/ AMBIVALENCE /

I hear a honk.

it must be Erick. 7 pm sharp.

what's his deal?

getting my purse, I make my way outside. I hope this goes smoothly. quick and painful.

he's already opened the door for me. I thought I told him I didn't like it.

what a jerk.

"looking lovely L" giving me a thorough lookover.

okay! I hope he doesn't think I wore this for him.

you wore it for Rage.

Rage

oh god!

I hope he doesn't find out about this. I impulsively look back at the house, what if he's seeing this right now?

I hesitate.

"come on, L we don't have all night"

brushing the thought aside, I'll just go finish it off with this one.

then I don't have to worry.

the restaurant is fancy I'll give it that. classic Erick.

we haven't said a word since we've got here. since I'm the one dumping him, I think I should initiate small talk.

"what a nice place..."

"I knew you would love it" he tells me more proud of himself for a good choice.

typical.