Chapter 4

The rain extensively poured down from the clouded sky's. Children would run past me but never saw me standing there.

I heard something slam and when I looked over, it was the same woman from Jay's house. She began to drive away with tear marks down her cheeks and a large handprint.

I walked back into the house searching for the bastard. I found him in his bedroom again.

A bottle of whiskey continued to rest in his hand as he watched what seemed to be a recorded news report. My picture popped up on the screen, followed by a new picture of my cleaned up body lying peacefully in a room.

I heard the swig of the whiskey bottle and then glass breaking. When I looked over I could see he broke the empty bottle.

He slid his hand down his face. His emotions were unreadable. He mumbles some incoherent words.

I would feel bad for him but...I can't...

I can't feel anything but the shards of my heart piercing through my chest.

The guilt I felt we would have a small fight.

Gone

The love I felt for him.

Gone. Broken

The trust I had for him.

Gone. Broken. Lies

The hate I had replaced love with.

So much that it hurts.

I dont care if he was hurt or even if he wasn't. I dont care for him and his fucking problems anymore. Who knows how much he betrayed me. Who cares anyway? He's just some prick that never deserved love. He's the reason I'm dead! He's the reason she killed me! He's the damn reason I'm stuck with a broken heart that I wish I could just fix but can't! I can't!

I tried holding my breath but now I can't.

The dreams I had with him are gone.

The love I once used to feel was gone.

I feel like a betrayed my family by leaving them but I didn't mean to.

The jerk in front of my spirit is one of the reasons I died...

One of the reasons I'm trapped.

Maybe I can never be free...

Something caught his eye, making him quickly look in my direction. After a second he saw nothing so he ran his hand throws his messy hair.

I would have found it cute but I don't

I would have comforted him but I won't

I would have loved him but NEVER will I again!

That I can promise...

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