/JEALOUSY /
Throwing my purse on the couch, I rush to the window to make sure he is gone.
" Did you have fun?"
Oh god.
He's here.
Immediately , I turn to look at him.
Standing at the bottom of the stairs, looking at nothing but me.
He's so still.
Everything is so still.
" Did...you..have..fun?" now holding the stair rail, knuckles turning white.
Emphasizing each word.
I stopped asking myself how he gets in a long time ago.
Why is he mad?
What should I say?
What does he want me to say?
Moving my eyes from his hand, I feel a slight guilt for going out with Erick, just by looking at those tormented brown eyes.
They change from a brown to totally dark in seconds.
" I'm ... I'm sorry" I tell him, shivers already running up my body.
Not of fear, this is something else I feel for him.
" For what?" He spits out harshly
Angling his head to the side, listening carefully
"I ..I made you mad"
Moving closer to me
" You see that's not the problem, I'm already mad" impossibly closer still.
" The problem is you drive me insane, absolutely out of my senses"
Faces inches apart
" I don't like you"
" I'm sorry... I'm sorry" I keep begging for forgiveness. I just can't stop begging.
" I don't like you at all" he says it more to himself
" I don't like you.."
I didn't realize I have my eyes closed begging for him to forgive me.
Our faces inches apart, he rests his head against mine. That's the only part we're touching.
His breathing is erratic, I don't dare open my eyes.
I can't stand those haunting eyes.
A few seconds pass and his breathing gets back to normal.
" I hate you"
The intensity of the statement gets me to open my eyes and stare straight into his.
What I've been fearing.
" I hate that I can not get you out of my head"
Suddenly he starts hitting his head and pulling at his hair, as if that will get me out of it
" Stop...stop" I touch his hands to stop him, bringing them back down to his sides.
He brings his hands up my face and wipes the tears I didn't notice falling down my cheeks.
What is he doing to me?
Still staring at each other, he stops wiping the cascading tears and focus on my dry lips.
I involuntary wet them with my tongue. Uncomfortable from the intense stare.
" I can't stop these tears from falling..." His whole attention now at my parted lips " but I'm dying to wet these lips for you"
And with that, he takes what he wants.
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