between you two..," i ask him about jenifar.. he drink he's wine and tha thinking what he want to talk..

" Don't know but she is not that bad which I assume.. she is nice girl.. I know she will be change if I give her more time.. she is little bit insecure" he said and I nodded with my head..

" I know you will do it nicely.. I trust you.. just one think.. control you anger.. and take care of her and baby also..now it's all your duty you know.." i told him.. and he laugh and nodded with he's head..

" I always thought that I will be dad one day.. and I give him lots of love.. and I always imagine you to my baby's mother.. " he said . And I look at him.. and I don't know what to said.. I feel sad to him.. or whst I feel about it..

" I know I lost my chance 3 year's ago.. why didn't that time I stop you.. but I also don't want to stop you for your future.. I know you have your own things.. if I ask you that time for marriage you never accept.. you just come out for your once.. and I don't want to come between you and your freedom.. " he said to me.. I know I will never accpt but one things is sure that I will be always by he's side no matter what..

"I never thought that I will be having baby not with you but with Jenifer.. " he said to me.. and I hug him.. and he hug me back.. and I know he needed it.. I don't have feeling for him the way I used to be.. but still I am still consider to him as good Friend.

" In past we had good memories Shawn.. you give me good memories.. and I never forget this.." i told him.. and we both broke the hug.. and he kiss my nose.. the way he used to be go...

" I also never forget you bella.. " he said to me.. I didn't know that I started to cried.. he wipe my tears . And than hug me again.. I hug him back.. damn it.. this is man make me mad..

" I know jenifar will be take care of you and give you love what you want.." i told him.. and he nodded with he's head.

" Baby.." jenifar come to us.. and than its my clue to leave and I smile at her.. and look at once last to shawn.. and than give them there space..

" Any regret." Finally.. I look at him.. and I see that he is already so close to me.. and looking at me.. and waiting for my answer..

The way he said to me.. I also asked myself that have I regret. I don't think so.. they both are in past.. I know they hurt me.. but they also give me beautiful memories.. so I don't think so that bad memory can win front of good onces.. and why should I regret.. they still here for me. And we are all in good terms.. they are happy in there life.. and so did I.. so why.. I don't think I have will ever regret..

" Nop... " I told him.. we both looking at each other.. he is looking to my eyes . I know is looking at that did I saying truth or not.. and I am smile at him.. and than I know what to do next..

Lots of drama happened to the pool party.. it's time to little more do fun. And he is here.. why not start with him.. mmm..

And than I smash water on him.. and he got suprise by my sudden action.. and I laugh at him. And he still looking at him what just happened.. and he started to clean he's face with he's head.. and than I see somthing.

The same tattoo invhes head . Whom I saw it that night.. means.. it's him who save me.. I want to ask him.. I want to know him.. but before I said.. he also smash water in me.. and than he started laugh.. and than looking at him.. and feel happy. I mean I never see him laugh..

" Game on mr Smith.." i said him with smrik.. and we both started to play with each other.. after that Cassy join us.. and than me and Cassy both got team up and throw water on him..

And like this all are join us.. and we started to smash water to each other..

" Mamma..." And like this kid's come running to us..

Kid's are also wear Little swim suit.. and they look really really nice.. I just fall for there costumes... They also come to me.. and than me and kids started to play with each other.. and I learn them how to swim.. even draw also come and join us.. and we had great time.. and out party go well.. and I am happy for that..

After that we all are get out of to the pool.. and started to walk for over dinner.. well dinner time already gone. But Alex already talk about our party and all.. so they arrange it so we don't have to worry about food.. most of me.. well I am foody girl.. I always want food..

I told them that I will be back using washroom.. I really needed it.. and than I used washroom and than join them.. they already all seated and I see that draw is waiting for me to come and seat besides him.. and I did.. and feel happy then I did.. and we all started to eat. Mom dad all are come and join us.. they also didn't eat because of us..

" Today's is fun.. so what's tomorrow.." Milly ask..

" Did you guys shop for wedding.. and for ball.. and of course our bachelor party.." Cassy ask..

," We actually look some of clothes.. and tomorrow we all are going to to check one again.. and yeah we also have to buy some cloths.. you guys also join us tomorrow.. And bell ." Hazz said them. And than she call me.. and I look at her.. she seating opposite side in front of me.. and smrik looking at that I am Seating with draw.. and I rolla my eyes..

" I forgot to tell you that.. we have to go to see the decoration of Chapel.. they said they want details.." she said.. and I nodded with my head..

" Means you are too bussy tomorrow.." draw said to me in my ear.. and it make me shivir the way he said.. and I look at him. Looking at him I feel hot.. they way he is looking at me.. I don't know what say so I just nodded with my head.. I can't truth my words..

" I want to spend time with you.. to know you more.. I had misunderstanding in past..  now I want to know you better.. " he said to me.. and I smile knowing this.. that he really want to know me..

" Seems like you already west time for this. And I don't think you have that time for know me.. we have only 5 or 6days after that we are all part away.. I don't think so.." and he cut me off kissing my lips.. what the.. and it's just too fact I didn't know what to said.. my eyes wild.. how the hell it's happen.. he just kiss me and it's just kiss nothing like kiss kiss. Just kiss. To stop me.. 

" I know how to get time from you... And when I want to know you better than i don't care about how much time we have or not.. it's enough for me I guess.." He said.. started eat he's food. And I  still looking at him.. what just happnd.. and how the hell it's nothing to him front of kiss me and act like nothing happened..

I started to get up but he hold my hand and again I seat on my seat.. what the..