Chapter 13: School Yay..... NOT

😐" Monday Morning "😐

💋" Ryan's POV "💋

It's finally Monday and I'm getting outta the shower. I wrapped a towel around me and looked at myself in the mirror. I burned myself last night again.

I promised I'd try and I fail as usual. I'm just a complete and total failure. The worse part about it is that I didn't even think of the consequences of me burning myself.

Oh well, I guess I'll just have to deal with it. I dry off and walk into my room. I walk to my closet and look at what I have to wear. I only have short sleeves shirts, hoodies, and tank tops, then I have pants.

Oh well I guess I'll just have to do with an old hoodie. I think to myself as I grab my favorite hoodie that I haven't worn in a while. I grab a pair of old jeans that have holes here and there on them. I grab another hoodie and pair of jeans and stick them in my bag.

I grab my combat boots and put them in my bag with an extra pair of socks then I grab a pair of socks old tennis shoes and put them on, I gather my things and then I head to school.

I'm in so much pain but I have to push through it. Thank God I don't have gym today. But I do have music. Yay me! (Note the sarcasm).

🎶" At Music "🎶

"Alright class, its been about a week since I assigned you your projects. I expect that everyone of you have a certain position in your group.", our music teacher says scanning the class.

Thank God we got that part done. We just gotta get the song done then we're done with this project. I think to myself as the teacher continues talking about music.

I started to drift off into space until I felt someone tap my shoulder. I looked to them to see Ember.

"Hey, are you okay?", she asks softly as if she could break me if she spoke anything but softly.

"Yeah I'm f-fine.", I say with a nod and she gives me a hesitant nod and looks forward then back at me.

"We're supposed to be qorking on our project right now.", she says I look at her and nod.

"Okay, so we all agreed I'd be the song writer and I'll the singer, Ember you play the guitar, and Blake you will probably be playing the drums, we're still going with that plan, right?", I ask and they nod.

"Okay so, what do we want the song to be about?", I ask pulling out my song writing book.

"Maybe we can do one of the songs you already made, ya know like you can finish it and then we can do that song.", Ember suggests and I shake my head.

"No, they're all really kinda depressing plus, I need everyone knowing how I feel, like my emotions.", I tell her and she looks at me suspiciously then snatch the notebook outta my hand.

"Hey! Give that back!", I say in a raised tone. She flips to the first page where I had written a song called 'I'm Fine'. She starts reading it and frowns a little. I tried to snatch the book back but keyword being tried.

"Damn my shortness.", I say out loud causing Ember and Blake to laugh a little.

"It's not funny!", I pout and they look at me.

"Aww, don't worry, your shortness makes you look cute.", Blake says patting my head and I swat his hand away.

"Do I look like a damn dog?", I ask him with a death glare and shakes his head.

"Good now, give me that back!", I yell snatching my book back from outta her hands

"Ms.Smith what is with this disruption?", Mr.Anderson asks and she gulps.

"Just trying to get my belongings back nothing to be to concerned about.", I tell him not want all the attention that's on me to be on me.

"Okay, I let it off this time but next time, try to be more civil about it instead of yelling.", he says to me and I nod

"Yes sir.", I say to him and sit back down. For the rest of my classes all the way to lunch I couldn't help but get lost in my head.

🥨🥔" Lunch Time "🥨🥔

As I walk to lunch I think to myself....

What if they leave me because I'm to closed off?

What if they're just being my friends cause they wanna be there to see me fall?

And as soon as I thought that I was knocked over and I fell to the ground.

"Watch where you're going you fat pig.", he says kicking me and then pouring his lunch on me. I felt my blood start to boils he started to walk away but kept my anger contained somehow

"One of these days....", I start to say as I get up off the floor.

"You're gonna feel so so damn guilty for what did not only to me, hell I don't even care happens to myself, but you will be feeling guilty for all of those that didn't deserve it.", I tell him wiping whatever food I could wipe off with my sleeves and then I continue

"But, you know what the best revenge is for them?", I ask him already pretty sure that my eyes were really dark but bright green.

"Success and kindness. They could get anywhere in life and be anything they want and as long as they continue to fight back and not let you dumbasses win then I'm sure that they can do it.", I say to him realizing the cafeteria went really quiet. I walked past him and out the cafeteria doors.

I walk to the bathroom make sure nobody's in there before I lock the door I open my bag and get my spare clothes out.

I knew I shouldn't have worn one of my favorite hoodies but noo I just had to. I think to myself as I take off my food covered clothes and then start to put on my spare clothes. After I'm done changing I go back to the cafeteria and go straight to the table.

"So, what happened over there?", I hear Blake ask and I just roll my eyes.

"Some stupid jock that my mind to.", I say as I felt someone's presents behind me. I turn around only to see the one and only Chase Stone.

"What the hell do you want Chase?!", I exclaim feeling aggregated since him and his friends always want to bully me.

"Easy there killer I just wanna talk.", he says holding his hands up in surrender as he sits down.

"I just wanna say, I'm sorry.", he says and I laugh loudly. After a few moments I realized nobody else was laughing.

"If this some kinda sick joke I suggest you leave before I snap.", I say snapping my fingers in front of his face.

"I'm being serious though.", he says and I chuckle.

"Really?", I ask and he nods.

"Fine, I forgive, that doesn't mean I fucking trust you. You gotta earn that and show me can trust you.", I tell him and he groans.

"But you trusted them easily.", he says pointing to the group

"First off, Ember and Blake are still on my trust issue radar, secondly Summer has always been there for me when I needed her, and lastly Stacey never did anything to me and I helped her, she apologized for what she did and hasn't shown me any reasons why not to trust her, plus I don't fully trust her, no offense Stacey.", I tell her and she nods.

"None taken, I understand.", she says and I smile.

"And another thing, you've given me so many reasons why not to trust you it's not even funny so yeah, I don't trust you, what's your point?", I ask him and he frowns a little.

"Okay, I get it. I mean we used to be friends and I betrayed you to be popular and for that, I'm so so sorry for, I'll make it up to you.", he says and I roll my eyes

"Time will only tell.", I say and the bell rings.

"See ya around.", I tell him grabbing my things and walked outta the cafeteria.