I hate my feelings

VYN'S P.O.V

I know what is going on right now but I can't help it, I love cecile so much! And it hurts me a lot to know that it was not me who she want.

Why is everything's so fast is she really that eager to get married to AA that much.

This is the last chance to know if I didn't have any chance to her anymore.

But if she choose her over me again I still won't back down I will still fight my love for her till the end.

I was in the area when AA said to our friends that she was getting married. Nes and mine house is in the same subdivision. And I was just strolling around with my bike when I see them talking I hide near them to hear what they are talking. I also see Nic and Ros attempting to be near them.

I heard everything and I also heard their plan. And I will do my best to stop her. I won't let her hurt my beloved cecile.

I concede for a long time for her to see the worthy of the woman I loved the most but she never bait an eye to her even just a little and now I'm done watching her being pathetic to the woman she loved.

I didn't make any appearance to them because I'm angry as hell I'm consume with rage and I don't want to make any conflicts with cecile's plan so I decided to go back home.

And I'm also angry with myself for being stupid, I should have fight for her love since the first time I confess, I shouldn't have been quite for a long time. And now here I am a great stupid being inlove to the woman who couldn't love me back.

I always see her cry for her and it hurts me a lot, it brokes my heart to see her broken too. Why couldn't be me cecile. I wanted to ask her every time I see her in that state. But I couldn't, because I know the answers to my questions it's her its been always her.

After a week of that event AA wanted to go to a mall but it was closing hour. We didn't have any choice because we came from a shoot from a far place and she just came back in the city when she said she wanted to go to the mall.

But just when were about to enter the guard told us that all the shop inside the mall is close. We decide to go back home but I heard someone called cecile's nickname, i know AA heard that too and I know that yell caught her attention.

But before that incident I already saw them in the parking area talking. And my world stop when I saw cecile's new look.

She look like an angel who fell from the sky.

And I felt also in heaven when I saw her.

I know she see us because of our usual disguise when escaping a work.

But what I couldn't believe is when her friends shouted her nickname. That is the reason why AA's attention is caught and just disappear like a bubble in our side.

I know she will follow them but that is useless because eventually she will know in her engagement party who cecile is. Beside her mother invited us to their engagement party that will be held tonight.

AA doesn't know that also them just only me.

I wanted to buy a suit to that's why I came with them even though I can request an immediate suit to my big sister who has a boutique of formal attire.

I just wanted to buy with my own money that's all.

My thinking is interrupted when someone spoke.

Oh I remember that there will be a party tonight with the one of the biggest company. It said that it was an engagement party with their new partner company. Both of their heirs is the one that will get married. Our family is invited and my mommy is excited because she can now socialise with her amigas again. Ros said.

Oh shoot thanks that you said it ros, we were invited too. My suit is ready and I'm with my dad, my mom is out of town today because of some business matters she can't leave. Nic said.

I wonder nic your mom is always out of town because of business does uncle won't get jealous because of that? I asked to nic.

It was just okay with dad besides it became a routine for them. Daddy doesn't want anyone to handle our business because it will became mine someday when I'm done reaching my dream he said. Besides he just wanted to see me always perform. Nic reason to me.

Your gifted with love with your dad unlike me. Daddy doesn't want anything to do with us it was just mommy who support me always, the reason I don't want to stay in our house is because they always fight because of my it's better to be in a bar than to that hell house. Nes said with sadness.

Mommy and I are going too were invited, and my mhine is there so I need to go there. Nes followed to what she said.

You AA are you and your family invited? Ros asked AA but when she finds where AA was she's not there anymore.

Where's AA? Ros aked them I still stay quiet just like I always do to be quiet.

Yeah where is she? Where did she go? Don't tell me one of her fans see her and now she's been ambush by them? It was nes theory. It was damn funny. I can't contain my laughter.

How come she got ambush were on disguised guys, that's imposible. Nic said. Impossible my ass hahahahaha..

I cannot take it anymore so I just burst out my laughter at them.

Your all funny. AA abandoned us just because of a girl she was chasing now. I said to them still laughing.

What why didn't you said earlier so were just stupid here talking when the one who invited us to go to this closed mall is her? Ros whined

I just shrugged my shoulders at them.

Okay guys now that AA is gone we should all go and be ready for the event tonight. I said to them.

Ros is there a problem? Whoare you looking at that direction? As I see ros looking at someone's back.

Nothing, I just thought I see someone I know. She said to me.

Okay can we go now? I said

Okay let's go. She queried

I go straight to my sister's botique.

Vanessa? I called my sister as I enter her botique.

Hey Vyn! What brought you here? My sister ask as she peep from another room of her botique.

Let me guess! She act like thinking hard.

My sister loves riddle so much.

Oh! I get it, it was the party tonight right? She guess correct orshe already know and just playing games with me again.

Are you coming? I ask her.

Sure I am, I wanna see your crying face later, because your bestfriend and your beloved woman is going to marry soon. As she teased me, but I got pissed.

Nessa don't start with it, and be quiet someone might hear you. I said pissedly.

So what if someone hears me, they will know it later eventually. She reason out.

Haist! Little sister you will just hurt yourself on what you are doing now. Will you stop pretending that you care for AA, You love cecile ever since so why don't you fight for her.

Now she's beginning to scold me on what I'm doing with my self.

I wish I could Big sis but if cecile will be the one who run away from me, I can't so it's better this way. I said.

Better? better for what? for being a friend! How pathetic that thing lil sis. If that was the case, learn how to move on, learn to love someone for you to let go of her. She raised her voice a little.

I guess your right Big Sis, that will be the only option for me now, to move on.

My sister only wants the best for me so why try it.

Good lil sis, better listen to big sis so you won't get hurt over and over again it hurts to see you cry lil sis.

As she ruffles my head while teasing me and I hate when she does it.

Yes big sis, and stop calling me lil sis would you! I hafly yelled.

Oh! how sweet of you veronica that's why I love so much. And she still continue teasing me.

Big Sis!!! I yelled at her.

Okay I'll stop, but I really love that annoyed face of yours, whenever I call you lil sis or veronica hahahaha. She really knows how to tease me well.

haha funny big sis. as I said sarcastically.

Okay, now will get you ready for tonight and I will too. Be my date tonight okay. I squinted my eyes at her.

Where's your boyfriend alex? Is it a L. Q? I curiosity asked.

Will you stop calling that name infront of me. That bastard he is in the arms of her woman again. She angrily said.

Why don't you breakup with him already so it was now done and you won't suffer this. Now I'm the one whi is scolding her.

I did it long time ago bht he is the one who still going back to me. She lowered her as she said it.

The problem is you big sis. You always take him back. Stop being stupid nessa. Now I was totally pissed with that guy.

This conversation is enough, just go home and be ready I already sent your suit there. I'll be home quickly when I'm done telling my employees what to do. I'll get ready to in my unit upstairs so you wont tell me that I'm taking long in preparing things. As she was sending me home like the usual thing she does when she was being confronted.

Okay! Bye big sis see you later. I just sighed and let her be and bid my goodbye to her.

I come forward to my car and drive home fast.

And I came home but I'm still thinking of what my big sis said to me, to move on as she said.

I guess that will be the choice left for me to move on and continue my life without her in my life.

But she was never in my life since then.

For the second time around I will still conceived and try to forget about her now this time its for good.

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