Chapter 10.5: The Confession Part2

💞" Ryan's POV "💞

"So...", I trail off before taking a deep breath

"If y'all don't already hate me or thing if me differently now you guys will after I tell you this.", I tell them taking a few more deep breaths

"So, it was around the time of my sister's funeral. That was when we moved here and we made it to where she could be buried here instead of Alabama where we used to live.", I tell them again taking some more deep breaths

"I wanted to go to her funeral just prove them wrong. To prove to them she wasn't gone, to prove to them that she was still alive but, my parents wouldn't let me. They said that 'The monster that killed her doesn't deserve the honour to be able to go to her funeral.' I still wonder to this day how the fuck going to somebody's funeral is a fucking honour much less a loved one's funeral. Going to anybody's funeral is a fucking curse.", I say staring at nothing in particular.

"So, I was forced to stay home. At our new home. It was kinda creepy. I didn't really like the house, hell I still don't like the house but, after that day, after my sisters funeral, I'd get yelled at. It was just yelling at first but then it was my sisters birthday, her 8th birthday and she wasn't there. They still blame it on me and I believe them. But that day it wasn't just yelling about how it was my fault that she died, no. That day was the first time ever that my mom and dad hit me. They didn't just hit me with their hands, they used what ever they could, at one point that day they started to use my dad's leather belt hitting me on the back till I started bleeding from it.", I say with a sigh I didn't really wanna speak much about anything that goes on in my life.

I'm one of those people that prefers not to talk about their problems. I'd prefer to just push my problems to the side and not talk about them, I'd just prefer to help others out with their problems no matter how shitty they'd treat me. Hell, I'd forgive my parents for all the shit they put me through over the fucking years. I know, what a stupid thing to do, right? Well no matter how mean I seem to people who treat me like the pathetic piece of shit I am I will always believe in that you should forgive but you should never forget.

"After a few years of just the abuse one night my father came into my room. It was late and I didn't think much of it at first I thought he'd come in my room to pull me out of my bed and hit me like usual but what he did that night was so much worse, at least it was to me.", I tell them not really wanting to remember it but I still was and I already knew I had tears rolling down my cheek. I felt a pair of arms wrap around me for which took me out of my thoughts.

"Hey, it's okay. You don't have to say anything else.", Blake says and I push him off of me instantly.

"Don't touch me, please.", I say in nothing above a whisper.

"Summer that's the reason why I ask if I can stay over here at your house. Blake, Ember, that's the reason I always come to school limping.", I say looking up at them.

"And Stacey, that's how I learned self defense, I had to teach myself so I didn't end up being a bloody fucking pulp.", I tell her looking down messing around with the hem of the hoodie.

"Even after all that I'm still standing and alive.", I say with a smile wiping away my tears.

"Please, don't tell anyone about this.", I beg to them

"I've dealt with it for about 9 years I can deal with it for another 2.", I tell them in a pleading tone.

They all looked upset and I looked down hoping they weren't upset at me for what I said.

"Fine.", Summer sighed and I looked up at her suprised.

"What?", I asked surprised

"What?!", everyone else says sounding upset

"Look, I don't like the idea of her being hurt everyday when she gets home, and it's not like she gets a break at school.", Summer says the last part glaring at Ember and Blake.

"Hey, I didn't hit her I only called her names look to him about the hitting.", Ember says in a sad but matter-of-factly tone.

"Yeah, I'm sorry about th-", Blake goes to say but I put I throw one of my hands up to stop him.

"I don't even apologize, I've already forgave both of you but don't think for one second that you have my full trust, I will never forget what you guys did to me.", I say and they both give me a sad smile.

"Fine, we won't tell.", Ember and Blake says and Stacey stares at them in suprise.

"WHAT?! ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!", Stacey yells at all of them which causes me to flinch and scoot back a little.

"What the hell is wrong with you guys?! She gets abused everyday and god only knows how many times she's fucking raped by her father and you just want to leave it at that!", she yells getting really angry.

I've never seen Stacey angry even though I only met her but, angry Stacey is a very scary Stacey.

I get up off the floor and just stare at the situation I caused.

"I knew this was gonna happen.", I say to myself as i watch Stacey's face turn red from anger as she yelled at them.

"STOP IT!", I yell at them to get them to stop arguing which they did and all looked at me.

"Look Stacey, I know you think it's the right thing to do and tell but if you tell anybody at all then they'd probably call the police and they'd take me to foster care, and if you call the police they'd take me to foster care. I don't want that, and if I was to go to a foster home god only knows where it would be and I'd probably never see any of you guys again so please, please I'm begging not to tell I'll even get down on my hands and knees and beg you not to tell anyone.", I tell her standing in front of her getting ready to get on my hands knees before she stops me and sighs

"Fine, even though I real-", she goes to say but I stop her by picking her up in a huge hug and tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!", I say happy that she wouldn't tell.

"Only on one condition.", she says and I let go of her and look her in the eyes.

"What is it, anything.", I ask her

"Stop doing that or at least try.", she says gesturing to the new burn mark on leg. I pull my short leg down which didn't help.

"I-I c-can tr-try.", I stutter out and she hugs me.

"That's all I ask.", she says whilst hugging me. Then I feel everyone hug me me in a tight hug.

"Thank you guys so so much.", I tell them feeling a weight lift off of my chest. I didn't realize how good it would feel if I told people what I was going through, I just hope they'll stay with me and won't take advantage of my trust. I've never told anybody about this, well besides my sister but that's besides the point. The point is that I actually told people even though I don't fully trust them.